𝑱𝒖𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆. (Johnny Depp)

Chapter 04.

        He shake hands with the doctor and then entered the room, I didn’t asked him anything about the medicine he was talking about. After when I was done with drip, he took me home, he opened the door and then took me inside. “Sit here, I’ll bring water for you” he said and then went to kitchen, he brought water with him and gave me. I grabbed his hand, “Are you avoiding me?” I asked and took water from his hand. He sat down and took deep sigh, “No….. I’m….. Not” he said these words taking pause between them. I took sip of water and placed it on table but Johnny pointed me to finish it, “I’m trying to keep everything normal between us” he said. I quickly drank the water and then placed the glass on table. I turned towards him and grabbed his hands, “Everything… everything is fine… just, just don’t avoid me” I said and he looked at me, “Everything is fine” he said. “Yes everything is fine. I didn’t do anything and you didn’t do anything” I said while looking at him and in response he nodded his head. He took me to my room and asked me to rest while he would cook something for me. I sat there in my room, I looked at the picture frame with picture of me and Morella. I hold it and started crying while remembering the time we both spend together, “Oh Morella! I wish I would have stopped you… I could have saved you from the dreadful pain you have suffered from” I said and pressed the frame with my chest. “Why is this all happening? First Nataliya then Morella and then Oliver… why am I loosing my friends? Tell me its just a dream… someone tell me it’s a horrible dream that I’m having” I said while crying and my heart beat got fast, I felt my chest heavy like there was stone in my chest and it was getting difficult for me to breath. Memories with Morella were coming in my mind and my head started to spin, I got up and grabbed my head, “Its just a dream! Its just a dream!” I said and took rapid breaths. “Rosella!” I heard my name and I turned around, Morella was sitting on my bed and she was wearing the uniform which she was wearing on day of murder and her shirt was covered with blood. “Morella!” I said, “You could have stopped me, you could have saved me but you didn’t” she said. “No…..” I said while she stood up and started walking towards me, “You could have” she said. I screamed, “JOHNNNNNYYYYY!!!” I called Johnny and started screaming, I ran out of the room. “You could have!” I heard her behind me and then her laugh, “JOHNNY!!!” I shouted and ran downstairs, I reached the landing between the stairs and Johnny was climbing up stairs. “Johnny!!!” I said, he opened his arms and I jumped in his arms, “What happened?!!” he asked and hugged me tightly while my body was shaking with fear but as I hugged him I felt secured, “What happened to you? You are shaking” he said. “Johnny… Johnny she is up there” I said pointing up, “Who?” He said and he looked up and then at me. “Morella” I said in low pitch, as I said that his eyes got wide. “There is no one… OK? Its just you and me” he said while wiping my tears from my cheeks, “But I saw her” I said. “Ok Ok… its just your imagination… relax OK…” he said and hugged me. “Johnny I’m scared…” I said, “I’m here nothing will happen to you” he said and kissed on my head. He took me to kitchen with him and then comforted me until I calmed down and gave me glass of water, he spread jam on piece of bread, “You have to eat this so that I can give you medicine” he said and fed me. He gave me medicine, “Johnny please stay with me” I said and hugged him, “trust me… I’ll never leave you” he said. “Now let’s go to your room” he said and started walking but I hissed and he turned around to look at me, “Look at this” he said while sitting down. He examined my foot, “You got hurt while running down stairs” he said and then looked up at me. “I don’t know when this happened” I said, he got up and then hold me up in his arms in bridal style, he walked through the corridor and reached stairs. “Hold me firmly” he said and I nodded, he climbed up stairs and took me to his room. He laid me on his bed and then brought first aid kit, he applied ointment on my foot and covered it with bandage, “Here you go! It will help” he said and then sat beside me. “Roselle…  whatever you saw was just in your mind…” he said, I looked at him his eyes were closed, “I don’t know” I said and he opened his eyes. “Tell me… what are you thinking? What’s going on in there?” he said and pointed his finger on my forehead. “I, I, I” I was going to give him reply when I saw behind him, Morella was standing there, “Johnny!!!” I yelled and hugged. “Hey! Hey! Relax! Relax! What is it?” he said and I hugged him tightly. “I don’t wanna see anything! I don’t want to open my eyes” I said and closed my eyes, “Ok, Ok” he said and hugged me. He kept me in his arms until I fell asleep, but through sleeping I couldn’t escape my guilt. I saw numerous dreams of Morella which frightened me a lot, everything felt worse and I wanted to escape it. Johnny called the doctor and he came to examine me, he gave me injection and some new medicines. Next day it was Morella’s funeral, “You should take bath Zelle” Johnny said as he entered my room. He was holding black dress for me, “If you don’t want to go…” he said and I stood up instantly, “I’ll go” I said and got near him. He gave me the dress and I took it, “I’m here if anything happens just call me” he said and I nodded my head and then he went out of the room. I took bath and whole time Johnny would knock at door to make sure that I’m fine. I got out of washroom and dried my hair then I wore the black dress, it was made out of velvet and was simple. I tied my hair up into a bun, I turned around turning my back to mirror and found zip of the dress open. I tired to close it but my hand was not reaching it, so I went to Johnny’s room to ask for help. I knocked at his door and then opened the door, whenever I entered his room the feelings of comfiness and secureness would wrapped around my body. I would feel warmness on my body like there were some heat waves in his room that would cover me. He was standing in front of mirror and was wearing black three piece suit, light rays coming from window were touching him, making him visible in dark room and he was applying perfume on his neck. His long eyelashes moved upwards as his eyes turned towards me, “Well! You got ready” he said and smiled, “Yes almost! If my dress… can you zip it up for me?” I said and he gave me his hand. I took it while moving near him and then he slide his hand upwards on my shoulders and brought me in front of him. I looked up at mirror in front of me, he was looking down at my back, “OK…” he said and I felt his hands moving from shoulders to downwards and they stopped on my back where the zip was. He tilt his head a little and then grabbed the zip, I felt a movement on my back in upwards direction. His lips were slightly opened and he exhaled wind out of his mouth which touched my back, “All done!” He said and then his eyes moved on my back. He grabbed me from my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder, and then softly rubbed tip of his nose on my shoulder. He looked at me through mirror’s reflection, “Are sure you want to go?” he said and I broke eye contact with him. “Yes” I said while rubbing his hand around my waist, “As you wish but promise me you won’t overthink” he said. I turned towards him, his alluring eyes were stuck on my face I placed my head on his chest, “Morella once told me that I’m lucky” I said. His hand slowly moved from my waist to my chin and he made me look up at him, “Really? How?” he asked. “Cause I’m living with my lover and she was right. I would have died from all of these miseries if I didn’t have you in my life” I said and he put his thumb on my lips, “Shh… don’t say that” he said and kissed on my forehead. We went to the funeral, almost whole town was at the funeral, Morella’s mom was crying a lot Morella was her only child. I hugged her we both cried, “Oh my poor daughter” she said while hugging me, “Aunty I know your loss is big but don’t cry like that you’ll get ill” I said and wipped tears from her face and she instantly grabbed my hand, “ My little child! Rosella what was her fault? She only went to your home” she said while weeping. Her grip on my wrist was very tight I tried to ease it, “Aunty can you just leave my…” I said and she asked me, “Why didn’t you stop her? Huh?”. I looked at her, in her eyes there was sadness, hopelessness and ‘regret’. She started me asking the same question again and again and I could feel the horrible remorse inside me. “Ok! That’s enough! You can’t blame her for this” Johnny said as he got between us. She left my hand, “I, I, I didn’t meant that! I’m sorry I’m…” she said. “Its OK… I just, want to… spend some time alone” I said and got out of there, I went to the garden outside their house. I stood their and folded my arms, “It means she also things that its my fault” I said and looked up at sky. Gray sky with dusty white clouds, light wind was blowing in the end of winter season. “This part of the season is the saddest” voice came beside me, I looked and found victor standing with me, he was wearing black dress and his eyes were red, red eyes as he has cried a lot. “Victor!” I said and hugged him, I started crying loudly, “Shh… shh… she would have got angry after seeing you cry like this for her” he said with his crying voice. “Victor! Why! How? She left us… she was the one who made this group and now she has left it” I said and looked up at him. Tears were running down his cheeks and his face was flushed, “Rosella… Johnny told me that you have stressed out yourself, you should not do this, you have to accept the reality” he said while grabbing me through my shoulders. “I don’t know… what, hiccup* to do…” I said and he hugged me again, “She was the only person in my life after Johnny, I’ve lost my precious friend hiccup* I, my heart, it feels like piece of my heart is gone, I felt this way when my parents hiccup* died” I said. “Shh, come on shh drink water” he said, I looked up and found Johnny standing near me with water bottle. His eyes were sad and he looked worried, “Don’t cry Rosella, you would get panic attack” he said and his voice sounded worried. Victor took bottle from his hand and asked me to sit on the bench near us. I sat and drank water, Johnny sat in front of me and rubbed his hand on my knee while Victor sat with me, “Look Rosella! You have to over come this… you already have experienced panic attack once in the hospital” Victor said and I looked at Johnny who was looking down and then his eyes met mine. ‘So that’s the issue’ I thought and tears ran down my cheeks. “ I don’t want to lose you too” Victor said while wiping his tears. I hugged him, “I won’t leave you” I said and he hugged me too.  Victor told me that he would come tomorrow and both of us will go to Morella’s grave. Johnny and I came back, “Why didn’t you told me about my situation?” I asked him while laying beside him on bed. He was rubbing his hand on my neck slowly, “Cause you were already upset because of Morella’s death” he said. “Did police gave any new update regarding the case?” I asked, he looked at me and stopped rubbing his hand. “What?” I asked, “They have found some DNA samples from Morella’s body” he said. I quickly sat and he got frightened, “So! They should do DNA test of the whole street or maybe whole town! Come on Johnny we should tell them” I said and Johnny grabbed me. “Woaw! Girl relax! Where on the earth did this energy came from?” He said and laid me. “Let the police investigate, they know better what to do and stop thinking about it” he said, “I just want Morella to get justice and that murder’s head hanged up” I said with hatred. “One day it will happen don’t you worry, I’ll try my best” Johnny said.
       
        Victor and I went to grave as we had decided, I put white fresh jasmines on her grave. Her grave was covered with many flowers of different colors, “Morella! I couldn’t save you but I’ll not let your murder walk free on streets” I said. Victor was standing with me and was listening me, Johnny might have asked him to keep eye on me. His phone ringed and he took out the phone, “I have to take it, excuse me” Victor said and went away. “Its my promise Morella” I said and looked at Victor who was talking to someone on phone and then leaned on grave, “I’ll make him suffer, I’ll make him feel the pain which he gave you” I whispered. “Really?” I heard familiar voice near my ear, near enough that I could feel the breath coming out of that familiar voice’s mouth on my neck. I turned my face on my right side and saw Oliver sitting with me, I fell down as I got scared and Victor came running, “Are you OK? What do you think you are trying to do?” Victor said and grabbed me from shoulders. “I know him Victor” I said and stood up, “What are you doing here? After everything that happened on that day-“ I said but he interrupted, “I just came here to visit Morella” and put red rose on Morella’s grave. I gave him suspicious stare, “What? You were expecting something else?” he said and I turned towards Victor, “If you don’t mind I just want to talk to him alone” I said. “Ok! But if anything happens just call me” he said while glaring at Oliver and Oliver waved at him, “Bubye” he said with huge smile and Victor went away. I turned towards Oliver instantly as Victor left, “Do I look fool to you? You will tell me that you came here to gave visit to Morella’s grave and I’ll believe you” I said and he starting laughing, “Oh my goodness! So you think that I have came here to meet you, right?” He said. I rolled my eyes, “No… you and Morella were like rivals and she also slapped-“ as I said that a thought came in my mind that froze me, the words of the officer, “Any person you think who can attempt this or with whom she had rivalry?” and then the scene when Morella slapped Oliver came before my eyes. “Or you thought that I’m following you” I heard Oliver’s voice and came out of my thoughts. “Huh? Na! No! Nothing!” I said and turned to move away but he grabbed my arm and pulled me back. I stopped near him, his face near to mine, looking straight in his eyes, “ I haven’t forgotten” he said and I blinked my eyes and raised my eyebrow in quizzical look. He smiled and leaned forward, “The warmness of your body on that day when we were in hospital, you really close to me, I can not forget the delicateness of your cheeks which I felt on my hands. Your innocent clear eyes looking at me filled with questions and, and your small hands pushing my chest to not get close to me, to get rid of me although they new that their action is useless against my powerful hands around your waist” he said, softness was filled in his eyes and his lips were twisted into smile. I lowered my eyelids, breaking my eye contact with him, “Oliver, I told you on that day and I’m going to tell you again, you’re my friend and I like you a lot I mean , I don’t want to ruin our friendship. I love Johnny, yes! We have a lot of difference between our ages but love has no boundaries” I said and he held my chin instantly, making me look up in his eyes, “And my love?” he said. I saw his drooping upper eyelids and sadness in his eyes, “Oliver! Don’t look at me like this! Please… I can’t do anything…” I said as feelings of guilt arose in me. Tears came in my eyes  and my lower lip started to quiver, “I, I didn’t wanted to…” he was talking and I cut him out, “I’m going” I said and started walking away. I felt my heart heavy as I was walking away, I was sad for Oliver but I didn’t know what to do, I turned around to look at him and he was standing there looking at me. There was complete silence between both us, I could hear wind blowing as it hit my ears and then he smiled,“ Yes! This part of the season is the saddest, warm mornings can change into cold nights” I said and started walking out of the graveyard. Victor left after dropping me at home, he told me that he has started profitable job and is happy in his new life in city. I entered the house, “I’m home!” I said while removing my coat. I saw a note on table and I took it, “I’m going to bar, I’ll try my best to return as early as possible and I’ve made sandwich for you and EAT IT. Your medicine is also there so make sure to take it. And don’t be scared or worried I’ll return early… Regards, Johnny” I read it loudly and I laughed. Message popped up on my phone’s screen, it was from Johnny, “Wash your hands before eating” he had texted, “Mah cozy man” I said. I washed my hands and then ate the sandwich which was placed on kitchen counter then I took medicine, “Look dear Johnny I’ve taken my medicine and have eaten the sandwich” I said and giggled. I sat on couch and put hand frees in my ears, I played music and started thinking about Oliver’s words. I closed my eyes and when I open my eyes there was darkness outside the house, “When did I fell asleep?” I said while removing hand frees from my ears. I stopped the song which was playing and got up, stretched my body, “He was saying to return early” I thought about Johnny. I turned the lights on and started climbing up stairs, I was still sleepy and was rubbing my eyes. But my eyes got wide as I heard voice coming from my room, voice like someone was opening my cupboard. My heart beat got fast and my neck started to sweat, I took silent breaths and then slowly opened the door little. There was a long muscular man in black dress, height about 6’5 inch and his head was covered with black balaclava, he was quickly checking the cupboard but without making nose. I ran my eye in room, everything was upside down then I looked at my dressing table, my jewelry was scattered on floor and it was clear that the person was not here for robbery but was here to search something. And all of sudden someone placed hand on my mouth and turned me, Johnny was standing behind me. He put his finger on his mouth, pointing me to keep quite and I nodded my head. He looked inside and then slowly closed the door and he walked me slowly to his room, he closed the door and got me under the bed and was about to leave but, “just get under here” I said while grabbing his hand. He rolled his eyes but I pushed his hand and then he also got under the bed and all of the sudden the door of the room opened. The man started moving in room, we could see his feet. He opened the one of the drawer and then slammed it close, then he went outside the room, “He is not up to robbery” I whispered to Johnny. He nodded while he was looking straight and narrowing his eyes, thinking something. “What are you thinking?” I asked, he gave sudden move to his head in confusion, “I’m thinking how to knock him down” he replied. “No you’re not-…” I was not able to complete my sentence because that men entered the room again. His feet were making random movements, ‘Maybe he is suffering from any disease’ I thought. He called someone, “I’ve not found anything...” He told the person on the other side. We couldn’t hear the voice of the other person, “The girl? She was sleeping in living room but now she has disappeared” he said and Johnny and I looked at each other. The man turned around facing his back towards us, “How can I get her?..... I don’t know where that little brat went” he said. “I’m going to hit his head with vase to make him unconscious and then we will call the cops and you stay here” Johnny whispered in my ear and I grabbed his arm, “But he is really huge…” I whispered. He shrugged, “Can’t sit like this, I have to do something” he said and slipped out slowly. I couldn’t stop my self and got out, Johnny took the acrylic bud vase from the side table of his bed and tiptoed towards the man. He hit the vase on back of his head, “Ah!” He screamed and fell down on his knees, Johnny again hit his head and his head started to bleed but he didn’t lose conscious. Johnny again hit his head with all his might but man dodged it and the vase hit the leg of bed and broke into two pieces. “Holly shit!” I said and stood up, man rubbed his hand on back of his head and saw blood on his hand. “You scumbag! I’ll make sure to break your bloody hands” he said as he got up while facing Johnny. “Hey bastard!” I said and he turned towards me, “Looking for me? Come get me” I said and Johnny kicked his crotch. The man screamed and then glared at Johnny and grabbed him from neck, he took Johnny up in air and then throw him back. Johnny went flying back in air and fell on the table breaking it from middle, “Johnny!” I yelled. Then man turned towards me and started walking towards me, “Don’t even think about touching me” I said. He laughed, “Come here kitty kitty” he said and quickly came towards me, I dodged him and ran but he grabbed my hair. “Ahhhhhh! Get your filthy hands off me! You fat pig” I yelled, he pulled me towards him from my hair, “No one can stop me from taking you with me” he said looking in my eyes. I tried to get rid of him and at that time I my eyes got on his foot, “Oh really? Then take this!” I said and stomped on his foot. He screamed and let my hair free, he again tried to get me but I kicked his crotch and he bend down while putting his hand on his crotch and slightly turned on Johnny’s sides and Johnny punched his face. This time he fell down on ground and tried to get up but Johnny kicked his head three times and the man passed out. I ran towards Johnny and hugged him, “Argh!” Johnny groaned when I put my hands on his back, “I’m sorry I’m sorry” I said and lightly rubbed his back. Johnny called the cops and they arrived, they took the criminal with them and did investigation, asked some questions from us and from our neighbors who gathered there after police had arrived then cops took their leave. “Are you sure you don’t want to go to doctor cause it’s third day after that thing and you still have pain in your back” I asked Johnny. We were in living room, sitting in front of the chimney fire. The whole room was dark and the chimney fire was lighting the room, “Yeah! I’m fine” he said. He had removed his shirt and I was sitting behind him, I was applying medicine on the purple redish mark which was in the middle of his back. I put my head on his back and hugged him, “Why was that man trying to take me with him? What was he searching in my room?” I said to Johnny. “And who did this?” Johnny said, I started thinking everything that happened on that day and then Oliver came in my mind. ‘It’s not possible’ I thought and rubbed my hand on Johnny’s back. I felt roughness under my fingers, I glanced at his back. There were scratches on his back, nail scratches the one which I did when we intimated. I got flash backs of him between my thighs and my cheeks got warmer as his eyes came in my mind. “Ah…h…”  I took deep breath, “It’s normal to see your passion in front of your eyes” he said. My ears started to burn as I heard the words, “H-h-how did you know?” I asked as I stared his back. He glanced over his shoulder, “You have dig your passion on my back, how would I don’t know?” he asked counter question. I gave him a blank stare and he laughed, “I really like your expressions, they are cute” he said. “You know what, I hate when someone relate cute word with me BUT! It’s you so I won’t mind” I said and stroked his chin, “Hmmm… it means I’m the lucky one over here” he said and looked back at me and I stare at him with straight face. “Ok fine!” He said and looked straight and then there was complete silence between both of us. “Johnny” I called him and he glanced at me, “D-Do you love me?” I asked him. He didn’t reply but turned towards me and I got nervous all of a sudden, “I-I mean! I had crush on you from my childhood but what about you? Did you also- I mean- you know, were you” I said and he interrupted, “Interested in me?” He completed my question and I glanced at him while twiddling my fingers together, nervously. He took a deep breath, “Well unlike you, I was not interested in you. You were my friend’s daughter and I always treated you kindly, playing with you, drawing with you, reading you stories and doing other things. But when you came here with me, I decided to give you more love and would never let you miss your parents. To grew you up into decent young lady just like your mother………. Your sudden arrival arose many questions in town about you that who is she? Where did she came from? Is she your daughter? Were you married secretly? And I said no she is my friend’s daughter and she is like a daughter to me well I never felt those daughter feelings, but the thing that mattered for me was that I loved you and I have to take care of you and I did. You grew into young girl in front of my eyes” he said and stopped looking down at his hands. I leaned down until my eyes meet his, “Then?” I raised my eyebrow and looked at him curiously. He giggled at my action, “These feelings of mine changed when I was drunk and Oliver brought me home. At that time I was not totally drunk, I could feel the environment around me and could feel the touches of you and Oliver. You laid me on bed and went down stairs to leave Oliver, I closed my eyes. I was somewhere in middle of my conscious and unconscious when I felt soft lips on my lips, those little lips were tying their best to suck my lips and then tongue beneath those trembling lips entered my mouth, not confident about it’s movement. My eyes were half closed when I found you lying next to me, I don’t know why but I moved my tongue with yours and slowly gradually I lose my conscious, the only thing I remember was that the tongue left my mouth. When I got up next day, I couldn’t believe that after 8 years I felt those feelings, a woman near me and it was you but I rejected it thinking that maybe it was the effect of alcohol…” he stopped as I looked at him with my mouth slightly opened, “YOU WERE FEELING EVERYTHING AT THAT TIME?!!” I said as my face flushed and chills of embarrassment ran through my body, I covered my face with my hands. “Ah…” I heard him and I asked, “Then?” I heard his giggle, “ From that day, very strange feelings developed in me whenever my eyes got on your face, the kiss from that night would came in my mind. My eyes would automatically go on the curves of your body, your neck, your petite thick legs and- and your- cough* chest” he said while looking away from me. ‘Is he blushing?’ I thought, he continued, “ I tried my best to control my eyes and reject the thoughts which used to come in my mind but whenever you hugged me, my heart would melt as you would look at me, the way you rubbed your hands on my back and the beat of your heart beneath the softness of your breast would spread warmness on my chest. I was blaming myself for over taking alcohol due to which I had that illusion, but when Nataliya read your dairy in front of whole school and when she read that part of you kissing me, my breath stopped and I couldn’t believe that this whole time I was blaming myself but you were responsible for this all” as he said that I removed my hands from my face, “Excuse me? I just kissed you it was your fault that you peaked” I said. “What?!!” Johnny said astonishingly, “Then?” I said while blinking at him, he raised his one eyebrow and continued, “ I didn’t wanted to see you cause it was just awkward and then I found out that you are taking drugs. I got worried and it grew more when that dick head Oliver was sneaking your room, I threw him from window but when I tried to go after him, you closed the door and stood in front of it. My eyes met your eyes and they were indicating that you were unaware that what my reaction would be and there was fear in them and then my eyes involuntary moved on your chest which was continuously moving up and down due to your rapid breaths. Your target was to stop me but you didn’t knew that your body was on mission to seduce me and I didn’t wanted it to accomplish it. I blackmailed you that I’m going to send you to your aunt, and you grabbed my arm warming it through your touch but I escaped it from your grip. I took my phone to call your aunt but you kneeled down in front of me and cried, your weepy eyes looked up at me and they for sure melt my heart. I sat down on the sofa behind me and you were weeping in front of me, I caressed your cheek and wiped your tears with my thumb, I tried to explain you that I didn’t wanted you to destroy your life and youth for old me, but you were willing to lose your virginity for me. ‘Johnny I love you… I can not live without you… let me get near you’ these words of your gave me goosebumps and as you sucked my thumb, I asked you to stop but you didn’t. But I stopped you and avoided eye contact with you cause they were hypnotizing me. You insisted ‘Johnny I’m your Roselle! Your small Zelle! Your kitten… I want to be yours, just want to be yours… won’t you fulfill this dream of mine?’ you tried to kiss me but I got back, I was surprised to hear your words. You didn’t stop and went for my neck but I took you to your room and closed you there for a week” he stopped and looked at me, “You remember my words” I said and got near him, he smiled and tuck my hair, “Yes I do” he said. “I remember the words of Liam as I told him all situation, he said ‘Saying that she is like a daughter to me will not make her your daughter and there are only two conditions for it. One send her to her aunt or accept what she wants’. I totally ignored him and I went to sing a song on stage and got in fight with one of the customer, I came home angry and confused. And as I turned on the light of living room, I found you standing there with cigarette in your hand. In a cute way you put your hand behind you to hide the cigarette from me thinking that you would make me fool and there was fear in your eyes, I was really angry at that time and as you said anger is a gate to all emotions, it can lead to emotion you want. My anger leaded me to emotion of intimacy as I saw your long neck and bare shoulders above your off shoulders, I kissed you with all of my passion and you were trying to escape from my passion although you yourself had naively asked for it and I didn’t let you escape cause I was in mood to make you mine, to touch every inch of your body and to take your virginity" He finished his explanation and pulled me near him by grabbing me from waist, he looked in my eyes while breathing heavily. He had arose his desires while explaining them and wanted me to fulfill them.
       
        “Johnny, you can’t do it you’re back is injured” I said as he rubbed his lips on my neck, “I don’t give bloody fuck about it, I just want to fuck you now” he said and licked my neck. I shivered in response and he started moving towards my ear and then sucked my ear lobe. “But Johnny you can’t” I said and he whispered in my ear, “If I can’t then you can” he said and looked at me. “Me?” I said looking at him. He smirked, “Yes you…” he said and slide his hand on my hips. I looked back and then him as he put his face on my breasts, he looked up through eyelashes. And he suddenly grabbed my hips hardly, I moaned and he softly rubbed his hand, I looked down at him he was rubbing his face on my breasts, his eyes were closed and long eyelashes were prominent on my white shirt and so was his thin nose. “I’ll guide you” he said and hold my legs in his arms and I automatically laid down on big soft red cushions beneath us. He slide his hands slowly down wards on my calves until he reached my thighs and then he removed my panties. He brought it near his nose while looking at me and then he sniffed it, “Why are you doing this?” I asked him. He tilted his head and smirked, “It would be embarrassing for not knowing your woman’s scent and it’s really arousing” he said while climbing towards me. “Arousing? How?” I asked as I fold my legs around his back, “Its just like smelling a sweet dish before eating, it activates your taste buds” he said while snaking his arms around my waist and all of sudden turned me over him and he laid down. “Argh!” he groaned has his back hit the floor, I tried to comfort him but he stopped me by raising his palm up, “So! You haven’t removed your shirt” he said. I looked at him blankly and blinked, “Remove it” he demanded, his voice changed. It got heavy and dark, the issue was that every time he used to remove it and it was a little awkward for me to remove it in front of him, I opened my mouth to say but, “Kitten remove it for me” he demanded again. I hesitantly grabbed the edges of the shirt and pulled it up, “Do it!” He order and I instantly removed it, heat of the fire touched my bare flesh. “That’s like a good girl… now this…” he said while pointing at my black bandeau and I opened it up and removed it. He rubbed his hand on breasts, his touch harden my small nipples, then his hand moved up at back of my neck and he pulled me towards him, “ah!” gasp came out of my mouth as he pulled me, I was prepared for his kiss but he stopped bringing my lips near his, “Kiss me” he demanded. I looked at him then glanced at his lips, I brought my lips near his and then joined them. I sucked his lips, “So light” he said and I sucked them hardly and again I heard voice from them, “Still”. I sucked more harder and again, “Your very kind heart, aren’t you? Believe me! It won’t hurt me” he said and this time I glared at him, I leaned back while glaring at him and he rested his head on his hand. “I’m acting like a guider” he said, “Well you are acting more like a devil” I said and he laughed loudly. He grabbed my hand and put it on his belt, “Open it up” he said and I unbuckled it and then opened the button and then lowered the zip, “I can’t do it” I said and stopped. I looked up at his eyes who were staring at me, “Then? After coming to this point, you are going to masturbate and sleep? Just because you are afraid of holding my dick?” he said and I glared at him, “You know what? I’ve never masturbated but now I’ll do it cause it is better for WOMAN me to gave myself pleasure instead of getting it from MAN you!” I said while grabbing my shirt and got up. I turned to move but he grabbed my arm and push me down, I got on my knees and that’s when I felt his hands on my hips. He slowly forced me to sit on his crotch, but I started acting stubborn and he harshly forced me to sit. I felt a sharp entrance of his manhood inside my vagina which made me groan loudly, “Now move up and down like this” he said while guiding my hips through his hands. I moved and slowly started to feel pleasure and so did he, we both moaned and this time he was moaning loudly which was arousing me. His moans were like a music to my ears, I started moving fast but was not able to get orgasm. “What? Want some help?” he asked while caresses my face, “I-h I can’t, I-h why is it not coming?” I said while taking rapid breaths. “Really? I think WOMAN you needs some help” he taunted and rolled me down and he got up on me. “You tried your best but are not good at it” he said and then got his manhood out of me, “What!!” I said and he demanded, “Plead me”. “Why are you even doing this?!!” I said and he said, “Accept it that you are addicted to my way of making love and my touches” he said. “I accept it! I accept it that I woman is addicted to man you” I said and he smirked, “Smart you” he said and then his face got serious and blank as he started looking at me. “Just do it! What’s with looking at me?” I said and then he demanded, “Call my name”. “Johnny!” I said, “Again” he demanded, “Johnny!” I full filled his demand. “Again“ he order, “JOHNNY!!!” I screamed and he got wild as he heard his name. He took me to height of his passion and pleasure, he kissed me and then sucked my neck. His neck touched my lips, I could feel the warmness of his neck on my lips and I bit his neck. He froze at his place and then he glanced on me, “Looks like kitten has learned to bite” he said and his words gave me shivers. He brought his face on my shoulder, “Kiss for a kiss and bite for a bite” he said and bit my shoulder, “Ah!” I groaned and then he moved down of my breast then waist, belly and then my nestling, he looked up at me, “Johnny no no no not there” I said and he gave me devilish smile and then bit me, “JOHNNY!!!” I screamed. He didn’t stop, he wanted to love me all night, he entered his fingers in my tiny entrance of vagina, “I want you so hard, I can’t st-oooo-op?” he stopped as he brought his fingers and there was blood on them and he rubbed his fingers together, “Blood?” I said, “Always careless” he said and then I realized that it was my periods date, “OH MY! I’M REALLY SORRY! I APOLOGIZE!!! I FORGOT IT!!! I TOTALLY FORGOT IT!!!” I said and got up quickly and cleaned his fingers with my shirt but he immediately stopped me, “Woaw! Girl relax… why are you getting anxious? Its normal” he said, “Infact why on the earth did you forgot it? What if I would have been rough? You might have got hurt” he said. I looked at him astonishingly, “But still- your- fingers…” I said and he cut me, “Leave them and come with me” he said and took his shirt laying on the sofa. He gave it to me and asked me to wear it and then he took me to his room. I opened my cupboard, the sanitary pads were at the top shelf and I stretched upwards but he stopped me, “I can do it” I said. He glared at me, “Women don’t do exercise or stretches during the periods. Don’t you know that? What have your teachers taught you?” he said. “There are also boys in class and its not stretch” I said and he gave me the pad. He pointed towards washroom through his eyes and I went to washroom, as I entered the washroom I covered my face while standing in front of the mirror, “That was very embarrassing… though he acted cool but still” I said and then I remembered the words he had said regarding his feelings, ‘He is good at expressing’ I thought. I got out of washroom and found him standing there waiting for me, he was wearing his night suit. He opened his arms and I went near him hesitatingly and he grabbed my arm pulling me near him, “Why so slow? What’s the matter?” he asked. “What happened down there was just…” I said avoiding eye contact and he pulled my chin up, “Hey… look at me” he said, his voice was soft enough to melt me. I looked at him, “Its OK!... Its normal… nothing happened just forget it” he said, “But still…” I said and he groaned, “Ah” and rolled his eyes. “You think a lot and I’m afraid that it will affect your brain badly” he said and I gasped, “Its not like that… it is every helpful” I said and he raised his eyebrow, “What ever it is just come with me… I want to sleep” he said and took me to his bed room. He laid with me facing my back towards him and he hugged me from back, “Johnny…” I said while playing with his fingers, “Hmmm” he responded. “What if someone tells you that I’ve been using you or have cheated you… will you believe them?” I asked. There was complete silence, ‘Ummm… did he sleep?’ I thought and then I felt air on my neck and then, “ No until I hear it from you” he whispered in my ear. “Ahn!” I said and he cuddled me, then I again called him, “Johnny…”. “Hmmm” he sounded sleepy, “You really didn’t mind it…” I asked  while looking at his tattoo on his hand. “Mind what? “ he asked and grabbed my hand, “ The blood…” I said hesitatingly and he giggled, “You do questions a lot, don’t you?” He asked and I stayed quit. He sighed and slowly moved his hand down on my belly, “Look its natural process, down there the reproductive system of woman. Its just like a fertile land on which man has to plant his seed and the periods or menstruation is the regular discharge of blood and mucosal tissue from the inner lining of the uterus through the vagina. The menstrual cycle is characterized by the rise and fall of hormones. Menstruation is triggered by falling progesterone levels and is a sign that pregnancy has not occurred or you can say removal of wild weeds and extra plants from land” he said. “So?” I asked and he continued, “ So the reason of explaining you this all was that this is normal process so stop thinking about it” he pleaded. “But it was dirty blood” I said and he said, “Its just a myth that period blood is dirty… This was believed back when women were embarrassed to talk about their periods. The thought of their body discarding something, gave people idea that it was dirty and unwanted by body and that’s awful thought of awful people and I’m not one of them so relax and men should take care of their women cause they carry their babies in that womb” he explained. “Wow… you should be gaenacologist” I said and he laughed loudly, “Why don’t you sleep?” He asked while rubbing my belly, “You should be… I mean- am-mm” I said but he put his fingers in my mouth and grabbed my tongue between his index and middle finger, “That little tongue of yours… works a lot” he said and took his fingers out of my mouth, “Johnny! Why would you do thing like that?” I asked and I felt his hand on my breasts pressing them and then he pinched my nipples, “Ouch! That hurts… its harassment” I said and turned towards him. He opened his eyes and then grabbed me tightly, “You are in my house, in my bed, wearing my shirt, I can do whatever I want… I can fuck you whenever I want” He said and, “Oh really? You can’t” I teased him. “Why is that so?” he acted along, “Cause I’m on my periods” I said and he raised his eyebrow and smirked, “My darling you are forgetting that there are two option when it comes to fucking and right now I can avail that option if I want” he said. I stare at him while processing what he meant and when I got it, “Oh Johnny! I can’t believe that these words just came out of your mouth” I screamed and he laughed. Then he looked at me softly and kissed my forehead.
       
        I slept in his cozy arms then I heard him calling my name. I woke up and he was not at his place, “Johnny?” I called him out, “Roselle” I heard him again and I got out of the bed, “Johnny?” I said and checked the washroom but he was not there. “Roselle my kitten!” I heard him, I got out of the room and checked my room but he was not there, “Johnny! Where are you?!!” I screamed. “Roselle…” his voice got faded and I ran down stairs, “JOHNNY?!!” I yelled and ran down stairs. He kept calling my name, I checked kitchen, living room, store room everywhere but he was not there and his voice kept fading. I ran out of the house and stood in the middle of the road, “Johnny?!!” I screamed but then I didn’t heard him again. I was looking around when I heard, “Help me” I froze when I heard Morella’s voice and I slowly started turning around and I found her standing behind me. “Help me” she said, her face was gray and eyes where white, she started coming towards me, “ Morella! I, I don’t know how… Johnny!!!” I said and called out Johnny because I was scared. And she grabbed my hand, “He is around you, near you” she said and I tried to get rid of her grip but couldn’t, “Morella leave me! I didn’t knew this would happen… Johnny!!!” I screamed and she said, “Around you”. Then drop of blood fall on my hand I looked up and saw blood flowing out of Morella’s mouth, “JOHNNNYYY!!! JOHNNN!!! JOHN!!! I called out Johnny’s name I kept screaming and closed my eyes, “Roselle! Roselle!” I heard Johnny’s voice. “JOHN!!!” I screamed and I felt arms around me, “Open your eyes! Roselle” I heard him and I opened my eyes, I was sitting in bed in his arms, “Johnny” I said and hugged him. “Was it Morella?” he asked and I started weeping loudly, “Don’t leave me Johnny” I said while weeping. “I’m not leaving you… look at me, look at me” he said and I looked up at him, he had worried face expressions and his eyes were sleepy, he caressed my face, “it was just a bad dream… nothing happened, I’m here and you are here right in front of me… OK” he said softly. “Johnny… Johnny” I said and he wiped my tears, “Yes my love” he said, I jutted my lips, “I’m scared… I don’t want to open my eyes… she died because of me… its all my fault” I said. He tucked my hair behind my ears, “No its not your fault…” he said, “Then why?... I’m- I’m scared Johnny” I said and hugged him. “Shh… shh… I’m here with you” he said and kissed my head. Johnny took me to psychologist, I told him that I’m okay and he shouldn’t walk around in street cause his wounds are not healed but he didn’t listened to me, “ So! Miss Roselle… was Morella best friend?” the psychologist asked me. We were in his clinic, the walls of the clinic were white and the furniture placed there was all white, “Yes she was my best friend” I told him. He noted down on the paper, “And only friend?” he asked while looking down at the paper. “No!” I replied and he looked up at me, “Really? Then how many-“ he stopped as the door of the room opened, a man entered the room and he called the psychologist, “Give me a minute, I’ll be back” he said and went out. I sat there in silence, I looked out of the window, busy road and people were walking on street. Then I saw Nataliya, she was coming out of the shop and her eyes stopped at me and then she looked at the exterior of the clinic. We both looked at each other for few seconds and the she smiled and waved her hand, “Strange” I said and door of the room opened, “Sorry for making you wait” psychologist said. “Its OK” I said. “So! how many friends do you have?” he asked and then asked about my family history and my terms with Johnny. He also asked my weight, height e.t.c and then asked about my childhood fear. I told him that I was afraid of losing Johnny, then he asked my childhood good memories and I told him which also included memories with Morella. I told him all of them and got emotional and guilt inside me started waking up, when I ended the memories tears were running down my cheeks. “Look Miss Roselle! You have to accept that she had not died because of you” the psychologist said and I turned my face towards him and my eyes got behind him, Morella was standing there as I saw her I screamed loudly. “Woaw miss Roselle! What happened!” he said and I pointed behind him, “She! She! She!” I said and Morella said, “Is near you” and I screamed. Psychologist came near me but I got away from him, some staff workers came inside the room, “Ma’am relax” one of them said. “She, she is coming!” I said as Morella starting coming near me, I turned towards the wall and put hands on my face. “She is not real! She is just in your mind... that was just a dream… a dream…” I whispered and I felt hand on my back, “Roselle” I heard. I turned around and found Nataliya standing there, “What happened to you?” she asked and Morella was standing exact beside her. I again placed my hands on my face, “I don’t want to open my eyes, this, this world haunts me” I said. “Do I also haunt you?” Johnny said, “No… I don’t want to open my eyes…” I said and kept repeating it. “Look at me” he said while grabbing my face softly, “No she is here, I can see her” I said. “No she is gone, I promise” he said and I opened my eyes, Johnny, Nataliya and Psychologist were there and Johnny was standing in front of me. I peaked behind him to see whether Morella was there or not and she was gone and the I looked at Johnny, “You said you would not leave me…” I said and tears came in my eyes. “I’m sorry…” he said and I hugged him and started crying. I couldn’t sleep whole night due to the fear of seeing Morella in my dream, I was afraid of seeing her in that condition and I felt guilty whenever I saw her. Next day, when I was sitting in kitchen and Johnny was making breakfast, the door bell ranged, “I’ll check” Johnny said and went while I was sitting still on dining chair. “Look Roselle! Who is here to meet you” Johnny said and Nataliya entered the kitchen, “Hi Roselle” she said with huge smile. I looked at her and then Johnny, “She wants to talk you” he told me, and asked Nataliya to sit. She sat with me, “How are you?” she asked but I didn’t reply, “What have I told you?” Johnny asked while looking at me. I took deep irritating sigh, “Not to be rude with others” I replied while hunching my shoulders and Johnny put cup of coffee in front of Nataliya while he gave smile to me. “Johnny!” she said and stood up, “I, I want to apologize to you… For what I did in school back on that day” she said. Johnny smiled, “Well you have realized your mistake then you should apologize to the real person” he said and pointed at me. She sat on her knees, “Please Roselle forgive me for what I did… I, I was mad at you for what you did” she said and I cut in her, “Oh really? Then I would have let you cheat Victor?” I glared at her. She looked down with embarrassment, “I, I never wanted to do it, but I wanted my future to be save and relaxing unlike my childhood, and Richard, when he asked me out I, I found it a way, a escape from all the problems... And he is very caring and loving” she said and I again cut her, “And what about the Victor’s love? Or was Richard’s dick bigger than Victor’s”. “Roselle……..” Johnny said who was also sitting there after placing breakfast on the table. I looked at him, “Language please…” he said and took sip of his coffee, “Ok” I said. Nataliya took deep sigh, “I came here to apologize… for stealing and reading your diary in front of every one” she said and stood up. “You have changed a lot… after Morella’s death… if she was here, she would have asked you to not forgave me” she said and giggled. “I miss her… Whatever happened… I didn’t wanted to ruin our friendship…” she said as she took her bag. “ You did it” I said and she took deep breath, “ The truth is that my dad had found out that I’m in relationship with Victor and he was not accepting the relationship of Victor and mine, and I didn’t wanted to hurt Victor but I had to do it or else he would have broken into pieces” she said in her weepy voice. I looked up at her and there were tears in her eyes, “He would have moved on by hating me but not by missing me” she said and got out of there. I looked at Johnny who was looking at me, “Its confusing” I said, he took sip of his coffee calmly and then his brown orbs moved up on me, “Well her revenge brought us near” he said and smiled. I got up and ran out of the kitchen, “Where?” he asked as I left the kitchen, “Nataliya” I replied and got out of the house. I looked left and right on street and found Nataliya at the end of the street. “Nataliya!” I screamed and she looked at me with her wet eyes, “Wait!” I said and ran towards her and hugged her. She also hugged me back, and we both cried, “Did you forgave me?” she asked and I looked at her, “If you didn’t have done that I would have never got the love of my life” I said and she giggled. “It brought tears in my eyes… what a emotional scene” I heard and looked behind Nataliya, Richard was standing there with his car. “Richard…” Nataliya said and walked towards him, “Hi babes” he said and kissed Nataliya on lips. And poor me watching that whole scene, “Looks like Roselle has again made friends with you” he said while looking at me. “Yes! And we are going to enjoy as we used to do… Me, her and Morell-a” she stopped at the name of Morella. “I’ll- I’ll… see you soon” I said and got out of there, I felt his eyes on my back, I entered the house and glanced at them but there was no one and I closed the door.

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