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deaf to my old brain

i can hear those wind bells chiming
i can hear the children screaming
i can hear the barking of dogs
while the teens covered in fog
i can hear those babies crying while their mums are talking
but why cant i hear my guts,
why does it not feel right
what are they not saying
is it something i dont know?
is it something i just dont understand?
why can i hear them but not me?
they say i can hear but im deaf to my old brain

my old brain? ha! they must be taking a fucking piss.
i can hear them but why cant i hear myself
am i being too loud or am i being too quiet
i can hear the birds chirping
i can hear the leaves rustingling
but i cant hear my old brain,
am i deaf to my old brain
to my old brain
to my fucking old brain
now i am older i can listen but
it still feels weird
i believe i am still deaf to my old brain
yes, the old brain i refused

my head feels like a drain
draining my senses.
faster then me growing up.
i can hear the wind
i can hear the rain
i can hear the children laughing
my brain is making me insane
i can hear them shouting, talking,screaming
*this bit is quiet:*
my name?
why my name?
wait whats my name?
what?