Vents

Life

Would it have been better if I wasn't born. I don't think I'm a good enough daughter. I get you mad all the time. I spent so much of your guys money especially on extra activities. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry about all of it. Your life would be so better off if I were to disappear. All your money would go to my nephew and we finally might not be struggling anymore. Mom wouldn't fight with dad. Dad wouldn't get mad. We could actually get help. All of k wasn't here. I cant even take care of my ferret. Most days I find it hard to get out of bed. And I ask you to stay home from school and then you are getting calls about my attendance. I cant find the power in me to get up half the time when I think the world would be better without me. My ferret needs playmates and we can't afford them. So I try to help. But when it's hard tk find energy to get myself out of bed it's hard to play with him. He deserves so much love and I love him with all of my heart but I can never be enough for him. I can never be enough for anyone.