Always And Forever

FIVE

-MATEO-

After I dropped Ava at her house and waited some minutes so I could make sure she would get inside her home safe and sound I started driving back to my house.

I take a look at my hand. My fist was bleeding as Ava had said to me. I still can't believe how reckless she is. How could she just agree and follow a guy she doesn't know to God knows where. His intentions were not good, he would fuck her and then just leave her like she is nothing more than a whore and Ava would do that, she would let him fuck her. Only the thought of Ava getting fuc-
Oh my god!, I can't even say it. It drives me crazy. The thought of someone like that guy touching her, kissing her. It boils my blood. Suddenly, I feel like a fire has erupted inside of me and takes all over my body. I feel sweat going down my forehead and my breathing becomes heavier and heavier as seconds pass. I tighten my grip on the steering wheel and sped up. I will kill him. I will fucking kill him. This all I can think about. How to torture that guy to death. What I had done to him was not enough. He fucking deserved more than that, more pain.

But again, I cannot understand why I care so much. Why it bothers me so much, why it drives me insane the thought of Ava being touched by someone else. Else? Does that mean that I want to touch her and no one else? No. It can't be that. Ava is not my type. I mean, I don't really have a type since I don't do relationships, I don't do dating. I only care about fucking and nothing else. All the girls I have had relations with were like me. They just want to fuck and that pleases me too. I don't want anything else from them as they don't want anything else from me.

But Ava is not like that. Is nothing like that. She is the type of girl that wants to love and be loved exclusively. She wants to find the love of her life and be with him forever. Make a family and stuff like that. I am nothing like that. I'm completely the opposite so I couldn't feel any kind of attraction for her and even if we were on the same page I still wouldn't because she's Daniel's little sister which is why she is off limits as Daniel has said to me and his other friends so many times or at least I shouldn't feel anything for her.

But for some reason I am attracted to her, physically. Only physically but I should not be. Ugh!
What the hell am I thinking? Stop!
But I can't. What the fuck is going on with me? Wake up Mateo.
I think it's time I contacted some of the girls I know. This way I can forget about her. It's just the alcohol and the exhaustion of the day Mateo. Nothing more, nothing less. Tomorrow everything will be fine. I am sure I am not attracted to her. Period.

I roll down the window to take some fresh air and this calmes me down a little bit. I am more relaxed now, not so tensed. Thank God.

I take the long way home so I can relax completely and finally the fire that had erupted inside of me before, was put down.

I put my car in the garage once I arrive and head towards my home. I open the door and leave my keys on a counter I have next to the entrance and I decide to take a cold shower. This is what I need right now.

While I am in the shower, the cold water running down my back I think about everything that had happened at the party. Once I bring Ava in my thoughts and how she was dressed I feel again a fire erupted, in my lungs this time. The beautiful purple dress she was wearing today that reached over her knees and made her body look even more sexy than already is. The way she was looking at me and smiled at me. That smile. That smile makes the fire inside me getting hotter. Suddenly I feel something between my legs. I look down and I curse looking at my erection.

"Fuck"

The thought of Ava Astley made me hard. Holly shit. I try to ignore it but is so difficult as I am still thinking about her.

I get out of the shower and head towards my closet. I get changed into some grey sweatpants. I decide to watch a movie so I can get her out of my mind and relax because my dick still continues to hurt me like a bitch. I picked a horror movie although they don't scare me at all. I just thought it would be the best option to get away of my thoughts.