Dear Diary,
The reason I keep my feelings to myself is that I cannot explain them to people, what am I supposed to say? That I am depressed, and I need to escape the living hell I am living in right now. What am I just supposed to say?! I feel so frustrated... nothing works my way, my pain is getting worse. I am addicted to pills, I can't sleep without them, and sometimes the urge to kill myself gets so strong.
Just what am I supposed to do?!
Why won't I just die?!!!
IT HURTS!! IT FUCKING HURTS!!!
Ripping the page, Yoongi threw it in the corner of his room and went limp on his bed. He once again stares at his ceiling feeling empty, the only way to let out his emotions is by writing in his diary but sometimes... he cannot do it.
Just then he suddenly sits up. His eyes hold the emptiness as he opens his drawer and takes out the sleeping pills bottle. He stares at it for some time before taking a deep breath.
End it today Yoongi...
This is all pain you have been suffering for so long now...
END IT TODAY!
Opening the bottle he dumps the pills in his hands not caring about the huge amount of pills before chugging them down through the water. His eyes are wide as he lies down on the bed, and a crazy smile starts to form on his lips.
I am going to die today...
Finally!!!
You cannot die Yoongi...
"SHUT UP! SHUT THE FUCK UP!" Yoongi yells.
You cannot die Yoongi...
No matter how hard you try...
You won't die...
You will continue to suffer...
THIS IS YOUR FUCKING PUNISHMENT!!
"SHUT UP!"
YOUR FUCKING PUNISHMENT!!!
"Shut up!!!" His eyes get dizzy as he fights with a voice in his head.
HAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA
YOU WILL NEVER DIE YOONGI!!!!
YOU WILL JUST SUFFER!!!!
"Shut... up..." His eyes getting heavy finally closed as his whole body went limp.
You will never die Min Yoongi...
