"Where are you? Do you want me to pick you up?" si Jax, bestfriend ko.
"Gusto ko kumain kaya puntahan mo na ako rito"
He said that he would treat me before saying goodbye. Actually, Jax and I have been best friends for 3 years. Other people think that we are a couple, but no, I can't see us in a relationship. He's like a brother to me.
"So saan mo gusto kumain?" hindi rin naman nagtagal ay nakarating na siya. He even patted my head at talagang ginulo pa ang buhok ko!
"Kain tayo kwek-kwek!" nakangiti ko namang saad at nagmamadaling binigay ang bag ko sa kanya, hindi rin naman siya umangal at napatawa pa talaga habang dinadala ang bag ko.
Napakasarap ng kwek-kwek sa labas ng school namin naka tatlong kwek-kwek na ako habang nag rarant sa kanya.
"Na kaka badtrip talaga yung kapatid ko. Alam mo ba sinumbong na naman ako kay daddy, na nag bar ako kahapon. Kainis!" naiinis kong ani habang sumusubo parin ng kwek-kwek.
He wiped off the excess sauce in my mouth, which made me stiff. "Alam mo ba, konti na lang at iisipin ko ng gusto mo ako."
"Go on, just think that way." He said it bluntly while staring at me.
"Hah! As if naman type mo ako!" I partly pouted.
I do admit that I like Jaxsith. I mean, who wouldn't?
There was this one time when I had an emotional breakdown, and he was miles away from me at that time since they had some kind of family gathering, but then I was left in awe when 3 hours later kumatok siya sa harap ng condo ko, dinalhan ako ng cookies at cream ice cream at french fries. Like he drove his way to my condo kahit gabi na para lang samahan ako.
But I know that my feelings for him are very wrong..
Kaibigan ko siya, matalik kong kaibigan, at sa tingin ko ito ang paraan niya para ipakita ang kanyang pag-aalaga sa isang taong malapit sa kanya, kaya hindi ko dapat bigyan ng anumang kahulugan ang kanyang mga aksyon.
"Hey, ang lalim ng iniisip mo. What are you thinking?" he asked while slightly tilting his head habang sumusubo ng kwek-kwek.
"Wala. Iniisip ko lang, "Paano ka nagustuhan ng kapatid ko?" I mean duh! Playboy ka kaya!" pagsisinungaling ko sa kanya. Hindi naman talaga siya playboy eh.
Jaxsith Levinn V. Feriado, a basketball varsity player, is a 6-footer, a pianist, a guitarist, an heir, and an achiever. He has these thick, well-groomed brows and plump, pouty lips. His sharp, delicate nose. His almond-brown eyes and his well-refined jaws. He is the real definition of "God's favorite." Kung may isang bagay na hindi niya alam, ito ay pagsasayaw. He's so bad at it!
"Tara na. Ihahatid na kita pauwi." he said after paying for the kwek-kwek that we ate.
"You go first," sabi niya habang bitbit ang bag ko at naglalakad lang sa likod ko.
He always lets me walk in front of him, even when we are taking the stairs and even the escalator. He's always behind me.
Basic etiquette, I guess.
When we reached his car, he opened the door in the shotgun seat for me. Hindi naman ako nailang dahil palagi niya naman itong ginagawa.
Pagdating namin sa condo ko, nagpaalam na ako, and the moment I stepped inside my unit, naligo agad ako at natulog. My day today was really draining kaya knock down talaga ako.
We barely hung out since both of us were really busy doing our own thing, but he never failed to update me about his whereabouts.
While I was on my way towards my car, I noticed Jax leaning on his car. I was about to go near him when I saw someone—no, not someone. It was Khalee, my sister, walking towards Jaxsith.
And what shocked me the most was
I saw Khalee, kissing Jaxsith on his lips.
As soon as they stopped kissing, Jaxsith went to the driver's side and went in. He didn't even open the door for Khalee.
May kamay naman si Khalee eh, kaya na niya yun.
I was feeling a bit weird, as if I was hurt. I just wanted to be alone and be at peace..
So I drove to my favorite spot, the beach. It was just me, the waves, and the night sky.
This feeling for him is so messed up. I shouldn't feel this way. Kailangan ko nang itigil ito bago pa maging huli ang lahat. Sila na ng kapatid ko, hindi ito pwede. Red, this is all wrong, so wrong..
Let's just live as best we can while the night is still young, shall we?
It was past 10 p.m. when I noticed someone sitting beside me in the sand. Alam ko naman sino to eh kaya hindi ko na lang ito liningon.
HIs presence makes me feel safe and secured which is so fucked up.
"What are you doing here?" I asked him while my eyes were still fixed at the waves in front of us.
"I went to your condo, but you weren't there. I waited, and I even called you, but you are not picking up any of my calls. I was worried, so I tracked your location. What's wrong?" he explained and asked in a very gentle way. It was so soothing and it melted my heart but I shouldn't.
"Have you ever loved someone?" I asked out of nowhere.
"Yes" Of course he does; he and Khalee are together already.
"Of course you do, but have you ever loved someone even though you knew that the two of you couldn't even be together?" I slightly chuckled, out of pain.
I already expected that he would answer "NO" but what he answered made me stare at him.
"Of course, I did. I couldn't gather up all my courage to confess to her because she was very special to me. I couldn't afford to lose her, so loving her from afar was the only option I set for myself." he then stared at me.
He cupped my face and was about to kiss me when I suddenly stopped him.
"You are confusing me" I immediately ran towards my car. I tried to run as fast as I could but he was way faster than me. He grabbed me by my arms and made me face him.
"Red, was I really that hard to love?" he asked, like he was hurt.
"I don't even know what you are talking about, Jax. Teka nga, bat ka ba ganyan? Do you like me?" I know I was being sarcastic but he was really confusing me!
I was about to go to my car when he spoke.
"What if I do?" He was serious.
And that made me stiff.
