!!!Quick Warning, this chapter will contain Semi's trauma, it includes abuse and se1f h , if you if if you don't feel comfortable reading it, please don't. I will put up warnings when it starts and when its over so you could just skip over!!!
Shirabu finally left the bathroom looking at Semi as he laughs, "That was not funny. I felt like my heart was going to burst out of my chest you know." Semi smiles, "It's just that whenever one of our parents or someone are coming we always go into the bathroom. It's like the one place we know they won't think of."
This makes Shirabu smile this time. "You're so right, like what are they going to do in your bathroom? It's perfect." The two smile as they hear Tendou laugh outside the door listening in. "Can I play something if you don't mind?" Shirabu asks, asking for Semi's phone. (Cause it was the only one connected to the speaker) "Sure" He gives him his phone, "Password?" "Your birthday." Shirabu smiles, "Cheesy mf." Semi laughs as the phone unlocks.
Shirabu looks over the songs Semi had published until one came up he never heard of. "Semi? What's this song?" He shows him the song and Semi's face deflates ,"Oh, that's...you..can press it...if you want to..." Shirabu presses on it and it starts playing. He keeps an eye on Semi's face as he listens to the lyrics,
(you can play the song now too)
"I'm scared
It feels like you don't care
Enlighten me, my dear
Why am I still here?
I don't mean to be complacent with the decisions you made
But why?"
"Semi...what is this song" Semi still doesn't give him an answer as the song continues on, even Tendou isn't saying anything as he listens,
"In the back of my mind
I killed you
And I didn't even even regret it
I can't believe I said it
But it's true
I hate you"
As the song ends, the room is quiet. Nothing's heard besides shufflinh. Shirabu looks at Semi as he sees a tear roll down, "Eita?...Tendou help me, do you know?" He calls out, nothing.
!!!Trauma will be starting now!!!Please skip if you're uncomfortable reading it!!!
After a while, Semi finally starts speaking, "Well.." His voice sounded rough, "The song was something I wrote a while ago...back when.." He pauses and Shirabu moves closer to him and holds him. "You don't have to if you're uncomfortable" Semi shakes his head, "no, I want to, it's part of the reason I became Blue Rose." Shirabu nods and Semi continues, "There's no easy way of saying this, but the song was when I was really fucked up. It was from when I had come out to my parents...you'd think open minded people would stay open minded to their kids...boy was I wrong. My mom hated it, you know what she did?..." He takes a deep breathe,
"She had locked me up" *gasp* "Yea, crazy I know, she thought that keeping me locked up would make me 'normal', she even starved me. It felt like a week, I don't even remember how long I was down there. She didn't even stop there. She then started hurting me too in order to 'make the gay go away'. The song was written wishing I was dead, I still have scars from her, but then I had made a couple of my own scars after." "Eita..."
Shirabu holds Semi tighter as they both feel each others tears. 'Fuck. I swear when I see her for real, I'm gonna-" "You can't..." "But she-" "She'll kill you before you even lay a hand on her. It's not worth it, I don't want a person I love to die because of me." "But I'm not dying because of you! I won't be dying! No one's dying Eita! Not me, not you no one! I won't allow it." Semi sniffles, "I hope not..."
The room goes quiet as they hear Tendou shuffle outside.
!!!Ends here!!! Continue reading from here!!!
The two lay on Semi's bed just holding each other in silence, just wanting to feel the others presence as the sun goes down.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have played-" "It's not your fault. Honestly you being here with me is making it better." Shirabu nods, "But can you...can you promise me one thing?" "What is it?" "Promise that...that when you have bad thoughts...or anything happens and I'm not there...I want you to promise that you'll call me." Semi nods, "I promise." "I don't want anything bad happening to you, not now, not ever again."
They continue to stay in each others arms for the night up until Shirabu has to go back.
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