TW:self harm
It's your fault,it's always your fault. Replaying in my mind over and over again, why does my mum have to make me feel like this does she not realise that her words effect me no, no she doesn't she doesn't even know how bad I've gotten a singular tear flows down my cheek. I break all the bad thoughts come back all the I'm not good enough and I don't deserve to be on this planet anymore. And then the worst of it all me finding my way to my blade 1 turns into 2 and then the that's not deep enough thoughts came then all the sudden there's 12 of the most beautiful yet ugly red lines hiding under pools of bloods layed on the most ugly canvas. 4 moths clean. All that hard work down the drain.
