Awake

XII

I go to sleep early again.Weird since I'm much to worried to do anything.Its been a few days since we got the call and I have had to stay home from school for the rest of the week and weekend.Its Monday,last day of the weekend and seven days since...dad.They think it is safe for us to at least go to the store so we're there.I walk to go to the bathroom,just one room,and as I walk in and turn on the light then all of a sudden the door closes.I step back to the corner and see a figure emerge from the shadows.Its him.No.It can't be,but it is.That not the most terrifying part.That part is the knife in his hand.

"Your going to regret you were ever born."

I try to back up but there is solid wall.In terrified.No more than terrified,petrified with fear.He lifts his hand up and pain races through my body as I collapse on the ground screaming.

"You idiot,stop."

He says as he kicks me in the side trying to make me stop.He runs at full speed out of the bathroom,but from what I hear it sounds like somebody caught him.Then I black out.

When I wake up I'm in a hospital bed I see my mother and probably the doctor taking.They haven't noticed me yet but the nurse has.

"Doctor."

They both turn and all the worry in my mothers eyes washes away.After that they tell me what happened.After he ran out of the bathroom he ran into somebody and that guy held him down thinking he was doing something wrong until the police came.Then he say you and told the police.Apparently your dad had been mentally unstable his whole life and they have him in prison right now.The only thing that was wrong is when the gave me a mirror.

"What's this for?"

"Just look."

The doctor says then I hold it up and almost faint.Below my left eye there is a giant blood red gash that goes all the way to my chin.The doctor says that it will not get infected,but there will always be a scar there.It doesn't hurt but I know who is going to notice it.The plastics.Ugh,just the thought makes me want to gag,they will always make fun of it.

Later after I am able to leave the hospital,I my mom drives me home.We don't talk much,but I prefer it that way.Nice and quiet.We arrive home and I see Marissa standing by the door.God,really worst timing.

"Get down."

My mom says and I soon realize what she is doing so I duck down do nobody can see I'm in the car.

"Hello Marissa,are you looking for Sage?"

"Uu...ya where is she?"

"Oh...she is at the hospital visiting her brother he was in a car accident."

"Oh when will she be back?"

"Oh...probably around 2:00."

"Ok well bye Mrs.Whiet."

"Bye sweetheart."

My mom goes to unlock the door as Marissa leaves.She made her leave,but she gave away information that I would like to keep out of my school life.After Marissa is gone I lock the car and hurry inside.My mom goes to work,so I just walk around the house and notice what it looks like for the first time.You walk into a hallway that separates of into into the kitchen on right,stairs and computer room,and at the end the living room.The kitchen attaches to the dinning room and that connects back to the living room.The computer room has no doors and doesn't connect to anything.When you go upstairs,first you see my room,then if you turn you see my bathroom.If you turn the other way you see my moms room and her bathroom is connects to her room.Then you turn all the way around and there is a hallway that leads to my brothers room that has a bathroom connected on to it.Space.And lost of it.I check my phone 1:45. Marissa will be over in 15 minutes,cause when she wants something she is very persistent.I feel hunger,not the growling type but the pain.Eat.Eat.Eat.I walk to the kitchen and to get something but I only grab an orange.I peel of the sides slowly and then throw them away.I eat the orange quickly and take a nap.When I wake up Artemis is licking my face.I don't mind.Its 5:00.I decide to get up and as I walk down stairs a note falls of my door.

Sage
Went out for work something came up,be back by 9.
Love,
Mom

All alone.Again.Once I'm fully awake,to get things of my mind,I decide to draw.I start out with something simple like the head and start working my way down.When I finish the pose of the human I start to shade.Once I'm done I color if I feel like it.Im done.Its 6:00.Instead of something fancy I just make some Mac and cheese for dinner.Im not much of a chief but I can make a simple bowl of mac and cheese.When in done its 6:30.I get in the shower cause I have school tomorrow and I don't like showering in the morning.I let the water run over my head,calming my thoughts.Only three remain.Cecilia,Tyson,...and him.Enough.Don't waste your time on him he will never like and he dates a plastic.He will never like you.He will never like you.He will...but...I like him.I give up.I step out of the shower and dry off.Its 7:00.Sarah text me but I ignore it.Its raining outside with thunder and lightning and...and it the perfect time to drift of to sle...No.I do it anyway.I lay down not bothering to pull the covers over my cold legs and immediately my mind is calmed and I drift off to a peaceful sleep for once it is calm and I sleep to the sound of the rain.