bitter ex | yang jungwon enhypen

the perfect blend

NOTE: THIS IS A SPECIAL CHAPTER BECAUSE... THIS BOOK HAS REACHED 1.7K READS!!!! gratitude note at the end of this special oneshot <333 this special chapter is somewhat crucial to the story tho because it expounds what happened in the dimension you were in at the last chapter. i hope you'll enjoy this sweet, light, chapter <333TW: self-harm and mention of su!c!d3 attempts. if you're not ok with that, you may skip this chapter. this chapter is to help cope with self-harm, get well soon my lovelies if you're feeling down!!!this is in jungwon's pov, not y/n's this time!!! :DD
~ means timeskip :))
!THERE ARE SPOILERS TO THE RECENTLY RELEASED ENHYPEN MV "BITE ME." If you haven't watched the MV yet, and wished not to be spoiled, you may skip this chapter!

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"I gazed at her swift movements as she hastily wrote down people's orders on the receipt machine. She's so precise and meticulous, a true perfectionist if anything, yet I find it all so fascinating. What goes on inside her mind, how is she so quick with her movements, yet she still keeps her working surroundings clean? The more I keep coming back to this cafe, the more I get fascinated by her and her ways. Her skilled fingers, her focused gaze on the drinks she makes with love, and the way she talks and attends to each and every customer with care in those words she speaks of.

 That's when it all started. From a simple observation, she's now stuck in my mind. Ever since that damn day, I get this feeling when I look at her. It's different type of feeling... A feeling I can't quite grasp. It's somewhat similar to when I see engene, just a little more... nerve-wracking, yet thrilling at the same time. It feels like I'm entering a new dimension. To expound more on that quick thought, the cafe opened a few kilometers away from the HYBE building, so I decided to check it out. Under a low profile, I went to the cafe to do my work. I was having lyric block, so I thought it might give me some inspiration. Oh boy, did it give me a lot of inspiration. As soon as I walked inside the cafe, she caught my eye. She was so friendly, I was the first customer who arrived as at that time, I've been waiting since 5:00 AM. ( TMI: The cafe opened at 6:00 AM and closed at 1:00 AM. ) "Good morning, how is your day?" She greeted with the warmest smile I've seen in a while. I told her I was here to get inspiration for lyrics, to which she was pleasantly surprised and put her utmost best into making the finest drink she was able to whip up. To my surprise, it only took 2 minutes. She was so tranquil about me picturing different angles of the cafe, she even allowed me to take some pictures behind the counter. Well, at that time, I was the only one there, so it's understandable why she allowed me to do as such. Even so, not that many business owners would allow someone to take more than 20 photos of their establishment, especially behind the counter. After I was done taking pictures, I finally tried the special drink she made for me. I thought to myself, "She's more than skilled, she's proficient and concise. The design of her cafe is minimal, but not lacking in any way. The use of space is immaculate and efficient. Most importantly, her drinks are balanced. The menu isn't a headache to read, AKA it's not too long, the prices are reasonable, the amount of the refreshments are more than bountiful, and primarily, the blend of the coffee... It's magnificent." I still stand by my thought. The coffee was smooth and rich, whereas the java chip was sweet but not too sweet. I was infatuated, the first sip I took was like a creamy dream, but it wasn't just the coffee that I was infatuated with. I talked to the owner, Y/N, and she was just as sweet as the java chip frappe she gave me. I started chatting with her for maybe 20 minutes until another customer arrived-- now I would go there early just to chat with her for at least a few minutes. The more I went there, the more I felt a certain pounding in my heart started to occur, even before I drank my daily cup of java chip frappe. I love her. I know it's love, well that's what HEESEUNG, my hyung said. I want her, it sounds selfish but I really do. She just can't get out of my mind. What would you do if you were in a situation like this?"
I sighed as I typed the last word into my docs, if this isn't enough to show to the lyricists and why they should approve the idea of my song, I think I'll just give up on production. I got a different order today. I got an iced americano, and for some reason, I got this sudden burst of not only energy, but confidence as well. Today, I'm going to ask Y/N out. Today, I'll be different. Today, I'm going to make a change. "We'll make the change."
As Y/N went up to me, asking how I was since I've been sitting and typing in my laptop for so long, I waved her a hello. "Yo yo, whatcha workin' on today, Jungwon?" She patted my back, taking a quick glance at my work. "Just making a... short summary of some inspiration I've been thinking of." I added the docs I just wrote to the google drive given by the staff. "You sure a 700+ word docs is short to you? I mean, for an inspiration report for lyrics, it looks quite detailed and long, Your eyes aren't tired yet?" Her voice stumbled, somewhat filled with worry. "Actually, my brain has been drained ages ago. I could really use a break."
"How about you hang out with me? I closed early today since I was supposed to have a meeting which is now canceled. I needed a break anyway." Y/N stretched her arms, her bones making popping noises. "Wait, the cafe's been closed the whole time, why didn't you tell me?" My eyes widened like dinner plates. "Your eyes have been glued to your laptop for hours that you didn't noticed the surroundings around you. I didn't wanna disturb you because I know how stressful the KPOP idol life is." Her eyes suddenly went bloodshot, her hands notably started to quiver. "Eugh, it sure is stressful," I looked down at her hands, "Your hands... are they perhaps cold? They're shaking."
"No, there's just something on my mind. Let's go out for a walk, so I can organize my thoughts for a bit." She opens the door for me, suggesting that I go out first. "Ah, thank you." I smiled warmly. She reciprocated that energy as we had a silent, yet comforting walk in the city. This is the most tranquility I've felt in a while, genuine tranquility that is. As we arrived at a nearby park, we sat down near the placid river, admiring the scenery around us. "Looks like it's just the two of us." I exhaled, the cold air presenting itself in front of me, "Are you sure you're not cold? It's pretty freezing nowadays.""No, I'm fine. I had some piping hot coffee earlier, so I'm fine for now... but my hands are getting quite chilly." Her fingers twitched. My brain is flashing, "You should hold hands with her," but then it's also thinking, "Don't do that, what if she's uncomfortable with it?"I let my ardent thoughts win, unfortunately. "Your hands are so much warmer than mine. It's thoughtful of you to do such an act." Her cheeks glowed red. I don't know if it was because of the cold or me. Whatever caused it, it's cute for sure. Maybe it wasn't that unfortunate. Rather, it's balanced. "I could never let thy hands get cold, it would be caddish of me." I tugged a bit on her hands a little harder, making sure no cold air enters her hands. "No need to be so chivalric around me, for I do not deserve this type of affection." Her head laid down on my shoulder. You do. You deserve everything. Well, maybe you don't deserve someone as inept as I. "So, if you don't mind me asking, what was on your mind earlier?"
"A lot for a short amount of time, really. Who knew someone could have thoughts that's probably more than a thousand words for sure." She lowly chuckled. As her laugh slowly faded, a white butterfly came fluttering by. It landed in her hair. She didn't seem to mind it at all."Tell me."
"Tell you what?"
"Tell me everything. We're pretty much free right now anyway."Her voice hitched, but eventually her shoulders stopped tensing up. "You're right. I should trust you anyway. We are best friends after all."
 Best friends.
"Jungwon, did you know I tried entering the KPOP industry once?" Her hands around mine suddenly grip harder than before. "Yeah, Heeseung mentioned it to me. Of course, he mentioned it to me before you became my unofficial coach. Why bring it up again?" My thumb rubbed the sides of her wrist. "It just occurred to me when I saw your eyes stuck to a white page in docs. You're figuring out lyrics for your new album, Dark:Blood right?" Her breath is clearly seen, despite the bright sky in front of us. I nod. "I vividly remember, I would forget to eat because my body didn't wanna move away from desk. For example, if the deadline of lyric writing was two weeks from now, I would have it done in 4 days. I even thought 4 days was still so slow. When I did eat, I threw up all of it. I was afraid. Afraid if I wasn't able to reach the necessary weight needed to be a KPOP idol. I even forgot to call my family, even Heeseung. Eventually, Heeseung barged into my room instead wondering what was I doing. At that time, I haven't answered any of his calls for almost 4 weeks. He knew something was up. He knew it was because of stress. Because of that, he told me these exact words, ''You wanna be a barista more, don't you? You've been eyeing the espresso machine at the kitchen for months at this point. I've seen the look on your face when you make a perfect heart for your latte. If you really like working at a cafe, then I suggest you just quit doing all of this KPOP idol work. It's better than not eating for straight 2 days. I may be able to introduce you to one of my friends who needs help getting a bit back into dancing. Try talking to him, maybe it could be a side job. I think that's much more manageable than what you're doing right now.,, Those words are what I needed to hear. For the longest time, I hated myself. It felt like I was wasting my life. I wasn't doing what I truly loved." Y/N's eyes watered, oh how it shattered my heart immensely to see her like this. She grasped away from my hand, and rolled up her sleeves. Numerous, engorged cuts and bruises were on her wrists. Wait. Now that I realize it, those bruises on her legs the other day, those weren't from tripping in the cafe, weren't they? I didn't even notice that I was the one crying a river. "I'm sorry for doing this to myself, most of these were recent too. It was all due to the stress of keeping up with the cafe, and of course, I have never seemed to love me, nor have I found me. None of this is because of you, there is no need to cry a river." She patted my back as my eyes seemed to build up even more tears. "I'm not crying because I think it's my fault, I know it's not. Well, at least I hope I'm not. I'm crying because I hate to see you like this. You have every right to feel this way, but it just pains me to see you not loving yourself. I think all of us idols-- no, everyone, has felt this worthless feeling. Whether we felt it today, yesterday, yestermonth, yesteryear, we all seem to fall into this never-ending paradox. A paradox of finding out whether you're worth it or not. I want to be the person who will remind you that you are more than worth it. Dearest, I love you. You are so special to me, you know that?" I held Y/N closer to me, cherry blossoms fall as spring starts to bloom as this blissful moment occurs. Both of our eyes glisten, bubbling with tears."You...?"
"Yeah, I kinda do-- No, I really do, Y/N. I'm head over heels for you."
"You called me dearest earlier."
"Do you not like it?"
"Do it again."
"My dearest, Y/N, I'll say this again. I love you."
"How much?"
"To the moon and back. Do you feel the same way?"
"Oh my, is that even a question?" She held my chin as I gaze at her soft features. "If I could fall in love with you and feel these butterflies over and over again, I would do it as many times as I could." I caress Y/N's cheeks carefully. She moves slightly closer to my face, our noses touching. "I'm so in love with you too. May I kiss you?" I nod excitingly. As soon as our lips collide, it feels like a warm, welcoming frenzy of ardor. It brings me back to those days when I first fell in love with Y/N. I was unaware of how powerful love could really be. 
I love the curves on her body.
I love how her eyes smile with her mouth.
I love her uneven teeth.
I love her strength.
I love her smooth and soft hands.
I love her messy, yet silky hair.
I love her personality.
I love how her fashion never goes out of style.
I love how our love will never get out of style.
Love is truly the most powerful force known to many.
The both of us were smiling through the kiss, murmuring "I love you's" into each deep love we made. Of course, we had to break the kiss at some point. We couldn't stay like that forever, but I wish we did. "My oh my, I wish we had more time to just enjoy each other's presence."
"If you're going to save me, just come kiss me and bite me." She whispered in my ear. "Did you happen to catch one of my recent files for songs again?" I kissed her cheek softly. "Yes, and I'm absolutely obsessed with the idea of the blood, relations, and addiction. It's beautifully written, dearest. I'm also aware of the ins and outs of the Dark Moon worlds. Oh, how surreal would it be to have a vampire boyfriend?! The Seraph of The End energy is burning through me."

Well if only she knew.
I had a secret kept in those files.

~the next day~

I was rereading the file she glanced at the other day, the one that kept the lyrics for: "Bite me, Fate, Chaconne, Sacrifice ( Eat me up ), Bills, Karma," and other drafts written by the members. Now that I think of it, I was basically the scribe. Anyway, it seems like the secret written by Sunghoon was kept safe. The worst part of this... I don't even know what is this secret. He said I could read it if I get too curious, but that might just disturb his boundaries.

Eh, nevermind. He did give me the go signal, so it's his fault if it gets exposed.

"To whoever is reading this, heads up to stop unless it's my fellow members. Not even the staff can read this. I'm sure you know about our universe, "DARK MOON: THE BLOOD ALTAR." All of us play different roles. Now if you don't remember our roles from the EN- O' CLOCK episode,  I'll reiterate it for you:
Jungwon- Jakah
Heeseung- Heli
Jay- Jaan
Jake- Jino
Sunghoon- Solon
Sunoo- Shion
Ni-ki- Noa
Now that you remember, we're all vampires that have special abilities. I don't know your guy's special abilities since we're not supposed to mention it according to a lady from my dreams. I know, it's just a dream, but I don't want to risk it knowing that we do have powers. I know mine already. Figure this out yourself by finding your character. You'll have to switch dimensions. How to switch dimensions, you may ask? I'm not really sure myself. It just occurred to me. It might be different for everyone, so be careful. I wish you all luck.

Signed, Park Sunghoon of ENHYPEN."

We're... actually vampires? No wonder why my teeth have been sharper than usual lately... How will I find out a way to phase through universes?
"I'm also aware of the ins and outs of the Dark Moon worlds." Y/N's voice replayed in my head. That's it... She's my way to getting to another me.

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SPECIAL NOTE:
(A/N: It has been a HUGE journey with you all. 1.7k is an absolute dream to me. To many, it might not sound like a lot, but it is for me. Seeing my book get recognition and being loved despite its flaws make me more than jubilant. To my engaged readers, thank you for sticking around! To my new readers, hello, and I hope you're enjoying the book so far. I never thought in all my years of living that I would publish my own work and for it to receive this much love. School has been DRAINING, and this book is currently my escape. Through this book, I am able to express my love for not only ENHYPEN, but I'm able to share my journey with becoming a better writer as well. Even if writing doesn't end up being my profession in the future, I hope that I'm still able to share my stories and ideas with you all. Writing this book has taught me a lot, and I'm utmost in debt to you for all of this. I'm more than excited to see this book reach higher milestones, and I'll be sure to start writing new works soon. I hope that even if I write stories about different kpop groups, genshin, different fandoms, you'll still support me fully. I'll still be sure to write ENHYPEN, but I'm sure after this will be a LONG hiatus of typing words about my favorite boys. I remember the first day this book reached 100 reads, and I was over the moon. Words cannot describe the joy I felt when I saw these numbers. Originally, the plot of this book just came from a dream of mine. I thought to myself, "What if I write this and post it as a Wattpad story? I asked my sister about it, and she fully supported me on this, so sharing my gratitude to my sister as well. Once again, thank you so much for helping me reach this milestone. After this, I'll be writing a SUNOO special, for those who felt bad about him. As usual, that setting will be in a different universe where Y/N decided to go with Sunoo and not Jungwon. For now though, I will be editing chapters instead for maximum amount of butterflies! I hope this blend of coffee was never bitter for you <333 )