//The blues\\-(a South Park Au)

Chapter 1: the grieving.

It's been almost 2 weeks since Stan died. Our friend group just kind of separated since he left. I moved on to hang out with butters and he started hanging out with craigs gang so I guess I'm with them, everyone has been really nice to me recently and I know exactly why. I wonder if it will die down in a few weeks. I can't seem to really connect with anyone like I did with Stan but butters has been really nice, everyday after school me and him go to stand grave together, and then pips. He still misses him, I guess we have something in common. I DONT know how much longer I can go on without him, he was holding me through school practically..I know he wasn't always the greatest guy but he was my super best friend.you couldn't even see the signs back then, I wish I could have stopped him..well I ended up getting accepted into his high school, I informed them of what Happend and they immediately apologised. I'm planning on getting a chemical science major, I've been working on something since Stan passed. something to help. It doesn't matter that's not important. The bell will ring in a few minutes so I should start heading to class. Someone approached me in the hall, he put his hands around the back of his head and fluffed up his hair as he walked towards me. "Heya Kyle," it's just butters, "oh hey dude- sorry I was so late this morning.." I was busy crying. "No problem! You just take your time ok? Anyways me and the others were talking and we had an idea of something to do after we visit Stan.." something to do...? "Like what?" *At this point we had already passed class but we still had a few minutes.* "well yesterday craig went to this thrift shop with Jimmy and they found a ouija board, tweek has already almost pissed himself scared about it like 2 times but we were thinking of going into the forest and messing with it" *I freeze, not out of anger or fear or anything just out of shock...* if I really wanted to try talk to him again... "fine." I can't belive I'm saying that but I'm desperate at this point. "Really are you sure you wanna?" I just nodded. "Well I'll meet you at his resting point after school and we can give it a go- now come on class is gonna start!" I guess I'm doing this huh. "Y-yeah ok wait up!" *I follow him back up the hallway,* I'm trying to be strong I really am and I think I'm doing a good job at looking like it but I'm really not. I DONT think anyone suspects it...."come on the bells gonna go!" God I didn't realise how fast butters is unless I'm just getting slower, shit come on, *I skid into the classroom just as the bell went, hyperventilating. *"Right on time you two now go sit down," *I just hobble over to my desk, *everyone is staring at me. They recently added a high school onto the school so I've been going here all my life..we're in freshman year and they had to change around whos teaching us, but yet again I end up with Mr garrison. He does calculus but he  has no clue what he's doing, he just copies booklets online and assigns that so this class if rarely hard..the hour just seems to go by, I mainly draw on the back of my sheets as i finish the work too fast. But recently I've been zoning out and drawing some pretty weird shit ever since Stan died. "Kyle pay attention please." Oh I must have zoned out. I keep talking to myself like- in my head. I'm doing it right now but it just is like normal right?..*riingggg* 1st period already?! Jeez ok then, *I place the sheet on his desk and start walking to second period..* wait what do I have again..? "H-...h-hey k-k-kyle!" Oh Jimmy, "hey dude!" I must have a class with him... "we have p-p-pe...sport" come on now?! "Eww fine I'll meet you in the locker room..." *I just smile and waved as I start to run,* I forgot my uniform I'm pretty sure..I'll just swing into the locker room early. *I bust through the door and sprint to my locker*"come on..yes!" Thanks past me for the uniform , I'll just get changed quickly no one's here yet. *thud* ...the fuck? But no one's in here yet...who cares I gotta just put my shoes back on Now. *bang* ok dude the hell? why the fuck did they fall, and why are they so heavy jeez dude- "hey Kyle,-" uhh...OH SHIT- *thud* "aha...hey craig..." thank god it was only craig.. "are you good? Your here early, and why did you get changed here no one gets changed here..it dosent matter come on you know what pc is like when we're late..blah blah reports" god Craig's ranting gets longer by the day I can't focus. He is right pc- oh yeah pc principal does sport and home economics..funny hm? "Oh shit it's a snow day, you know what that means.." pc made it so if it's cold enough we do skating on the lake he got built on the oval. This was Stan's favourite topic... "alright students let's get our skates on and brofloski can i talk to you for a moment?" Oh great. "Yeah?" "You have serious potential brofloski..I have these skates, try them for me today. Show me what you can do, I know you haven't been great but power that emotion through skate ok?" Great more *potential* that I have to live up to. These are really nice skates.. I know Stan used to get given special skates..he used to leave his signature on the back of the s-...oh no he can't give me these. These are what Stan would skate with.. but I don't want a detention...looks like we're skating together once more Stan. At least he isn't shaming me for being sad so might ASWELL bring honour to Stan's name. The ice was specifically blue today..everyone's staring..come on just like he taught you, one glide, two glide....1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,..1..1..I can't do this, *I just stop in the middle of the ice*. That's it I can't do this. *i start to run with the cold wind on my face almost freezing my tears the second they fly of my face, although it was cold my face felt like it was on fire.* I can't stand to have everyone watch me like this.