In My Heart Forever

Chapter 18

Tere bina adhoori meri har khushi hai,
teri wo muskurahat ab bhi iss dil se judi hai.
Doori se kya, pyaar toh kabhi kam nahi hota,
Tere bina khud se bhi ab nafrat hoti hai.

Tere bina raaton mein chaand bhi udaas hai,
Meri khushiyon ka har rang ab udaas hai.
Phir bhi tujhse judne ki khwahish hai meri,
Tere bina har pal mein khud se hi dard ki baat hai meri.

Aadhvi lies on her bed, her eyes closed, and her breaths shallow and uneven. Stress and exhaustion have left their marks on her face. Ruhani sits beside her, holding her hand tightly, her own eyes filled with concern and love. Sunlight streams through the curtains, casting a soft glow over the room, but Aadhvi's world feels shrouded in darkness.

"Aadhvi, get up bachha. Your maa is here. Now nothing will happen to my baby. Ab kuch nahi hoga. Sab thik ho jayega beta." She said those words trying to motivate her or more like assuring herself. She kept on staring at her face.

Suddenly she felt her fingers moving a bit of the hand which she was holding.

"C'mon open your eyes." She whispered lightly tightening the hold on her hand.

Aadhvi stirs, her eyelids fluttering as she struggles to wake from the depths of her fatigue. She finally opens her eyes, and the pain and sadness within them pierce ruhani's heart.


"Do you want to sit?" Aadhvi nodded her head and then ruhani helped aadhvi to sit comfortably on the bed while adjusting the pillows behind her back and then forwarded a glass of water towards her. Her hands trembling slightly as she held a glass of water.


The soft hum of the ceiling fan was the only sound breaking the silence between her and her mother-in-law, Ruhani. Aadhvi took a deep breath, summoning the courage to speak.


"I...I'm so sorry, Ma," Aadhvi began, her voice quivering. "I'm sorry for all the drama my family has caused. This stress... it just got to me. I didn't mean for things to get so out of hand. "

Aadhvi's voice trembles as she struggles to articulate the weight of her burdens. She looked away trying to hold her tears back.

She could see the genuine distress in Aadhvi's eyes, the way her shoulders slumped with the weight of guilt.


Ruhani's eyes fill with tears as she reaches out to brush a strand of hair away from Aadhvi's face.

"Aadhvi... bachha, there's no need to apologize. None of this is your fault. Life can be difficult, and stress can be overwhelming. You've been carrying so much... too much... and it's taken its toll on you. There's no need to be sorry, my child. I don't see your any fault in any of this."

"I can't do it, Maa... I can't keep going like this... I'm failing everyone... I failed my parents, my brother, my family and everyone I am sure that I will also break your trust and hopes from me. I don't know how to keep up with it all. I am a loser maa. I don't deserve your love and care. I don't deserve anybody's love and care. I don't maa... I don't know how to hold it all together anymore... I will also fail you all..." And a tear escaped her eyes while trying to put her words together.


Ruhani's heart breaks as she listens to Aadhvi's words, her own eyes brimming with tears. Her baby had so many insecurities. It was breaking her from inside to see aadhvi so vulnerable. She could see the past of her own life which added more pain to her heart. She could see her ishika in aadhvi.

"Bachha... You are not failing anyone. You're drowning in responsibilities, suffocating under the weight of expectations... But you're not alone. We're here for you, always. You're not failing anyone, aadhvi. You are doing the best you can, and that's all anyone can ask for. You have a heart of gold aadhvi which cares about others before herself, who always prays for others to her Mahadev. You're doing the best you can, and that's all anyone can ask for. But you must remember to take care of yourself too... You're carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders, but you're only human... It's okay to stumble sometimes. What's important is that you pick yourself back up and my little girl is doing it so well and that's only what matters."