Will Wood I Guess

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Trigger warning
Drugs
Alcohol
Implied SA but not graphic or said explicitly
PTSD maybe
There is a flashback during this that is important to read.

Will and Chris were having a good time with the podcast. Will was on the discord reading questions, joking around, and having fun. It was the first time he had had fun in a while. After The podcast had ended, Will took some time to read through the discord. He's not usually as active as he wanted to be so he took the opportunity to do so.

While Will was reading through some chat messages, he saw he got tagged in something.

"@WillWood Someone posted some photos and videos of you from when you were a teen. Most of them were of you drinking/doing drugs. The videos are on YouTube and TikTok while the photos are on Instagram and Twitter. if you want to take them down."

Will stared at his screen as he DM the person for some links. The discord member sent all the link they had.

He needed to see what photos and videos were out there. He clicked on the first link. It was a YouTube link. It was a video of Will from when he was in college. He was at a frat party doing a keg stand. He then proceed to do a line of cocaine.

Will was disgusted by the video. He went to report the video. He then went to the next link.

The next link was a tiktok. The tiktok was a different video from the same account that the YouTube video was on. Will relied that the account was dedicated to posting videos of Will went he was younger. Most of them were unfaltering.

Will reported the account, making sure that the videos were all reported. Looking at the views, most had little to any which was comforting.

Will went to the next link which was a Instagram link to some photos. The photos were mostly if him drinking. He wasn't that upset at them. It was from 2012. He knew the user. If he wanted taken down, he could message them. Will decided to leave them alone since he knew nobody was going to see the pictures.

The last link was to some twitter posts. They were from a person he didn't know. He wanted them deleted since it was mostly Will doing some less that tasteful things. He messaged the person, asking them to delete the pictures, they were more than happy to.

Will turned his phone off and stared at the blank screen for some time. His thoughts drifting towards how he used to be. How much of his life he wasted. How much pain he had caused for his family and friends.

Will hated who he was before. He hated every inch of himself for who he used to be.

Even so, he still reminisced the life he had. Occasionally he would have the urge to turn back to the life he had. Will would need to stop himself from making the wrong phone call to the wrong person and receiving some very unnecessary psychedelics.

To clear his head, Will got in his car and went into town. He parked before walking around. He wasn't really paying attention as he walked. He put his airpods in. Without realising it, Will had wondered off and ended up at a vape store. He was at the entrance. It was taunting him.

Will quickly left. Fearing what would happen if he didn't. He was 3 weeks clean. He didn't want to smoke again.

He went back to his car, driving off to go call Chris.

Once back, Will grabbed his phone and rang his friend's number.

"Hey Will, what's up?"
"Hey Chris, can I vent to you for a sec?"
"Yeah of course, what's wrong?"
"Well you know how I've been 3 weeks clean from smoking right?"
"Yeah,"
"Well, today I got sent a while lot of videos of me from when I was in my alcoholic druggie days. So I went off for a walk in town to clear my mind and maybe grab some food. I put my airpods in walking with a thought. Well I ended up at the vape store. Man, I feel so ashamed,"
"Well, did you buy some smokes or vapes?"
"No, I ran off before I did anything,"
"Well, that's still progress. You don't do anything. Yeah you had the urge but you're still clean, you're doing great,"
Will had tears in his eyes telling Chris what had happened.
"Thank you," Wil spoke "I hate remembering the mess I used to be because, a part of me still misses it,"
"Will, that's normal. You're normal. You're doing great and I want you to know that,"
"I love you you fucking dumbass"
"Love you too dipshit"