Corrupted Heart (Scaramouche x Reader)

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A/N : Sorry again for posting like late and besides this chapter will be short.

TW: This chapter tackles the fear of beind sexually assulted

After what happened, you were flabbergasted.

Like what?

Scaramouche ? Me? No way!

And the worst was that Scaramouche behavior towards you had changed. He stopped yelling at you or hitting you. To resume, he stopped abusing you physically or mentally. It was so weird. He wasn't the Scaramouche you used to know.

You found this disgusting. No you were scared. Indeed, Scaramouche was a lot stronger than you. If he wanted to sexually assault you, he would do it. It made you feel sick in your stomack. You were convinced he wanted you only for your body and it terrified you. You we're constantly shivering around him, startled.

But you were wrong, Scaramouche didn't like you for your body. He enjoyed your company. He appreciated your behavior. How you were mentally strong and determinated whereas others would have snapped around him. He was a lot more severe with you and you never gave up.

Scaramouche eventually noticed how you would avoid him. And he decided to give you more space. He would give you less missions and less tasks. He was heavy hearted you didn't like him back but... Yeah he kinda deserved it. He expected your reaction. He wasn't even surprised the slightest. He was okay with that even if it made him feel that way.

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One day you came back from a mission, slightly limping and with a bleeding scar on your face from fighting with hilichurls. You came to Scaramouche's office making yourself the more presentable possible. Eventually he noticed you were wounded. Worried he hurried towards you and stroke your cheek were the scar was to make sure it wasn't too deep.

"Y/N who did this?" He asked with a soft voice.

"Just hilichurls" You pushed away his hand. "And you being worried about me is the last thing I need. Besides, with my vision i can heal myself" You drily responded.

As a reaction, Scaramouche frowned his eyebrows.

"I'm your superior so whether you want it or no i'll take care of this wound."

He really wanted to do that. It made you frustated.

"Oh yeah ?" You boldly sat on his desk. "Then go ahead"

You wanted him to have a reaction. You wanted him to be mad at you for you couldn't take his behavior anymore.

At you surprise, he didn't burst in anger. He just quietly took a health kit searching for antiseptic and a band aid.

You where shocked.

He definitely changed.

He then came back and started to wipe the blood off of your face. After that, he cleansed your wound using the antiseptic. You winced a little from the excruciating pain.
You could tell he was so focused on what he was doing. It made you blush. How could he be that invested in healing you ?

"I'm sorry if that hurt."

He was so kind you couldn't bare it anymore. So you snapped.

"Do you wanna fuck me? If that's so hurry i won't fight back" You spat these violents words. You were ready for what should happen next.

Scaramouche startled. He was shocked. He stopped what he sas doing. That wasn't really what he expected from you. Sex is cool bit that wasn't really what he wanted from you.

"What? N-no I won't do that to you. I don't wanna have sex you. Why would you say that?"

"Stop doing that. You don't really like me. You just wanna have sex with me, it's called lust" You said with an arrogant expression.

"Well that's not really how I feel about you"

"Oh yeah? So how do you feel?"

He hated that. He hated showing his emotions. He would have rather kept them for himself. But he saw a chance of making you his.

"I hate that, you know? I hate sharing how i feel. I hate when people see my emotions."

He paused, poundering his words.

"Y-you have everything I lack. You care for others people. You even cared for someone like me! No one did before. You're stronger than you think... You're stronger than any of my others fatui agents. I really like you. I'll do anything to prove it to you. If you want me to change, i'll change. If you want me to be kind i'll try. You want me to apologize ? Well i'm sorry for everything i did to you."

You were stunned. You couldn't believe a word you heard. Him? Changing for you ? That was crazy. He never showed his emotions before. That was certaintly true. He was being honest.

A wave of another emotion overwhelmed you. No one had ever said to you things like that. Your eyes widened and they were teary. You saw in his eyes he was being honest. Someone finally saw something worth it in you. You will never be left behind again. You will never be alone... Again....

Now your faces were really close. Without you knowing it, you bent forward to kiss scaramouche's lips. That was your way of expressing what you felt for him at this moment

Scaramouche froze for a second, eyes wide opened.

"Y/N-"

You furrowed your eyebrows

"Shut up and kiss me back"

A scowl on scaramouche face appeared when you said that. But it turned quickly into a smirk, you could feel it. He liked that confidence. So he grabbed both of your hands and pinned you against the desk. Kissing you roughly.

"If you say so"

He started caressing your wrists with his thumbs as he kept kissing you. You couldn't stop moaning. Damn that felt so good.

Both of your bodies were close.

"Hold on" He said letting go of you before taking out is vest so he could remain in his sleeveless top. He hurled it in the corner of the room.

His body was so attractive. You couldn't take your eyes out of it. Still laying on his desk, you put both of your hand behind your head. Making yourself confortable.

When he noticed, he smirked. "Love what you see?"

You returned his smirk. "Of course i do."

He chuckle and then got back in top of you, looking down at you while holding your waist. You let your hands slide behind his top and started stroking his abs. He closed his eyes from the pleasure and blushed slightly.

Both of you wanted to share this intimate moment together.

But suddenly, somebody knocked at the door.

"Crap." You said.

When realisation hit scaramouche he demanded bossily. "Go under the desk right fucking now." Before freeing you and rushing towards his vest.

You did as he said, cowering up behind his desk. You were so scared someone finds out about what you just did. While you were hiding you had now the time to think about what happened. You covered your face behind your hands, flushing. You even told your superior to shut up. That was so messed up.

"Come in" He yelled, making you snap back to reality.

A fatui agent entered. He noticed that scaramouche was discheveled but didn't pay attention. He said a few word about a report that was due before leaving.

After that embarassing moment scaramouche let out. "Y/N, you should leave now but we'll get back to what we started, later. When everyone will be occupied."

You peered out from under the desk with a curious look.

"And let's keep that secret shall we?"

You nooded, flushed.

A/N: i'm so sorry my chapters aren't as long as before and that my writing isn't as good as it used to be