Tangled and Twisted ✓

Chapter 16

[Letters to Future Selves]

Dear future me,

Thank you for reading this letter. I'm not even sure how to start it, but, please, read it when you can. It's really important. It means a lot of me. It might sound stupid, but, please, don't throw it away. Don't just leave it hanging. I beg you, read it.

I know, my insistance is annoying, so I'll move straight to the point. By the time you open the letter, you'll be a different person. More mature, with better awareness of how true love matters, less insecure.

You'll have your fair share of experiences with the people that care about you the most: Mom, Bella, Beth, Alex. You'll leave toxicity and negativity behind. You'll cut whomever made your life miserable off of your life. You'll be happy and free.

Happiness can't be bought. It doesn't feed at the expense of someone else. It matters when it's nurtured and cherished in the healthiest way possible. It usually comes natural, but, when you're in dire need of it, you can look for it in a sight, in a person, in a picture. As long as you can find it, there it is.

Remember: hard times have passed; they might come again, but you're not alone. With your true friends and the man you've always loved by your side, no challenge will be impossible to you.

Don't let yourself be defined by your past, build yourself a better future.

Yours sincerely,
Jenny

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Dear future me,

I know, I'm not the kind of person to write a letter to express my feelings or vent my thoughts, but, one day, I sat at a bar in front of my favorite drink and thought: why not?

I'll try not to make it sappy, but at the same time I won't use it as a way to let out my past frustrations on paper. I'll just let those fade away like thin air. I'm writing about passion, about desire, about courage and determination. And, yes, about love, too. Life can't be complete without love.

I've been a mess altogether. At work, at home, with men. Oh, God, I still remember how I used to jump back and forth between Dale and Hunter. They both attracted me for good reasons. I attracted both. To one of them, I was just someone to hook up with every once in a while.

But, to the other... Things are so different with him. Even when we both played hard to get with each other, we felt like two pieces of a puzzle perfectly fitting together. Every time we hung up, between one drink and another, I felt like he was the one. Yet, here came that other guy to distract me, making me feel like I'd hit rewind every single time.

I've never been good at making decisions. To date, it still pains me. But, in that case, I had to choose. I had to put both my head and my heart in my choice, because there was no turning back. Now that I think of it, I'm glad to have picked Dale. I should've understood he's the one from the get go.

Hunter... At first I found him attractive, now he's just an afterthought. And it's better this way.

I hope not to have bothered you too much. Even so, I'm not even sorry for that. Okay, I'm only kidding. Please don't hate me for that.

Anyway, I hope you read this letter. I've put all my heart and soul in it.

Thank you.