Dying to be with you. Aonung x neteyam zombie apocalypse AU

I cant, I cant do it

aonungs pov/ 
After awhile of going through buildings we desired to split into groups, I was with neteyam and rotxo was with lo'ak. We had a good amount of food now we just needed stuff for winter. "My old house is right around the corner, my dad had a bunch of canned food in the basement plus I'm pretty sure we still have a bunch of blankets and jackets" neteyam said as he turned a corner. "That's my house, come on" "slow down dude" I said as we walked inside. We got as much of the canned food as we could then we went upstairs. I went to look in a few rooms on one side of the house and neteyam went to look at the other rooms. I managed to find a bunch of useful stuff until I heard crying. I was confused so I went to where it was coming from. It was neteyam crying, there where 2 inflected people in front of him. One female and one male, they looked like the people in some of the pictures on the wall down stairs. "Neteyam? " I said as I grabbed his shoulder causing him to flinch. "I can't, I can't do it." He said. I'm assuming they're a family member. I can't let him do that, it'll destroy him. "I'm not going to make you, just go down stairs and wait for me ok? " I said. He nodded and walked out of the room. After I knew he was down stairs I grabbed my gun. I knew he said not to use a gun but I'm not going to use my bat on his family. I held the gun up to the males head and fired before doing the same to the female. "I apologize for what happened to you" I said before going down stairs. "We should probably get going before others start showing up" i said. he nodded and we started walking to where the truck was. "they were my parents" "huh?" "the infected people you shot back there, they where my parents" "oh,im sorry. if it helps you feel better me and reya lost our parents about a month after this started and rotxo lost his grandmother pn the first day, she took care of him becouse his parents died when he was 3" i said. "oh, well thank you for what you did back there. theres no way i could have done it myself" he mumbled. rotxo and lo'ak were already at the truck "why the hell dose it look like my brother was crying!? Did you hurt him!" Lo'ak shouted as he jumped out of the truck bed and ran to check his brother "no he didnt hurt me, i saw mom and dad" "oh, did you-" "no, aonung did because i couldnt do it" neteyam said. "lets go guys theirs a bunch of them coming" rotxo said. neteyam and lo'ak got in the truck bed with the bags of stuff we found and i sat upfront as rotxo drove back to the house.