In My Heart Forever

Part 7

Aadhvi Desai

Hey mahadev! ye sab kya ho raha hai. Ye fir se wapas aa gaya. It's been only 3 days since he got back and things are getting more worse. I thought that my health was improving than before as I haven't faced any panic attack situations since 1 month but I was wrong. As soon as I saw him... phir se wahi sab chije, wahi sab baatein yaad aayi aur jiska result hua panic attack. Whenever something seems to get right, he's always there to demolish it and my little hopes again. That day after meeting him I had a panic attack and like every time that day also, there was no one with me to comfort me or to motivate me. I lost everything just because of him.

"Hey lado!!" My eyes automatically widened hearing his voice and turned around to see him 'Kushagra Desai' standing behind me.

"W-what are you-you doing here and how dare you enter my room? After doing all of those things you still have the courage to stand in front of me so shamelessly. Just get out of here" but instead of leaving he started laughing loudly hearing me.

After doing all those sins he didn't even had a bit of regret. Whatever I have become today or I am facing, is all his faults... all his deeds. I never used hate word for anyone but for him I don't have any hesitation to say that I loathe him. I hate him so much. He made me helpless... and I just can't lose like this. I need to do something.

"Just wait, today I will tell everyone about your real face. I will tell them that you are a monster behind this fake 'innocent and caring' mask of yours." And turned around and started walking towards the door when he suddenly spoke.

"Aadhu aadhu... tumhe kya lagta hai ki tum sabko bataogi aur sab tumahri baat maan lenge" he chuckled "koi nahi maanega tumahri baat. No one will believe you. Tum itni jaldi bhool gayi apni pehchaan? Tumse nafrat karte hain sab... bichari aadhvi. Wese aadhvi kesi hai ye feeling ki sab paas hai tumahre but... phir bhi sab dur hain. Bahot tadapti hongi na tum."

"Kyuun kar rahe ho ye sab. Aakhir kya mil raha hai ye sab karke?"

"sukoon, satisfaction and what not. You can't even imagine aadhvi after seeing you in pain what type of happiness I get. Aur sabse zyada khushi to ye jaan kar hoti hai ki ab tum chahe kuch bhi kar lo, nothing will get better. Main nahi hone dunga kuch bhi sahi. You don't deserve any love and care you only deserve hate and pain and don't worry you know na that how much I hate you so I will make sure that you will get what you deserve."

Hearing his words a tear left my eyes but I immediately wiped it as I didn't wanted him to see me getting weak. His poisonous words were raising my insecurities more. He was right I don't deserve anyone's love that's why they left me, this was the reason mumma left me and now my own family didn't even wanted to see my face. He was right.

When I looked up I saw him glaring at something certainly. I followed his gaze to see him looking at the novel kept on the table. He walked towards it. It was a romantic novel and he laughed loudly reading the title. "Oh so dear aadhvi believes in love. Do you really think that you can ever get love in your life? Baby... why do you think ki koi stranger tumhe pyaar karega or accept karega jab tumahri khud ki family nahi kar payi. Oh! I am so sorry khud ki family ya phirr... samjh gai na? Finally aadhvi you are getting what you deserved. Finally tum jis chij ke liye bani thi wo tumhe mil rahi hai which is none other than 'Hate and Destruction'. Saying this he threw that novel on the bedside table breaking our family photo into pieces.

Yes he was right why would someone else love me when my own family couldn't. Why would someone else care for me when my own family couldn't.

'Achha hota agar tu paida hotey hi marr jati kam se kam aaj ye sab to nahi hota.'