To Find You 🪄 Taekook/Vkook

🪄 03

It was a normal day for taekook. Waking up at 3 in the evening, Jungkook cooking for both of them, Taehyung's favorite jajamyeon, playing games until sunrise, late night ramen talks..

Taehyung laid on the floor, head resting against the bed.

"I won"

jungkook watched his teasing smirk, those eyes sparkled into him.

"Because I let you"

Taehyung waved his hand.

"Nah Kookie. I'm good at it. Am I not?"

Jungkook laughed, leaned against the bed.

"Okay, okay. You always win"

Taehyung hummed, eyes landing over the balcony. Sun was about to rise, the morning sky looked so amazing, purple mixed with orange looked so heavenly at the moment.

It has been a week since Taehyung came from France after hearing Jungkook got sick. Taehyung came to Jungkook the moment he heard that. Jungkook felt better after that night he slept in Taehyung's embrace.

No one dared talk about anything. They all just went to their day today lives.

Taehyung didn't ask any questions that he was craving to ask jungkook. Neither did Jungkook.

They lived like nothing happened. They just lived like Taehyung never confessed and got rejected by jungkook.

But those burning hearts never stopped aching around. That ragging pain never stopped bothering them. Until when? Until when they have to pretend like nothing happened?

Taehyung let out a heavy sigh. He wanted his answers. He wanted a little solace. At least a little bit of comfort for his flaming heart.

Taehyung stood, leaning his weight on Jungkook's shoulder, taking small yet heavy steps towards the balcony.

He watched. Watched how ethereal the morning sky was. Those hands were sinking in the pockets. Taehyung kept watching out of the glass.

"Hyung.."

Taehyung jumped a little feeling jungkook's warmth on his shoulder. He turned his head back a little to see his handsome profile a bit.

"Hmm.."

Taehyung hummed, breaths stuck where they were when Jungkook rested his chin on taehyung's shoulder. He pressed himself against Taehyung, arm wrapped around his waist.

"Deep thoughts ha?"

Taehyung licked his lips, eyes roamed jungkook to the sky.

"What do you think kookie? Don't I have lots of things to think about?"

Jungkook leaned more, both arms wrapped around Taehyung's tiny waist.

"You have?"

He whispered, worryingly.

"Jungkook.."

Jungkook heard his deep voice become deeper at the moment.

"You told me you don't like me right?"

Taehyung sucked in a breath as he felt jungkook's distance at once. He felt like dying in the cold as those arms unwrapped from him so suddenly.

Fuck. Taehyung fucked it all up. Don't he?

He wanted to melt onto the floor. He wanted to disappear and never come back again into this moment.

"Hyung"

his surprised voice made Taehyung get to earth again.

"Ah.."

he froze where he was when Jungkook grabbed his shoulders, turning him to face him. Jungkook pulled Taehyung closer.

"I never told you that I don't like you? How is that possible hyung? How can someone not like you? You? Kim Taehyung?"

Jungkook didn't even breathe between those words.

"I do.." he panted.

"Like you. I do hyung"

jungkook felt how his heart crumbled into little pieces at once.

"In a romantic way.. I mean I  do not.."

Taehyung pushed him away. He felt how all his hopes scattered infront of his teary eyes.

"I don't like you in a romantic way"

fuck that. Taehyung didn't want to hear that from Jungkook. Not from jeon jungkook. The only one he loves since as long as he can remember. The only man he wanted to see him as a man. 

He didn't want to hear those fucking bullshits from jungkook. At least not after what happened a week ago.

If he doesn't like him in a romantic way, why the hell did he get drunk and collapse after hearing he got a date?

Jungkook's words and his actions never matched. Those big, sparkling eyes tell a way different story.

Taehyung didn't know what to feel anymore. He didn't know he should be angry or sad.

"I got that"

he ignored jungkook's round eyes.

"I got that Jungkook. It's okay"

he nodded nonchalantly, continuing to nod at himself.

"But I wanted to ask you why my dates matter to you? Why did you get drunk that day? Why did you go to the bar where we hangout? You never go there alone. Do you? You never go there with anyone else either"

Taehyung stepped closer to Jungkook.

"Not even members. Why did you go there that day, Jungkook?"

Taehyung clutched into Jungkook's collars, pulled him closer. Jungkook froze where he was, those eyes were busy with Taehyung's teary yet sharp ones.

"Because.. because I missed you hyung"

those words were whispers more likely crying.

"You went overseas without even telling me"

Jungkook tried his best to not to cry, not to get tangled in his lies.

"I'm not a stranger hyung. You know. I missed you. So much.."

Taehyung breathed heavily, slowly retreating from the other's shirt. Those eyes never matched with the younger's. They were somewhere on the floor.

"Fair enough kookie"

he stepped backwards, step by step.

"Fair enough. I missed you too. I'm sorry. I better go to my room and sleep"

Taehyung bit his bottom lips, still didn't look at those eyes.

"Like a fool, I was running after an illusion. all the time.. I.."

Taehyung sighed, whimpered in pain.

"I.. kookie I.."

he wanted to jump onto those arms, cry on his chest. Jungkook was no better, he wanted to fucking slap himself and hold Taehyung in his arms, wipe those tears, kiss him breathless.

"Nevermind. I'll go now "

Jungkook fell on his knees when Taehyung left his room. Those endless tears fall on the floor one after one...