bardagulan \ Oikawa x Reader chats tagalog

What a shame

"Hija, ang talino mo tapos fine arts ang kukuhanin mo? Jusmiyo! Sayang ang talino mo, dapat nag doctor o abogado ka nalang."

I sat silently on my chair, I was in the dining room. We were celebrating my sister's graduation. The focus was supposed to be on her, why was I suddenly the target of my insensitive relatives?

Ever since my sister moved out, a heavy weight was suddenly on my shoulder. It felt so real I could feel it. I notice the slight changes every day, ako na palagi ang inaasahan.

Tulungan mo nga lolo mo.

Dapat mataas grades

Ano ba? Bakit ganito luto mo?

Ikaw mag luto ha.

"Saan po ba kayo pupunta?"

Suddenly, I saw all the hatred in my step mom's eyes. I knew where she was going, I knew I was slowly becoming the second parent, I knew it was my turn

to be used.

I knew, alam ko. But I had to ask, I need the confirmation. I knew, but I couldn't accept it. It feels like yesterday I was playing with my barbie dolls, and hear the loud yells and voices of my mom and sister arguing outside the room. Before I brush it off, god brush it off again.... I acknowledge the thought that someday, that'll be me.

"Saan po kayo pupunta." It was no longer a question.

"Iinom ako. Umayos ka dito." I flinched at the loud slam of the door.

Natauhan ulit ako. That memory was a year ago. So many things have changed, as for Oikawa.... I don't want to see him.

"Y/n naman huwag ka ganiyan." He said, he held my hand and looked at me with tears in his eyes.

No. Hindi pwede...

"No please, don't make this harder for me, for us."

Just when I thought things were painful enough, he knelt down in front of me.

"Please, mahal kita."

I couldn't help it anymore. I cried, I cried so much.

"Tangina naman! Please Oikawa... Wag mo na pahirapan sarili mo."

I inhaled a large amount of air before speaking again, to catch my breath.

"Hindi tayo pwede.."

"Mahal mo ba ako? Minahal?"

Oo, oo sobra. There was nothing I wanted more than to just be with him.

"Sobra."

"Then why?! Please, kailangan ko ng sagot mo. Kung ayaw mo talaga sa akin, sabihin mo! Murahin mo ako, saktan mo ako. Hindi ko kayang mabuhay na umaasa na may chance na maging tayo. Tangina nalilito ako."

I hate this, I hated seeing us like this.

"It's too much. I can't give you parts of myself when there's nothing left! Ubos na ubos na ako. Pagod na pagod na ako.."

I tried to tell him but he wouldn't stop. He just can't. We both can't accept the cold truth.

So I told him a lie.

"May iba ako."

"H-ha?" His voice was shaky, his eyes widened. I don't know if I can do this any longer.

"You heard me, I love someone else."

After what felt like eternity, he nodded. But the pain in his eyes said otherwise.

"Umalis ka na."

"Pero—" He stopped himself.

"Sige, if that's what you want." He slowly turned to walk away.

Before leaving, he looked at me one last time. With a smile.

"Mahal kita."

I can tell it was fake, I can tell he was in pain. I know him too well, fuck. How can I forget someone I've known practically my whole life?

Paano kita makakalimitan?

A/N: Wala ehehe may ma write lang
PS: To anyone currently struggling, u are so amazing, I love you, mahal kita haup ka😘