The Prince's Selected

General Update: this fic will continue

Hello everyone, it's been a while.

Phew... it's been over a year since I've updated this fic, hasn't it? So much has happened in life and the kpop community. Jin and Hoseok are enlisted now, the boys are focusing on their solo careers, Yoongi's going on his world tour.

I want to just pop in here for some real talk. One on one. Well, as much as it can be one on one.

I am planning to finish this fic. In fact, I have a few prewritten chapters. I'm working on writing a few more chapters before I begin publishing again to ensure you're not left empty if I decide to disappear for so long again.

Now... I don't think many of you are wondering where I've been at all, but I'm going to talk a bit about it anyway.

Real talk.

I've been... very mentally unstable for a long while now. I want to say it's been two years without me being able to feel the ground beneath my feet? Life has been... shaky, but I'm working on it. I won't go into detail about it, but I want to reassure you all that I'm working to heal every single day. Everything I've been going through has made working on this fic (and in general my writing) hard. This fic is very upbeat- as crack fics tend to be- and it's very difficult for me to continue with that trend while in the position I am. I was going to start publishing soon, but then...

Ah.

This is difficult.

Forgive me if this seems self-absorbed or selfish in any way because that is not my intention by a long run; I'm just trying to be transparent. I'm typing this all up after having three breakdowns today, and it's just hit 6 am for me.

Everyone has set backs. Healing and recovery isn't linear. Ups and downs are expected. It's very simple to get triggered and sometimes those triggers are things that may not affect others as heavily or at all.

Moonbin. Ah. Moonbin was my bias.

I think you can understand a bit where I meant to go with that.

As I was already in a fragile state when Moonbin passed, his passing hit me hard. It's still hitting me hard. I won't go into further detail on that.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, please wait patiently. I'm struggling. A lot. But I have a support system, and with it, I'm working to reach a better place. I can't make any promises that I'll be back soon because I do want to put myself first, but I can promise you that I will be back. Be it in a few months, a year, or years. I will be back, and I will finish this story.

Please wait for me.

And to those who are struggling, please do not be afraid to reach out for help. Please let yourself heal. Fight for yourself. I love you. Many people do. Please put yourself first.

Lastly,

Moonbin, my love, you did so well and touched so many lives with your beautiful soul; please rest easy. Your radiant smile will forever be etched into my memory. Thank you. I love you. See you in the next life.