The Life Of A Victim

<3 WALK AND TALK <3

School ended and I got a text on my phone, it read “Meet by the bleachers,” I ran to the bleachers, not wanting people to see me. I see nobody there, he then appears out of the shadows, his face with no emotion, “What do we need to talk about,” I asked, “Us” he answered, “I’m sorry, but I don’t know if this is going to work out, I’m sorry” “I can’t believe you, you are all I have, John. If you leave, I’ll have nobody, I’ll be nobody without you, please” I said, tears falling down my face, “Grace, I’m so sorry, but I have to” his voice seemed cold,

I didn’t hesitate and walked off, going God knows where, I don’t have a home. I found a park bench and decided to sleep there for the night. When I woke up, I saw Vikki sitting near me, “Hey, you okay?” she asked. I shook my head, “No, John just dumped me and he won’t tell me why” “Oh my God, don’t you have a place to sleep?” she asked, “No,” I said, tears still falling. “Here, I’ll let you sleep over at my place tonight,” she offered, “Thank you,” I said. Her place was nice, I didn’t pay attention to what she said, it went in one ear and out the other. I crashed on the couch, woke up the next day, and left.

My earbuds were constantly in and we ignored each other at school, the compliments and high fives stopped like it never happened. I felt like I was invisible again, John had other friends, but I only had him. I now have nobody, therefore, I am nobody. A few days after the breakup, he kept trying to talk to me, but I didn't want to deal with him. I was about to walk out of history and he grabs my hand and stops me dead in my tracks. I tried to walk away, but I couldn’t, “Grace, please stop ignoring me, I’m sorry” “Sorry?” I asked with anger in my voice, “THIS WASN’T A MISTAKE, JOHN. DO YOU REALIZE I NOW HAVE NOBODY NOW?! YOU LEFT ME AND DIDN’T TELL ME WHY, YOU ACT LIKE YOU’RE THERE FOR ME, WHICH IN REALITY, YOU’RE NOT!” I then said the one thing I wish I didn’t say, “I WISH KATELYN GOT YOU SO YOU WOULDN’T BE HERE TO TREAT ME LIKE CRAP!” he took a step back and let go of my hand, “Okay then,” as soon as I knew what I said, I instantly regretted it, “John, I-” he cut me off, “No, I think you made it perfectly clear that you wish it was me who was gone” I tried to stop him, but he escaped my grip and walked off. I ran to a bathroom stall and cried there for some time which felt like forever.