A PIECE OF YOU (Freenbecky)

Chapter 36: Knowing

Mon pov

When Sam ask me if i love my husband i didn't answer her coz i know may natitira pa akong pagmamahal sa asawa ko, tj and i known each other for a long time since we're elementary kasama ko na siya shes my first in everything kaya mahirap din kalimutan ang pinag samahan namin kahit na nagawa niya akong lokohin hindi ko parin siya sinukuan pinaglaban ko parin yung pagsasama namin kasi naisip ko palang na hiwalay siya sobrang sakit na kahit na sobrang sakit din ng lokohin niya ako, nagbago naman siya naging maayos ulit ang pagsasama namin, untill we tried to have a baby to have our own family, we tried everything kaso wala padin, tj and i tried the process of what they called surrogate to have our own baby kaso lahat ng process hindi nabubuo that makes the two of us devestated and all our savings are gone kaya itinigil na namin, i really want to have a baby and also tj but the luck is not our side kaya hindi parin kami nagkakaroon, that start our problem bilang mag asawa nagloko ulit siya he cheat many times pero hinayaan ko lang ganun ko siya kamahal not untill i met this certain someone, i met Sam one of my student when i first saw her in my first day of being a professor i already mesmerized by her beauty shes like a living goddess that i see, from her thick eyebrows,curve eyelashes, pointed nose and soft red lips, she practically ignored my presence when i first came in nakatingin siya sa labas na ikinagalit ko but the time when i saw her eyes i feel something inside me ignited just the mere look at her blueish grey eyes, my heart beats faster

That day change everything shes giving me her attention and she start to annoy me it makes me happy sa tuwing ginagawa niya yun yes i act coldy pero ganun talaga ako pero deep inside kinikilig ako sa mga ginagawa niya i feel special kasi nasa akin ang attention kahit na maraming nag papansin sa kanya, everyday I'm hoping to see her in school, and slowly i crave her presence gusto ko syang makita lagi, and the incident in the park really makes me happy kasi ako yung first kiss niya kahit na nasampal ko siya nun

I secretly get jealous sa tuwing may lumalandi sa kanya gusto kung sabunutan sa tuwing may nagpapansin sa kanya i know whatbi feel is not valid kasi may asawa akong tao pero hindi ko talaga mapigilan

When her cousin arrived that i didn't know na pinsan niya pala na pinag selosan ko talaga nung time nayun i feel relieved nung nalaman kung pinsan niya pala yun

I'm confused with my own feelings that time i tell my two friend about what I'm feeling towards quinn and they support me specially Farah, kelly support me too i know the two of them can't get along with my husband kasi cheater daw ito, its true though nanghihinayang lang ako sa mga taon na kasama ko si tj akala ko siya na ang makakasama ko sa pagtanda but turns out its not

All the sadness that i felt when tj start to cheat again are gone when Sam came into my life i feel happy again and i fell inlove with her kahit sa kunting panahon na nagkakilala kami all i know is I'm straight like a pole but when it comes to Sam I'm not

When the vacation came i feel excited kasi kasama dun si Sam but all my excitement went gone it replace with jealousy over the girl named gale, hindi ako pumayag na magkasama sila kaya nag pumilit akong sumabay sa kotse nung gale nayun on the way to el nido palawan is full of jealousy na lagi kung pinapakita kay Sam pero hindi naman ako pinapansin she keep on talking to that gale, ansarap niya sabunutan nag pipigil lang talaga ako, in just glared at them at hindi kona sila pinansin

When we arrived at el nido palawan i ignored Sam galit pa ako sa kanya at nag seselos din ako how could she ignore me the whole ride, but all my jealousy vanish when she kiss me under the sunset, i taste her sweet soft red lips after the kiss i ran away from her hindi naman sa hindi ko gusto nahihiya lang talaga ako pagkatapos ng halikan namin.

The  night came after that kiss and she ignored me again at hindi siya makatingin sakin, nalaman ko din kung bat hindi sya naliligo o sumasali sa activities dahil may allergy pala siya , nung tumayo siya sinundan ko siya and then i confronted her, she cant keep ignoring me, and that night makes me genuinely happy i feel like a teenager again na kasama ang crush niya, everytime she's near my heart went wild, and everytime she kissed feels so magical

I confessed to her of how i feel and its because of my jealousy towards gale na pinsan niya din pala, i cant forget of how gentle she is nung may mangyari samin shes so fucking pure and sweet my feelings grows even more i forgot that her professor malaya naming pinapakita ang pagmamahal namin sa isat isa we make more memories together habang magkasama kami, we spent more together tried the things that we didn't experience everything feels so magicwk of the two of us we made love countless times the memory of her and me is the most happiest that i experience my love for tj fade and my love for Sam grows more and more sa mga araw na kasama ko siya

Kelly and farah are happy for me they support me lalo na nung sinabi kung makikipag hiwalay na ako kay tj, when the vacation is over we're back in reality where Sam is my student and i am her professor, we're more discrete of our action and make a time together in our vacant time

I thought madali lang sakin na sabihin na makikipag hiwalay na ako sa asawa ko pero hindi pala ganun ka dali yun nahirapan akong sabihin kay tj, so when Sam ask me about the annulent thingy Hindi ako agad nakasagot and I'm stupid to ask her kung bat siya nagmamadali,she don't want to be a mere mistress of mine kaya siya nag mamadali naging resulta yun ng away namin na iniwasan niya ako ng limang araw sa limang araw nayun nakahanap ako ng lakas ng loob na sabihin kay tj na gusto ko nang makipag hiwalay sa kanya i realized that i cant live without Sam in my life those five days are like hell for me lagi ko siyang pinupuntahan sa condo niya kasi hindi naman siya tumutuloy dun atsaka hindi ko din alam ang address nung bestfriend niya.

I'm lucky nung nakita ko siya sa park kung saan aksidente kung nakuha ang first kiss niya, i tell her how much i love her and thank god the two of us makes up together thats my happiest moment after five days, we eat dinner together, watch movies and cuddled and we kissed too i just really miss her so much

I don't want to lose Sam in my life kasi hindi ko ata kakayanin yun i just love her so much.

TBC..