28.05
Avdol,
I thought you died you stupid oaf! Im not mad at you however, i have half a mind to march down there and rip everyones head off! If i had your muscles i would in a heartbeat but i know the prisons down there don't offer visitation and i couldnt stand being in the same city as you without being able to see you.
Darling, you're as funny as you are stubborn. I should be saying how could someone like YOU like someone like me. Youre so cool and meta and im a scared little baker. You could have anyone you want, ive seen those knights checking you out they would be a better match for you would they not? (if you get with a knight after i said that i will crawl into a ball and pass away.)
Its okay that you didnt come see me! I wanted you to have a leisurely trip and the letter was awfully cute. (is the sign off dwarfish?)
I couldnt forget you!
Jean XOXOXO
P.S. i have so many new cakes for you to try
14.06
Dearest Jean,
It's been awhile since i last sent you a letter, i havent forgotten your smile i think its physically impossible for me to, i never told you because i was scared you would think i was weird but your smile made my heart skip a beat, please never stop smiling. The guards only allow one letter per month. So i'm deeply sorry for the period of little contact.
Your letter brightens this drab situation and knowing that youre out there living happily is all i need, and i think you know that bakers are my type. Ive had alot of time to contemplate and ive come to terms with myself. Ive never really thought about it until now but im pretty sure i am gay. That doesnt really change much but i thought you should know .
Its not long now until i could get released, if the guards think i have been good enough about a month and a half i believe. Ill contiune to be a good prisoner so i can return to maccsun in due time. Its not too bad in here so please dont worry about me, im as tough as i am stubborn.
Also yes, the sign off was a dwarvish phrase from my home :)
Avdol.
17.06
Avdol!!
Its so weird here without you! I miss you more than words can say. Ive kept your other letters safe and i reread them everyday. Im glad you like my dorky smile, kids used to make fun of it but i think life is too fun to stop smiling. I figured the mailing situation was horrible over there, they need to realise that prisoners are people too! Especially the unfair arrests such as yourself.
Im so proud of you!!! Its hard finding out who you are, especially if you have no experience. It doesnt change what i think of you and i was actually worried about the opposite, i dont know what i would do with myself if i was so attracted to a straight person, embarassing to say the least.
Not to get too sentimental but Ive been thinking about you and our possible life together alot, i don't know if you would like this but i want to spend any moment i can with you for a very long time, you can always say no to me but im not the most exciting or endearing man in the world but i can stay loyal to you for the rest of our lives, i know that seems like a big promise but im serious about you.
(i feel like such a dork)
Come home safe,
Jean <3
26.07
My Jean,
I'm sorry i havent been able to write to you, life here has been as crazy as it can get in a heavily guarded prison. You know how i came to zelcher looking for my father? Guess who got escorted into the prison with a 3 month conviction for trying to steal some bread? My father! Its a small world huh.
It had been a couple days before i was actually able to speak to him, but when i did he scolded me for being in prison, while he is in prison? He was always weird like that. Anyway, he hasnt had the means to make it back home as it is a long journey. I told him that Carrie is okay and at home now. When his sentence is over im going to travel to zelcher and take him home with me. Im just happy that he's my same old pop, well now with a criminal record.
Besides all that, ive been approved for release in 2 days time, ill come see you as soon as i get out. Don't reply to this letter as ill be long gone by the time it is delievered to the prison.
Ive been thinking about you too, so so so much. You should know that i could never say no to you, i will literally travel the world to prove to you that you are the most exciting and endearing man. I dont doubt your loyalty for a minute, ive been locked up since may and youre still writing letters to me! I cant wait to see your handsome face on my return to maccsun.
See you soon,
Avdol.
