Resistance

Chapter 4

Tiana

I felt bad for what happened, his hand covered in someone else's blood. How can I not fall for him when he stands up for me, when he cares for me, and makes love to me. It's not sex, it's love at this point. I left after he went to sleep, I would've stayed if we didn't have work tomorrow. I got ready for work, the house quiet. I didn't say bye, I just left. Kai was outside waiting for me. 

"Kai, you know how you said your rule is don't fall in love," I mentioned.

He looked at me with that calm face of his. I settled my face showing my sadness, he looked away not wanting to hear what I had to say.

"I knew this would happen," He mumbled.

"Look, how could I not, Do you know."

"It was just suppose to be sex, how do you catch feelings?" he asked.

"You care for me, you clean me up, you defended me, forehead kiss," My voice cracking.

"Maybe we need to stop," He stated.

My heart dropped, I felt my eyes get wet. 

"Your not suppose to fall in love," Kai warned.

"Let's stop," Kai asserted. 

I dragged my hands down my face, looking up trying not to cry. 

"I'm calling an uber," I informed him.

"Tiana,"

I shut the door before he could say what he wanted to say. Tears ran down my face as I walked back in the house. I sat on the couch bawled up, soon my uber came and to work I went. 4 fucking weeks went by and I have not talked to Kai. We would see each other at work and outside but no word, no sex.

Kai

I saw Tiana today as I was over Brooke house. She didn't say anything, she was mad. I knew this was going to happen though, I knew I should've declined. I didn't though and now I feel sad. Her looking at me the way she looks is killing me. I miss the way she looks at and calls my name. the way she comforted me and checked up on me. I've never felt like this before, other girls only wanted me for my body, my money, sex, and more but never love. I feel a huge amount of guilt on my shoulders. After work I went to the gym to clear my mind but it didn't work. I wrote out my feelings and still felt guilty.

It has now been 6 weeks without talking to Tiana. I haven't been over to Brooke's house because if I see her it hurts. Today I've decided to face my fear, I knocked and opened the door. Brooke and Kayla were cuddling on the couch. Tiana was no where to be seen.

"Where's Tiana?," I asked.

"She got her own place now." Kayla answered.

Brooke looked pissed, she got up and walked towards me.

"I'm disappointed in you," She said. That hurt, very bad.

"I'm also mad that you both hid that from me, mostly at you," She added.

"What's her address?" I asked.

"Why should I give it to you?" She asked.

I bit my bottom lip, not wanting to be cringey. "To make it up to her,", I finally said. Brooke furrowed her brows. She gave me the address and I rushed to her apartment. I knocked on the door no answer. I sat down in front of it and waited.

Tiana

I now have my own place, Kai stopped coming over to Brooke's I knew it was because of me.