hotwings - "perfect man"

one time wont hurt, right?

Dabi pov

I took the blade, the one that seemed the sharpest and newest: the razor blade on top. I lifted up my shorts and held the blade, gliding it against my upper thigh as blood starts to ooze out. It was oddly satisfying, it satisfied a need within me. Making me want more. Next thing I know, I lose control and my whole upper thigh was covered in blood and cuts. I slipped the blade into my pocket without thinking and grabbed a tissue I found in his room. I wiped the blood away, the cuts stinging at the slightest contact. The pain was addictive, I know I said only one time, but a few more can't hurt. It'll be fine. I stopped the bleeding and closed the drawer at the right moment, hawks came in with only a towel around his waist. I wasn't asleep, just laying on the bed like nothing happened. And to him, nothing did. Right? My thigh was stinging everytime I moved an inch, but I ignored it. I turned my head as hawks started getting changed, but from the corner of my eye I saw short purple raised scars on his left thigh, cuts on both his hips and upper arms. They were all fresh. My heart broke once again. He put a gigantic hoodie and oversized sweatpants on before sitting beside me.

"You didn't sleep?" He asked.

"No, I don't feel very tired anymore." I answered.

It was now around 11:30 am.

Hawks pov

I know dabi just got raped, but he seems to quietly gasp when he leans on his thigh? Wait. I told him he could go through my room, I have blades in my room, he just got raped, he probably needs a coping mechanism. Oh no, oh god no. Please don't tell me he did what Ive done.

"Hey, dabi. Could you turn around for a second?"

"Yea, sure"

He turned around.
I opened the drawer that I kept bloody tissues, blades and notes inside. I counted the blades and pieces of glass. There was one of my newest blades missing. Oh fuck. He did. He did it.

I close the drawer and gulp.

"Hey dabi can I see your pockets a sec?"

"Yea, why?" He said forgetting about the blade he'd placed inside of his left pocket.

"Just wanna check if I didn't leave anything in there." I said, quickly making up an excuse.

I put my hands in his pockets, and immediately feel my finger being poked by the sharp blade. I grab it in my hand and turn to dabi.

"Please tell me you didn't try to cut yourself with my blade.."

Dabi went pale and started shaking his head.

"N-no-, of course I didn't!"

"Why was my newest blade that I hadn't used in your pocket with blood on it, why are you gasping in pain as quietly as you can when you lean on your thigh?" My tone was clearly worried.

He stayed silent.

"It's okay, but please don't try this again. Show me the cut, I'll help the healing the best I can. C'mon dabi, I'll teach you healthier ways to cope."

"Fine.. but you, you shouldn't go around cutting yourself either and always acting fine, having that big smile plastered on your face 24/7."

"It's the only thing I can do currently! And don't worry yourself, I'm fine!"

"Bullshit. You cut yourself. How's that being fine?"

"Not answering that. Anyway, show me that cut?"

Dani lifts his shorts up, his upper thigh covered in puffy cuts.

"Well that's a lot. Must hurt. I'm sorry I let you find the blades. I should hide them better.."

I grab disinfectant and start disinfecting the cuts, making sure not to hurt him. I put plasters on his thigh and kissed it. 'a magic kiss'.

"Thank you.. I mean it. I'll try not to do this again.. but you should too." He said.

"You're welcome."

12:30, lunchtime.

"Want a microwave burger? I cannot cook and these burgers be good." I asked dabi who was just on his phone, laying on my bed

"Yea, thanks. It sounds good. I have to teach you how to cook one day."

"Yea yea, ima go microwave these!!"

I head to the kitchen and grab two burgers and chuck them in the microwave for a minute and a half: the suggested cooking time. I felt so smart for putting them both in at the same time so I didn't waste any time, even if it only took 1min30. I bring back the burgers to dabi with a huge grin on my face.

"Dude I'm so smart! I put both burgers in at the same time so I didn't waste time!" I sounded like an excited kid. It made dabi smile but it hurt his face, he was still missing two staples on his face and one on his chest.

"I'm gonna shove lip piercings in your staple holes, it works the same right?"

"Wait-, it does actually. Why do you have random lip piercings lying around-?"

"Middle school me used to pierce kids ears, lips, belly buttons, nose, literally anywhere in the school bathroom instead of going to science. I got a bunch of money from it actually, come to think of it I also sold alcohol and cigarettes- don't ask me how I got them. Kid me was a huge troublemaker."

"Oh yea? Then let's eat and you and shove those lip piercings in my staple holes. You got any dark blue?"

"Of course I do, I also have bright pink if you'd like!"

We joked and ate, dabi eating slowly and carefully while I demolish the burger in a few minutes.

After 15 minutes, we were both done. I grab 3 blue snake bite piercings from a drawer with piercing needles, disinfectant and piercings in it.

"Alrighty, this might hurt! Sorry sorry."

I leaned in close and carefully slipped the rings through his staple holes without hurting him. I was gentle but my hands were very cold and his very warm.

"And, done! Did that hurt? How does it feel? Is it the same as staples?"

"Nope, thanks. It's actually a pretty similar feeling."

I smile and sit down next to him, putting a blanket over myself and closing my eyes.

"Ima nap. I've gotta leave at four, I'll be back at six. If Mirko or endeawhore comes knocking press 3 on this remote and it should say 'sorry I'm ah~ b-busy- mmh~', yes, I forced myself to make it seem like I was having sex so I wouldn't be disturbed and it should annoy them pretty badly, especially endeawhore."

"I- uh, right- you seriously didn't need to act the sound out. I would've pressed it if you told me to anyway-"

Dabi was blushing as he heard me act out what I'd recorded. I playfully smirked before quickly falling asleep.

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