Beyond Enough (A Josh Hutcherson love story sequel to Is it Enough to Love you)

Chapter 8: As per usual

A/n:
I am so so sorry oh my god! Please don't stop reading I didn't give up on this book! My life has been insane for the passed couple weeks and I've been very busy and since no one in my actual life knows about this I couldn't just bang out another chapter while surrounded by people. I had finals and then I moved and I've just been very busy so I hope I can make a good enough chapter to make up for it.

Chapter 8:

"So when's the party?" Jennifer grinned at me from where she sat cross legged on the dark cushioned couch as I brought her water two months following Josh's departure.

"What party would that be?" I raised my eyebrows at the girl on my couch who had an excited gleam dazzling in her eyes.

"Josh is out of the house for two more months you can do what ever you want!" She threw her arms up in exasperation disappointed that I hadn't picked up what she had laid down.

"I think I'd rather just lay low for the rest of this time." I shrugged sitting down next to her, "I mean he was working constantly anyways so him being away isn't drastically different."

"What about sex, you're not having any of that? Isn't that drastic? Or is he not life changing in bed?" She winked laughing at her joke and tempting me to join in.

"As I said no monumental changes." I made fun back in a joking tone. "Besides that I don't need to go behind his back to throw a party, I live here too, I can do what I want."

"This is his house though and he's usually quite private about his affairs." Jennifer argued that my throwing a party would have to be a secretive event.

"I knew him for a day when I started living with him, he doesn't seem that private." I shook my head sitting on the coffee table to face her as we spoke.

"First and foremost you were an abused runway street rat what was he supposed to do? Plus he was in love with you since the second he saw you, of course he invited you to live with him." She groaned tossing her head back and placing her water next to me. "It's actually quite spectacular."

"He felt bad, I was a pity case." I shook my head rejecting her last idea.

"You know that's not-"

"Love at first sight? Really? Please tell me you don't actually believe that shit?" I laughed cutting her off letting her notion go again.

"How else do you suppose you managed the life you have?" She rolled her eyes expressing dissatisfaction in the fact that I refused to humor her.

"Luck." I suggested shrugging as I turned to approach the view into the trees from the enormous window facing us.

"It's more than luck." Jennifer stood behind me as her phone began to ring and I moved from the coffee table to the soft couch, "it's insanity." She laughed before pressing the phone to her ear and disappearing into the next room. She was right, up until these past few months my relationship with Josh had been complete insanity. No matter how careful we tried to be we would always leave a trail of fire in our wake sending the world around us as we knew it into riot. Insanity was actually quite a nice word to describe the way it had been.

As of late however I somehow missed the static and noise from before. I found myself craving the passion and the sneaking around especially compared to Josh being away and constantly busy. Most of the time we found ourselves too tired to participate in the cat and mouse games we used to play and found it was less work to just sit and be in the others presence. I would never deny that I loved him however I had an overwhelming and constant feeling that I had become a useless house wife to him and we weren't even married. Statements like that worried me the most, more than my passion deprived aching thoughts and memories swirling in my mind there was the statement written in big bold letters.