//The blues\\-(a South Park Au)

The grieving- page 2

*the crunch of the snow beneath the skates as I run on my top toes away is almost satisfying as I slam the door of the locker rooms behind me and skid into a corner just sobbing* can't belive I'm acting like a total nut at school. I'm not gonna go to any of my classes..mabey last but I can't go and humiliate myself again....since when was there a sharpie on the floor.... *i gently reach for the sharpie and pop off the lid with my thumb, adding a little k next to Stan's doodles, making small drawings, I seemed to have zoned out before I realised I had decorated the whole back of the skate and 3 hours had gone by,* no one came for me, Stan would have. Halfway through lunch now, good thing I carry my phone, I'm just gonna write and listen to music until the end of the day, these locker rooms are practically abandoned so I won't be caught. Schools no fun anymore, *the chatter of passers by became louder until a thudding noise was comming from the door. It slowly creeped open as butters, tweek, craig, clyde, Jimmy and Tolkien all peeked in. "Oh kyle thank god your ok I had no clue where you were we were worried!" Butters quickly rushed over to sit with me along with the others, butters looked at me. "Oh you had Sport didn't you..." I just nodded. "Did pc make you..skate.." I just looked up at him with tear filled eyes. I can't get anything out my mouth, I feel frozen I didn't think him not being here would hurt so much, in retrospect if I were to think about it before he was gone I would have thought nothing of it. But I wish I did, "y..yeah..it still has Stan's little drawings ha..." his drawings consisted of his initials and drawings of himslef, aswell as a Little triangle and a match set on fire. "Well I talked to pc, he ap- apo-....Said sorry and said you can ke-ke- keep the skates" . "O-oh really? Thanks g..guys." I tried to look my happiest. I was glad I just couldn't show it. "Well would you like to spend the rest of lunch with you?" Craig chimed, I know he isn't good with comfort but he's trying and I'm proud. "Sure" *everyone sat down with me, butters put on some music and they started chatting,* I miss listening to the rambling from Stan so this was nice. "Are we still down for the thing after school?" Tolkein smiled. "If it's even a shot to talk to him again then yeah I'm down." I wanna see him again badly. "ARGH! I was looking at a- HNGH book on witchcra-FT and it says we can do a summ- ADHH summoning spell!" Tweek waved around a book. "Tweek you know that's bull shit. Witchcraft isn't real." Clyde scoffed but was clearly scared. I just hope Stan would be ok with it. "I'm down." Everyone just turned to me in shock. "Really? You don't have to if you don't wanna." Craig sighed. *The bell rang. Loud. RRIINNNGG* "Right im gonna stay here, come find me after school you only have 2 periods left." I can't stand to go back to class I know people will be staring. WHO wouldn't be I just broke down in the middle of the ice and ran away. God. "Alright, just take a rest here ok? We will come. See you after kyle"'*tolkien began to walk out with the others, before everyone left butters looked at me in the eyes.Sad. He slowly shut the door behind him.* I'm not sure how much longer I can do this, if this is how life's gonna be everyday without Stan,,do I really want it?.....*I look out the small window inside the locker room at the tall pine trees and teeny tiny birds pecking at eachother..*the sky looks awfuly dark for the afternoon..,it dosent look as pretty as st-......what?! What am I thinking he's gone I will never see him again and..and,.....stop crying it's stupid. He's just gone it's not gonna be any different. Well ..yeah no it's gonna be different,,surely there is a way, he can't be gone forever he will come back one day and we can hang out again....I promise I will hang out with him again. BRRSSZZT why- who's calling me now?....Stan's mum? God I haven't talked to her since he left..... "hello?" .... "Hello is this Kyle?" She remembers me, why would she call me though.. "yeah that's me, what do you need?" God that sounded rude.."well since Stan's...departure...he left a few things for you..I was wondering if you would come by and pick them up." Stan left me stuff? "Yeah sure, I can actually come now if you need" I'd rather go do that than be here. "Of course see you in a bit Kyle." BEEP.   Well looks like I'm going to Stan's.. might aswell start heading there....and looks like I'm going in skates.. *i held my phone close to me as I slowly peeked outside, it was freezing cold but I had no choice, I squeezed through the door and began to slide quickly across the floor. Everything was icy and frozen so skating was quiet fast, it wasn't to hard to get off school property, I looked down at my phone and opened messages.* I'll let the others know I'll meet them at the front,
The other guy's chat
K: hey guys
J: you all good kyle?
T: Y3WGAH W&HATS GOing oN?!98'""#'
K: yeah I'm fine I'm just heading To Stan's to do something I'll meet you Infront of the school
C: ok👍
J: all good, see you then!
T: YEpP

Well I better go faster then, I can't be too long, it's just up the road so it will be fine, *i start to sprint faster, the blade guards keeping me up, as I approach Stan's house I slow down.* I can't do this. I have to but I don't want to. Come on don't be a pussy.