Hey, for anyone reading this, if you can relate to this, please seek professional help and know you are NOT alone.(I am the exception to the 'seek professional help')
I HATE MY LIFE AND I WANT TO KILL MYSELF BUT I JUST CAN'T, I'M SCARED TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS ABOUT IT BUT I KNOW THAT I NEED TO. I CAN'T TAKE LIFE ANYMORE AND I FEEL SO WEAK. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT AND I CAN'T TAKE THE PRESSURE TO BE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE THAT NOT ONLY ARE MY FRIENDS PUTTING ON ME, BUT ALSO MYSELF. I THINK I HAVE TO BE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE AND I JUST CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE, MY BEST FRIEND WON'T EVEN TALK TO ME ANY MORE. I FEEL WORTHLESS AND SMALL AND I CAN'T CHANGE IT. I THINK I'M UGLY AND FAT AND DESERVE TO DIE, BUT I'M SCARED TO TALK ABOUT IT. MY OWN SISTER REPEATEDLY CALLS ME SLURS AND SHE GETS AWAY WITH IT! I CONSTANTLY FEEL IGNORED AND UNLOVED EVEN THOUGH I AM TOLD THAT I AM EVERY DAY!
