Starts with a Dance

3 | The Question

POV Ethan

It's undeniable that love is a precious and noble feeling. It's a rare and wonderful experience to find that special someone or true love, especially when it happens for the first time. Unfortunately, our society often prioritizes superficial and convenient connections over genuine love and relationships. It's disheartening to see how much emphasis is placed on appearances in today's world. 

Having never been in a serious relationship makes me wonder why I haven't had one. Would I change my viewpoint on relationships if I saw her again? How do I know I wouldn't chicken out to talk to her? 

The knock at my door brings me back to reality and out of my thoughts. I open the door to find Eva. "Hey Ethan, you busy?" she says with a very perky attitude. 

"Yeah, I'm free, why?" I say intrigued as to what she has planned.

"I was wondering if you wanted to hang out, I finished studying and didn't feel like going out," she says "So-"

"Come in, we can watch a movie"  I cut her off before she even has to ask.

Moving so she can walk in I close the door behind her. I walk to the kitchen and start making popcorn while Eva finds a movie to watch.

Going to the living room with popcorn I sit down next to her. "so what did you pick?" I ask her.

"All you have to do is watch it and you'll figure it out," She says while she makes herself comfortable practically on my lap, not that I mind.

After the first five minutes, I can already tell it's a rom-com. not my kind of movie but it makes her happy so I indulge her. 'holy crap'  I think we might be in a relationship.

"Hey, can I ask you something?" I ask

"Mmmmm," she asks while still paying attention to the movie.

"Are we in a relationship?" I ask, no point in beating around the bush.

"What do you mean?" she asks looking at me now.

 "I mean are we a couple or are we just friends with benefits," I ask, clearly she's either coy or honestly didn't get what I meant.

"I haven't slept with anyone since we started sleeping together if that's what you mean," She says with a little blush forming on her cheek.

Thinking about it now I haven't slept with anyone else. "I haven't either, so what does this mean?"

What does this mean for me and Hailey? not that there is an us, I don't even truly know her. I know I feel something for her but I'm not even sure what that is, plus there's a good chance that she doesn't even who I'm.

"Ummm, I don't know but what are you thinking?" she says

"Well I guess we can talk about this and see where we stand with each other," I say trying not to think too much, maybe I should be honest about everything.

"Yeah that seems fair," she moves towards the kitchen as if she's trying to avoid looking me in the eyes. "So do wanna start or should I."

"I'll start, but I'm gonna be honest and you might not like the result."

"That's okay plus we'll both know where we stand with each other."

"I'll start from the beginning. I'm not exactly sure what I feel for you or this other girl," before I can continue I notice she stiffens as she comes back to the couch. " I know how that sounds, but just let me finish before you come to conclusions, okay?"

"Okay, go ahead," she says facing me.

"So I come from this small town, yes I know this may sound cliché -- but there is this girl that lives a few blocks from my house, and the first time I saw her, something within me changed. Not sure if that's how I should phrase it, but I guess it would be something like love at first sight. Anyway that was about a year ago and I'm pretty sure she doesn't even know who I am, mainly because we've never truly met. Anyway, she and my brother are friends so there's also that but I don't even know if it's just an attraction or if I truly feel something for her.

"When I first met you, I was just looking for a good time while trying to adjust to college life both academically and socially. We became friends and somehow a little more; since I'm being honest I don't know how I feel about you but I know that I haven't been with anyone since we first slept together about 4 months ago." I say realizing that I was more honest than I intended to be, not that I mind. It's just shocking.

"what are you trying to say?" she asks, clearly shocked about my revelation.

"I've noticed today that we act more like a couple. We have dates and talk, plus have good sex and I haven't wanted to be with anyone else but you during the last 4 months. So I guess I'm asking if we are a couple or just friends with benefits?" I ask. 

The silence is awkward for me. I'm not sure what she's thinking. "Eva?"

"Ummm," She says

"What does Ummm mean Eva" I ask a little worried I may have ruined whatever this is.

Well, you just told me that you might be in love with one of your little brother's friends and that you don't know how you feel about me but still want a relationship with me; so 'Um' means I'm trying to process." She yells out " Is that ok with you, cause you've thought about this, while I haven't"

I'm a little shocked cause I've never heard her yell before, but I recover quickly and say "You're right you talked all the time you need, I'm gonna head home for the summer next week."

"How about when I figure things out I call you?" Eva says once she calmed down a little.

"I'll be waiting for a call then," I answer

We didn't finish the movie cause things got very awkward quickly; she left. I sat on the sofa for a while trying to figure out if I did the right thing. I hope I did, honesty is always the best policy, right?

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Authors Note

So sorry for the wait. hope you enjoy his POV. Please comment and let me know your thoughts and Ideas about the storyline and characters