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bebe boy
09:17asan ka?
bahay lang
batet?
nood ako movie ngayon eh
ay nga pala, nakausap ko si erpat kagabihmm, ano pinag-usapan niyo?
di naman kayo nag-away nodi naman
matino naman convo namin
pero hehe medyo in peace nako ng slight sa kanyathat's great
as long as hindi kana iiyakhehe ay now
eh ikaw?anong ako?
ikaw, di mo pa rin kinakausap si tita?
kinakausap ko naman sya ah
di naman kasi ganyan
yung ibig kong sabihin is kinausap mo na ba si tita regarding dyan sa feelings mo
diba nagsabi ka sakin na you will also try kasi sinubukan ko nahindi madali eh
parang ang hirap mag step, di ko ata kayaayan ka na naman
bakit mo na naman sinasabi na hindi mo kaya, kaya mo pero takot ka
di ba ganyan din ako
deep down sa feelings ko takot ako iaccept na hanggang ngayon may iba siya, iba yun sa hindi kaya
doubt and fear is not the same thing, largusmakapagsalita ka naman
para kang life guruhoy ano ba 😭
ang ayos-ayos ng convo natin eh
pero seryoso, did you ever feel thankful that tita came back or you just resent her blindly?
alam mo kasi throughout those days na natatakot ako mag kwento sa inyo or siguro nago-open ako sa ibang tao, iba pa rin yung clear ka kung ano ba talagang meron sayo
hindi pa ko totally okay, pero I'm happy that I'm feeling okay even just a little bithindi ko alam, maxine
masaya ako na makita kang unti-unting nagiging okay, but I don't know if I can catch up to you
I don't want to get stuck here but I don't want you to help me either
and the question? Hindi ko rin siguradosiguro tinanong ko yung sarili ko kung masaya ba ko nung nakita ko siya o sadyang galit na talaga ako sa kanya
pero hanggang ngayon ata eh hindi ko alam ang sagot
baka nga katulad ng iyo, deep down masaya ako pero takot din siguro akong harapin na masaya ako na kasama namin siyaafter what she has done to our family, I don't know what to feel anymore
those years na wala sya, walang araw na hindi ako naiinggit sa mga kalaro nating pinupunasan ng nanay nila kapag pawis na sila
I missed her during her absence but eventually got used without her presence
kaya nung bumalik siya hindi ko magawang maging masayabaka masabi kong nabawasan ng tinik yung dibdib ko nung nakita ko siya kasi naging okay si papa
his dead eyes became alive, as if he just met a sun in his darkest daysbasta kahit anong mangyari, don't try to pull me out of this okay
eh sabi mo ayaw mong ma trap?
anong gagawin ko kung ayaw mo mangyari yun pero ayaw mo rin naman na tulungan kitait's okay, wag ka mag-alala
nakaya mo kaya dapat kaya ko rinlargus naman eh
alam nating lahat na mas mahirap yung sitwasyon mo sating dalawa
how can you be fine when you felt uncomfortable living with titakaya nga hayaan mo na
if I get trapped don't do anything, I'll break free
diba sabi mo, we'll try once we are both better?pano kung okay nako pero andyan ka pa rin?
will you wait?
I mean, I'm not actually telling na you should wait for the rest of your life
that's absurdabsurd talaga
if I'm fine and you are not yet okay, largus sinasabi ko sayo I'll do something
I'm not going to promise that I'm not going to intervene with your decisionpero hindi ngayon, okay ba yun?
hindi ah, hindi pa kaya ako better
pano ako tutulong kung pareho tayong lugmok, baka mas maging lugmok lang tayong dalawa kapag nangyari yun
ano yun, relationship goals
ayoko ng ganonI'm aiming for a healthy relationship with you not one that will put us behind bars of negativity
kaya habang maaga pa, I'm hoping that you are trying really trying your best to do something that you will never regret in the futureI am, maxine
but let's cut this out
do you want to go out today?tayo lang?
sama kaya natin yung dalawa, miss ko na rin silaokay, I'll talk to them
mag-ayos ka na, pupuntahan na lang kita dyanoks!
see u later, bebe boysee you later, maxine
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