To Soon To Love You

Beginning of adventure

It was a sunny day in New York. I walked around for a bit taking in the busy streets my mother and I used to walk down when I was younger.

I'm not big on talking about my past with my parents or what I've been through. Although my best friend and roommate Evie know a lot, she doesn't know everything. I'm a pretty closed-off person and maybe that's why all my relationships don't work out. You have to also understand not many people can be trusted. I believe Evie and I are close and so easily connected because of our parents. Yes her parents passed away but she knew about a lot of the shit I went through to be where I am today. She's been there for me when I was at my worst and went through bad spirals. Our other friend Grace was always lighting up the mood and making all of us have a great time. She's been there for both of us. They both mean the world to me and I'm so glad I met them.

As it started to get later I headed back to the apartment to get ready for work with Evie and Grace. After the long night of catering Evie Grace and I was in the kitchen counting our tips. As they were talking about how they both got grabbed, I kept quiet and kept counting my tips.

The boss was behind them "Want me to call HR for you?" he asked in an annoyed tone. "Oh hey Tony, we were just messing around" Evie informed him. "Just jokes" Grace quickly informed after. We all let out a little giggle. Tony responded with a low tone in his voice as usual "You know there are plenty of other girls who would be grateful for this gig"

As he walked out and out of view Grace said "What an asshat" "I know tell me about it, none of that should be allowed" I said. " I did grab us a swag bag," Grace said in excitement pulling three medium-sized paper bags from under the counter and then saying. "They got little bottles of wine in them" Evie and I both said at the same time "My favorite" We looked at each other knowing tonight going to be fun.

"And there's a DNA test in them too, anyway I gotta run. Got my midterms tomorrow" Grace said. "You're gonna crush it," I told her. " I know, see you guys later," she said as she started to walk out. "Later," I said in response. I looked over to Evie and asked her "Ready to have a good night?" "Yes," she said in excitement.

As we made it to our apartment Evie changed her clothes so she could do some pottery. I changed into my blue cloud shorts and tank top pajama set. When I came out Evie seemed frustrated as her hand collided with the wet bowl she had tried to make. She was annoyed so after she washed her hands I grabbed our swag bags and handed hers to her. I took out one of my tiny wine bottles while she took hers and the DNA test out of hers.

"You know what, fuck it I'ma try this" Evie announced as we both twisted off the caps to our bottles. "Go ahead, it'd be cool to know," I told her "You know Y/N you should try it too," Evie told me looking at me to see what id say. "I don't know, I mean yes it would be interesting to know but-" cutting me off she says "No buts, come on do this with me. What's the worst that could happen?"

"A lot of things could, maybe their murders and will try to find and kill me," I said in a sarcastic tone. "Come on Y/N, please" she begged. "Okay, fine I'll do it" She jumped up for joy and hugged me. "Thank you, thank you" We laughed and sat on the couch sipping our wine. She was watching the online directions once we finished we went to bed.

The next morning I had to run errands. Food shopping and maybe some clothes shopping. I got dressed and put on my sneakers. I walked out to the living room and saw Evie. "Hey Y/N I'm mailing out my test today, do you want me to take yours too?" Evie asked. "Yea sure, I'd appreciate that" I responded. "I most likely won't be home till later, is there anything you need while I'm out?" I asked her. "No, I'm okay. Thanks for asking" Evie said.

After shopping I came home to see Evie and Grace were drinking wine. As I was putting everything away Evie got an email from her so-called cousin. They started laughing and joking about how white and British rich he probably is. She clicked the family tree and they both became extremely quiet.

"Too quiet, what happened?" I asked. "Y/N you're gonna wanna see this" Grace said still in shock. I came to sit next to Evie as she had her hand over her mouth in complete shock. As I looked at the screen I saw my name on the family tree. I looked at Evie, now just as shocked as she was.

"Were cousins?" I asked. Evie just looked at me. I went and grabbed my phone from the counter to see if I got anything back from my email. "But I still haven't gotten anything at all," I say in a nervous tone. "Mayne it just hasn't gone through yet" Evie suggested. "We're cousins though?" I asked to be reassured. "Well more like fourth cousins" Grace announced to the both of us.

"So my mom was serious when she said I wasn't even hers. I was fucking adopted and got that kind of life?" said frustrated and a bit upset. "I'm so sorry Y/N, you didn't ask for that life," Evie said in a sad tone knowing what happened in my past. "So our cousin wants to meet with you?" I asked

"Y-yea, do you want me to see if you can join us?" Evie asked. "I don't know if I'm being honest I don't think I could meet him. Knowing my whole life was all a lie. At least right now I can't. I have to calm down and figure out if I want to know who my real parents are" I said putting one hand on my head.

"I understand, do you want me to ask if he's heard of you?" Evie asked with concern. "Yes, I'd like to know if he at least knows of me, if he doesn't and he questions why just tell him I'm a really good friend of yours," I told her. "You got it, I'll make sure to tell you everything when I get home tomorrow," Evie said

"Okay sounds good" I responded "I'm gonna head to bed though, this is all too overwhelming" Evie and Grace got up and hugged me.  "We're here if you need anything at all," Evie told me. "Anything Y/N" Grace said quickly. "Goodnight guys," I say starting to walk to my room. "Night Y/N," Grace said "See you tomorrow," Evie said in a concerned tone.

I got to my room and just kept thinking about everything that had happened with my so-called parents. Were they just random people or family or family friends? I don't know how id react if I knew. I got beaten and burned, I turned to smoking and self-harming.

We all lived in a crappy house where they would spend all their money on whatever drug they could get ahold of. Not only that the man I thought was my father tried doing things to me. It all makes sense now though. I was forced into that life and I dealt with it, and it made me stronger than ever. I see the world differently and I try to give people chances but sometimes it's hard.  I don't wanna know who my real parents are I might go back to self-harming again and I won't be able to handle it much this time.