you saved me ~tbz ff

~ᵐᵉᵉᵗⁱⁿᵍ~

5:35 p.m
y/n pov

die, dying was everything i was thinking about i want to end everything i hate it here i hate everyone i hate everything i hate myself. everything in my life has gone wrong i cant fix anything now every thing is messed up in my life the fact that sunoo is now apart if this is even worse i was hoping that he wouldn't have know about me...i wish nothing happened to me...

"y/n.." i heard softly and felt light shaking i looked at who it was..it was sangyeon who called me "here are the rest of the boyz" he said " everyone meet y/n and whats your name?" he asked sunoo "my name is sunoo, kim sunoo" he said "thats my name as well!" sunwoo said then someone kneeled and asked "are you okay? do you need someone to talk to?" i could tell it was jacob with his soft voice i didn't know if i should or shouldn't so i stayed still and he said "oh okay" and left with a small smile

it was silent,it had been silent for a bit they didnt know what to say sunoo also didnt know what to say i dont think any of them have been in a situation like this before so they dont really know how to help me " i-i understand if you guys dont know what to do o-or what to say" i said to them "we are sorry we cant do much to help you" sangyeon said "but something that will help us help you is if you tell us a bit more about everything you are going through" he continued "..." i didnt say anything, was i okay to say that?did i have the courage to say that? would i be able to say everything without crying? "or you can just tell me?" someone said i looked up at chanhee and i hesitated but then i nodded he held out his hand for me to grab and i did then we went to somewhere far and we sat down

"where should i start..?" i questioned "a-actually could we get jacob?" i asked chanhee nodded and called him to come over "he said he's on his way" i nodded "im here" jacob said "okay..how far do you want me to go?" i asked them both "start from middle school" i nodded then started telling them about what happened and how bad it got

~time skip~ (im lazy)

"im sorry you had to go through that, i would never imagine someone to go through that" jacob said "would you like a hug?" i nodded not caring who was around ,i really really needed this hug right now, but then i started to cry while i was in jacobs arms i never felt so cared about ever before i have never felt this type of love and comfort before

once i had calmed down we went back to the others "we talked about it..we are wondering if you want a new start..?" sangyeon said
"huh....what do you mean new start?" i asked "i know we just met but if its okay with you, we'd like to help you and have you come live with us, and if its too soon we understand but we can always try to get to know each other better, if thats okay with you?" he replied "i'd like to wait..its a bit too soon.." i said "of course we understand, could we get both of your numbers? to contact either of you anytime?" he said "yeah, you can" sunoo said and i just nodded and sangyeon gave us his phone to put it in "ill give it to you guys when we go home" he said to him members and they nodded and turned to us "well i'll contact you later,okay?" he said "okay.." i said "you guys should head home it's getting late" he told us and then left with his members "wait-" i heard it was jacob " i want to give this to you if you feel down or are getting hurt press it and it will notify us, we just want to keep you safe." he smiled, hugged me and left back with his members

"lets go?" i nodded and we walked side by side (the8 😭) until i got outside of my house " please dont stay by the house today" i said "its not going to be good either way its going to be the same, i want to see you go past my house before i go inside.." i continued "y/n...just stay with me tonight..please, sneak out and go to my house, i dont want to see you hurt. i dont like to see you bruised up." sunoo said he then grabbed my hand tear's started to form " sunoo im sorry i cant, i wish i could but i just cant" i said and he wiped his tears " okay i understand.. ill get going then" he started to walk then he turned around and came back to me hugging me tightly "please, please think about it and stay with me" sunoo said "okay, ill think about it, i promise" i told him " now go home" and he left

(slight abuse and harsh words skip if aren't comfortable )

i went inside i saw the mess my family made and started to pick it up the mess "where the hell have to been" of course my sister had to make it worse by walking into the room " i was out" i said "APPA!!!" there she goes calling my dad to snitch me out and get me in trouble "what is it?!" he said then he saw me and said "YOU!, you came home late two days in a row and you said it would never happen again" i was still cleaning them looked at him in his eyes "i never said anything to you or  promised you anything!" i said " your talking back to me?!?" he asked "no, im just simply talking to you and correcting what you said" i told him still cleaning "why should you care? it's not like your my father." i told him " YA-" he started but i cut him off "oh dont let me forget that i can report you for assault of a child thats not your and child abuse even though im not yours" i received a slap from him "you think you hurt me?! well you dont fyi, this will be the last time ill ever be here with this family, you guys cant even call yourselves human if all you do it abuse and hurt people for a living, you come home drunk every day, i have to clean up the messes you make, maybe be humans learn how to do things for yourselves instead of relying on a 13 year old to do everything for you!" with that i threw down the cleaning supplies went to my room grabbed a suitcase put all of my belongings in there and a backpack to put the my last few things then i called sunoo

"sunoo come by my house im leaving" i told him "wh-" then i hung up walking back downstairs to wee my brother was there as well, well this mans son. "where are you going slave?!" he asked "im leaving" i told him "no your not" he then grabbed my neck and shoved me to the ground i remember the thing jacob gave me it was on my wrist i pressed it and then that mans son kicked me and punched me for about 3 minutes when we heard a knock, well bang "sunoo?" i said really hoping it was him  "y/n" someone shouted "sangyeon!" i shouted

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
well its been a while since i posted
this week was awful for me about what happened with moonbin and losing myself and hurting about him i needed a break and last week was my day week and i had state testing but i should be able to post more

moon bin
4/19/23
fly high 🕊️