Next Level

"I looked at him, he looked back. I liked the game that he wasn't even playing"

My brain kept on insisting that what I was feeling at that moment was forbidden and wrong. That it would lead me to hell. Among everything, I couldn't stop that new feeling. I couldn't stop these strange heart beats that shoke my whole body. It wasn't the usual blood pumping but a river of adrenaline running through my veins and pushing me to lose control. Every tiny bit of oxygen that went through my lungs felt like fire burning my soul. I couldn't say it or even admit it. My head alerted that it was illegal... illegal... illegal... who has ever imagined that I could get to this point? The other day, while talking about "Fairy", he said that he believes there's love in me. I couldn't find anything. Instead, I discovered that I'm so empty and filled at the same time. I found out that I'm filled of a scary and deep emptiness. All I looked like was a cannon ball crushing in the air and it hurts me so much. All my life, I've been into video games, but I have never lost this way... That time, it wasn't my dragon that lost the game but me. It couldn't be a "NEXT LEVEL" or even a "play again". It was a simple and cold "game over"... 

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