It was calm and silent in the bathroom as the two males were still wrapped around each other like their life depended on it, neither of them wanting to let go as they allow their thoughts to take the best of them even outside the bathroom was a complete silence, the bathroom being in the further most corner of the floor any student barely used or visited it but that didn't mean that the washroom wasn't clean, it was regularly cleaned by the staff due to the requirement of keeping the students hygiene. The lack of any other human or any kinda sound around them helped the two mens to hear the rhythm of each other's heartbeats without any disturbance
jungkook was furious on himself, he hated and despised himself even more now. he was well known to the fact that he was behind the cries of the younger or atleast the most of it was caused by him, and he just wanted to punch something really hard to take his anger off. he was hurting to the point he hardly was able to control his anger and protectiveness over the younger, he wanted to forget everyone and everything. he wanted to just be with the younger and protect him with his life, was it too much to ask? Why were these feelings so forbidden and wrong to the point it felt like jungkook was no longer a human but a complete sinner, he didn't do anything wrong.. he just loved? Why was this so wrong for them that in this process they were hurting each other in order to not do something they weren't meant to.
Why were their such rules in this fucked up world? Why always it had to be the lovers suffering in order to not let their significant other hurt, why?
According to jungkook, those stupid feelings were the only reason that he was not only hurting the younger again and again but also himself, it was his fault to come up with these forbidden feelings for his brother.. a brother he was meant to look at, care for and love but without adding these additional want to have the younger only for himself, the want to hold the younger and never let go. he wanted to cry so hard, everything was messed up just because of him, just because he is selfish enough to not control himself with the younger. the younger was too pure with these feelings or so he thought that he was continuously calling himself a sinner. He believed he was really fucked up and he actually was with these feelings constantly having stab his heart with every breath he took hugging jimin in his tight yet warm hold.
he hated himself every time jimin had look at him with a smile,
monster.. you're a fucking monster Jeon fucked up jungkook
he was being a complete fucker to have this kinda affection towards his brother who looked at him with nothing but love.. love of a brother (// This is what jungkook thinks, since he is unaware of jimin's feelings//)
