faces of my lovers

woodbury

"Where your mind at now?"
Just tryna find myself right now
Make sense of the time we lost cause
The kids keep dying, shots left and right
Thoughts in my mind haunt me at night
Tryna get by, work a shitty ass job
Working late nights, tryna save up
Momma praying for me, I used to pray for us
I mean let's face it, we didn't grow up the same and we both changed
Went from codependent to strangers within days
After the heartbreak my heart changed
Isolated myself like Apartheid
Smokin up to numb to the pain, see God's face
But everytime I close my eyes, I see your face
I thought that this was a sure thing
Maybe the strings were just in a shortage
Or maybe you started exploring your options
Makes sense, cause the next day you were with another man
Cause and effects, could be karma for the shit on my end
Couldn't even fight your decisions, conflicted, couldn't even write for a minute
Concealing my feelings, tried to make sense of what happened
Cause love is tragic, nothing that I imagined
Caught in the allure of madness
Must be my fault for the lack of passion
Sometimes I find myself questioning what happened
If it even matters, how dare you and up leave
Deceive me, bite into your fruit like Eve
Just to spite me, never seemed likely
Looked into your eyes, but despite it
We're living in different times and life moves on
Thought about it, and the sun revolves around another mourned loss
Either from a glock or this thing called love