Trapped [ BTS FF ]

Chapter 22

Samara's Pov

I was shocked. Never had I ever thought to hear this chapter of their book. So... the bond they shared was platonic? Then the child-? Wait...maybe Jin-ssi fell for her later? An arranged marriage...between bestfriends? If this was a novel, I would have ate it up but it kinda hurts to feel the pain in both the individual. A woman who grew up dreaming of someone who'd love her like Romeo loved Juliet, like Elizabeth and Darcy, like Jane Eyre and Rochester but now trying to find love in her bestfriend whom she lost that connection after he went to college... was hard. It wasn't impossible tho. Love is unexpected, so I can't tell if they became lovers or remained platonic till her death.

"Doctor Samara!! The rooms are kind of cleaned, it can be used. Why don't you get freshen up first?" The junior doctor interrupted the conversation making us look at her, a slight disappointment gloomed over me as I glanced back at my patient.

"You should take rest." He smiled getting up. "Lemme walk you to your room." He stretched out his hand making me smile. Jin-ssi was indeed a gentleman. I smiled to myself. I had n idea a patient could be so nice, the Jin-ssi I first met was really different from this version. I sighed and shook my head.

"It's fine. Dr. Kim can take me upstairs, you should freshen up and take rest too." I felt bad rejecting his offer , I looked at his hand that he offered earlier and smiled. "Let's continue tomorrow." I took his hand and gently squeezed it before shaking it, "It was nice talking to you, have a good night, Jin-ssi."

His lips thinned to a line, he nodded in response, shaking my hand back before retracting his hand, "Goodnight, doctor."

We both departed. The journey to the villa was already tiring, I wasn't in a mood to sleep but taking a good rest wasn't a bad idea. I always had issues sleeping at new places, I still remember the days when I shifted to my college dorm, I couldn't sleep a blink and could only sleep during lectures, It was such a bad habit but thanks to Suho Sunbae's notes, I was able to pass with flying colors. It would have been disaster if I didn't have him by my side.

Plus he was there too...

To support me in my hard times and give me warmth and hope when I had no one to look up to, he was there, by my side, no matter how bad the situation was.

Taehyung.

I showered and decided to research some more about this case while waiting for my precious sleep. It was the best way to distract myself from my breakup. It has been months and yet I couldn't move on, not from Taehyung and not from the death of my precious annah.

She weighed less than average babies, so I always feared her premature birth would lead to any issues in future but...Taehyung always assured that our angel would have the best life and grow up into a fine woman just like her mother, well that's what he said. I was his first love, true love. It wasn't affection, it wasn't attraction, it was pure bliss.

The purest form of love that could ever happen to an individual. I believed we were the most perfect lovers that the universe could ever have, we both were understanding, loving, we always had time for eachother, we we hardworking and just compatible enough to grow old together. Yet everything crumbled once I got pregnant. Taehyung stopped being that Oh so perfect husband that I wanted to grow old with, thought it was all because of his position in that MNC or his family's pressure in gaining a permanent spot in his career. I gave him freedom to flourish his career, I knew he'd come back to me, I trusted him.

Only to find him cheating on me with his bestfriend Irene. Life was enough hard already with him losing interest in me, I felt the ground being shaking under my feet. It was no worse than the unrequited love one could have, just the difference was. . . it was more painful and simply ugly.

I was tired of giving Annah excuses about why her dad wasn't there for him while he was partying and having fun with Irene and her child, if people didn't know about us, they'd have thought Irene was his wife. I understand she was there in his life first but I was his wife not her. How could he do this to me....to us?

Is he happy now?

Losing Annah was the last straw, maybe...mom was right. I should have choosed Suho over Taehyung. But...Suho sunabe...

I never looked at him in that way, he was like a brother to me, like someone on whom I can rely on, share my thoughts and feelings that I couldn't do with Taehyung anymore, I didn't have those feelings for sunbae, I am sure of it, he was a perfect boyfriend material but my love for Taehyung blinded me enough that I couldn't see anyone else other than him. To me Taehyung was the love of my life, he still was...until he murdered our child. THAT BASTARD!! THAT MURDERER, PIECE OF SHIT!!

I slammed my hand against the wall as I glared at nothing, in pure anger. "How could you be so heartless?" I managed to mutter under my sharp, shaky breath. Eyes brimmed with tears as my knees grew weaker, as my daughter's cold face appeared in my mind, her still, limp body, pale blue lips, how could I move on from this? How can I fucking forgive that son of a bitch who took away my last hope of happiness from my life. That child did nothing wrong to him, she was his daughter too, how could he do this to us? HOW??

I slumped on the floor and looked through the railing of the balcony. I wasn't sure how to accept the reality that everything changed and Annah was gone. Gone far away from my reach. I wanted to make Taehyung suffer as much as I was suffering yet I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to face him, either I would have killed him with my bare hands, destroyed him or hugged him to find that peace that I lost after Ana was gone.

Emotions are really weird. One moment it'll leave you all giddy and nauseous and the other moment it'll create the havoc in your life that you always feared of.