Trouble around every corner (Carl Grimes Gay fanfiction)

I don't understand!

Carl's point of view/

When I see my dad smile a james I am immediately excited. That means that something must have happened to make my dad befriend him. They were sent to go find fuel we have lost power just an hour ago. Every one was outside to greet them. But I needed to be in private with him, I have to tell him how I feel.

James point of view/

The walk home was somewhat the best time since this Apocalypse started. Rick seemed to actually care about what I said, we even shared the funniest times of our lives. As we arrived back we noticed Alexandria was out of power. Upon entering we noticed every one outside cheering."They don even care bout us being safe dey just worrying bout the TV and radio working. Its a shame to know with out us they be dead already." Daryl growls, Glenn nods in approval and rick is just looking around.

When we enter deanna asks what happened if anything was wrong and did we get it. Glenn nods and gives here son adien and another guy the fuel. She looks at it and says it will last us four months. As we walk away rick tells me he needs to talk with me later. I nod but later on am worried, what does he want to talk about. Does he still hate me, all of these questions are running inside my head until I hear a voice.

"James, can I talk with you" Carl asks

"Sure"

"Follow me"

"You lead"

He leads me into an empty house. We are in the Attic pulls out a comic book and some sodas. I am enjoying every second of this three days ago I hit him and now were like best friends. We are reading a Batman comic well he is reading it. He has his shoes off and is reading it with his feet in the air.

I am not doing anything but watching I find it cute. WAIT WHAT!????!??!! Did I just say cute? Well what ever I'll say amusing. I laugh at him realizing I'm laughing out loud. He hears me and turns around with a confused look.

"What's funny?" He ask me

"Nothing"

"Last chance"

I look at him serious not knowing if he's serious. He looks at me and says tell me james in a playful voice. To let me know he's joking. I smile and he says times up and slings me to the ground and starts tickling me. I beg for his forgiveness but he continues. After exactly two minutes he stops while I'm still pinned to the ground and say you ready to talk if not I'll give you two more minutes.

I start out of breath," ok ok I was laughing because your a fifteen year old teen reading a nine year old comic book. He starts to blush and says "just for that.."I don't let him finish in run but he catches me. And tickles me for a minute. I again beg for forgiveness and thats when it happens he says "I forgive you" and he kisses me. I pull away

He looks at me regretting what he just did. I say "um Carl I have to go" with that I run downstairs and keep running until I'm home. When I turn around I see Carl in the window hitting himself in the head repeating "stupid stupid stupid". When I walk in the house terry asks me am I alright I respond with a yes and go to my bedroom and lay down.

I have plenty of questions in my head. Why didn't I kiss him back!!??! Why did I enjoy it!!??! Am I gay??!? Will he give me another chance.?!?? I think all of these questions and know what I must do. I have to see him tomorrow and tell him how I feel.