Between deaf and dead

Chapter Fourteen: The Dance

Larissa's POV

"Do you really want to go through life saying what if? If you don't do this now you will never do it. I know it's not my place but you deserve to be happy too." Y/N says to me and I give a small smile as a slow song comes on. I watch Wednesday ask Y/n to dance, I watch both of them dance with a smile on my face. 'You deserve to be happy too.' That sentence keeps replaying in my head as I quickly glance up to see Marilyn from across the room, probably looking just as uncomfortable as I do. She looks so beautiful in her white dress, I smile at her wearing her signature red leggings and boots. She sees me looking at her and she smiles at me and gives a small wave. My eyes flicker to Wednesday and Y/n and they stop dancing, I watch as Wednesday leans in to kiss her and my heart tugs. I take a deep breath and I wipe my hands over my dress to flatten it out and I walk over to Marilyn.

"Marilyn, I was wondering if I could have this dance?" I say and I hold out my hand like Wednesday did and I silently prayed to whatever god was out there that my heart wasn't going to break tonight.

"I was really really hoping you would ask me. And to answer your question Larissa I would love to dance with you." She took my hand and I felt my face heat up. As we walked to the dance floor I felt my heart beating out of my chest. I'm so nervous that I can barely breathe, she stops and she wraps her arms around my waist and I wrap them around her neck. She smiles at me and I can't help but to give a nervous smile back. "Do I make you nervous Larissa?"

"No, not at all."I try not to stutter my words. Can she tell if I'm nervous?

"Well I'm nervous around you."

"You are?"

"Yeah I am. Larissa you are the most gorgeous woman I have ever seen. You made me change Larissa. Last year when I had Wednesday chained up she asked me why I was doing this and I explained that I had to but that I was sabotaging the plan as much as I could?"

"Why?"

"Because I had a change of heart."

"You did?" She nods her head and smiles

"Yes I did. I realized how opposite you really were then how my father explained to me and that I have fell in love with an outcast." I looked in her eyes looking for any signs of deception but I didn't find any. "I didn't think that after what happened that I would still have a job let alone us being friends"

"Well at first I didn't want to but you saved my life and everyone else here. We all make mistakes, Wednesday has made a lot of them that year but everyone deserves a second chance." She laughs and I smile at her "I am glad that you had a change of heart. I am glad that I can call you a friend" her smile faulted and it hurts.

"Can I ask one thing of you Larissa? And how if I don't like the answer I will never bother you again." She nods her head. "Do you like me Larissa? Because I like you so much that it hurts when I'm not around you and it hurts even more when I am around you because I have to like you from a distance and I can't hold you and kiss you and touch you like I really want to."

"I'm scared" I say just loud enough for her to hear. I'm not sure she heard it until she smiles at me.

"What are you afraid of Larissa?"

"I'm scared that I will let you in and you are going to break my heart."

"Well I can't promise anything. You know better than anyone how things can change in an instant. But what I can promise is that I will never hurt you on purpose, I promise that I will never leave you. I want this Larissa, I want you."

"Will you go out on a date with me?" she breaks out into the widest grin I have ever seen on her face.

"I would be honored to go out with you Larissa." We dance to the next couple songs breaking away when the night is over and the kids start to file back to their rooms. We decided to leave the mess for tomorrow.

"May I walk you back to your room Marilyn?" She nods her head and we start to walk to her room. We are so close that our arms are practically touching. I am dying to hold her hand the rest of the way to her room. Our fingers grazed and I felt the heat rise in my cheeks and I looked over to see a dark shade of red across her face too. I hear her take a deep breath and she entangles her fingers with mine and I gasp and I look over at her. She keeps her eyes forward but smiles. We get to her room and she pulls her hand away from me, I suddenly feel cold from the lack of warmth of her hand on me. She faces me and she smiles at me.

"Thank you for dancing with me, and walking me back to my room."

"Any time Marilyn. I had to walk you back to make sure that you are safe."

"I appreciate it, though I feel kind of sad that you have to walk back to your room all by yourself now." I raise my eyebrow and smirk.

"I can very well take care of myself. And I think that most of the teachers and students are a bit hesitant about being near me." I say a bit sad

"Well, I for one am nowhere near hesitant around you. At least not in the way you think, and you know all about what I think. But I will keep reminding you everyday if I need to. You are beautiful Larissa and I..." she takes a deep breath and she looks nervous now. "I love you." My eyes widened not expecting to hear that of all things coming out of her mouth.

"You do?"

"Of course I do." she said like she is stating a fact. I let myself go and I grabbed her waist and I pulled her close to me and I felt her lips on mine and it felt like my heart was about to explode. I realized what I did and I quickly let go of her and I backed away from her.

"Marilyn I am so sorry." places her hands on my cheek and pulls me down in for another kiss, she wraps her arms around my neck. Even with her heels I am still way taller than her. She smiles into the kiss and pulls away when we both need air.

"I am not sorry Larissa. I told you that I wanted this. And It's true, I still want this and I still want you. But before we get too crazy with the kisses I want to take you out on a date first." I feel heat rise in my cheeks again. "Are you free Tuesday evening?"

"Yes I am and even if I wasn't I would clear my schedule just for you.'' She raises her eyebrow knowing fully well that I am sometimes a workaholic. She leans in and kisses my cheek.

"Goodnight Larissa."

"Goodnight Marilyn." I say as I walk in the door. After I close it I slid my back down the door and I sat on the floor replaying everything in my head. I had a wide grin on my face and I take out my phone and I text Y/n

Me: Took your advice. Thank you.

I place my phone on the bed and I go to the bathroom to change and get ready for bed. As I walk out I hear my phone beep and I walk over to see two new messages one from Y/N and one from Marilyn.

Y/N: I want to know everything tomorrow. We are in our dorms in bed.

Marilyn: I still want you. Have a good night Larissa

I pondered for a second and I went to type my response.

Me: Good, I still want you too. Sweet dreams Marilyn.

I plug in my phone and I quickly fall asleep to the thoughts of tonight and what's to come with Marilyn.