Their son

Part 7

"Can we talk about something else?" I asked quietly, I had already wasted too much energy on my mother today. I was too tired to waste anymore. "Of course kiddo. How are things going with peter?"

"What do you mean?" I frowned slightly, "you were doing a science project together right?" She asked as we got inside, "oh yeah, he's good. I am gonna meet him after school tomorrow. He's busy building his lego death star today."

"Do you like lego? We could always buy you a couple of sets if you wanted." I was always taken aback at how nice Nat and Wanda were, "I'm not allowed though. Mom said they're for boys... I mean younger boys. I'm too old for them, she made me get rid of all mine when I was 11." I half lied, I was eleven but I only ever had one Lego set, my cousin gave it to me because he had gotten the same one twice for Christmas, it was a police car. When mom saw it she threw it on the ground and then made me pick it up and throw it away, screaming at me the whole time that I was a girl and needed to play with girl toys. Not that I had many toys to begin with.

"Well I say you can, it's my money my house and you are my son so my opinion matters more. But yours matters the most, so whatever you want to do. We can go to the store and get something if you want, or we can stay here and watch a movie."

"uh, lego?" I was waiting for Natasha to get angry but she seemed more excited than me, "Okay. You get changed because you smell like a campfire and I will go tell Wanda, maybe she will want to come with us." I ran off to go take a quick shower as always, my showers were always super fast because dysphoria is a bitch but today was even faster than normal. My ribs were hurting a little but I couldn't go out in public without binding so I pulled it on anyway. (a/n: probably don't do this, you should always take breaks but yeah.)

"Okay I'm ready!" I saw Nat and Wanda were ready too, Nat had clearly managed to shower super fast as well, though we weren't related I liked to think it was something I got from her even though I knew it wasn't possible. "What are you smiling at?" Natasha chuckled, I shook my head. "Nothing." 

"Alright, let's go last one to the car loses." Wanda cheated, using her powers to fly and me and Nat fought the whole way, grabbing and pushing each other playfully, so I almost lost, but the sokovian held her back with a smirk. 

When we got to the store we walked through a few other aisles as we needed a few things till we go to the lego aisle, I notice something at the top, it had a police station AND a police car that came with figurines. It was even better than the one I had as a kid. I pointed to the box at the top excitedly, "Nat can I get this one? there's only one left, it's kinda expensive though, so it's totally okay if not." 

"Buddy, there is no way, I can say no when you're this excited, you deserve it after everything you've been through. It could be ten times that price and I would buy it in a heart beat. We just need to get it down, that's definitely too far back for me to reach." I chuckled, patting her on the head. her height was always a joke between us, even though there wasn't much difference between us. 

"You might need to go ask someone bud." My heart sank a little, I hated talking to people I didn't know, especially to ask them for help. Wanda must have noticed I was stressed because she placed her hand on my shoulder and got the box down with her powers.

"Thanks M-" I managed to get the first part out yet the rest got stuck in my throat I tried to start again but by this point I was too flustered. Why couldn't I just say it. Say it. MOM. MOM. She's being nice and getting you a gift the least you could do is say it. stop being stupid and say it.

"Y/n stop it's okay. You don't need you to say it, I don't want you to." Why wouldn't she want me to say it? They said I could call her anything. Did I do it wrong? I should have just said it. Now I've messed it up now she's gonna hate me. Everything was getting too loud and I couldn't handle it, I left Nat and Wanda in the store, they would probably put the box back but I understood. I didn't deserve it. Tears were pouring down my face before I could even stop them. 

I swear my triggers always came up at the most random times. Now I was crying in a stupid parking lot, with my moms voice in my head as well as my own. Not to mention I was probably going to be in trouble with Nat and Wanda for causing a scene. 

As if on cue I heard Wanda start yelling my name, "Y/n! kiddo stop!" I turned around knowing I would probably be in more trouble if I kept going anyway. "kiddo, breathe, you're okay." I didn't think before running into her arms. "My sweet boy." She whispered softly, the way she said it made my heart flutter. can you take some breaths for me baby? that's it." I took a few breaths in and soon the noise stopped, by this point Natasha had come back out, I could see her glaring at a couple staring at me. They looked away quickly, easing my nerves a little. I bet they thought I looked stupid, I couldn't believe I was crying in public, I just wanted to go home but I dreaded what was going to happen. "People need to mind their own fucking business. you okay y/n?"

"I just wanna go." I whispered wiping my tears. Wanda used her powers to put the bags in the car, I could tell she was saying something to Natasha in her mind, but I didn't understand till Natasha got in the drivers seat this time, Wanda joined me in the back. "Do you want to talk about it now or later?" I knew she was talking about what happened, I was tempted to say later, I was so tired but I just wanted this feeling to go away, maybe talking would do that. Now. I wanna get it over with.

"Okay, well I want to start by saying; I'm sorry for not being clear, I should have explained myself instead of expecting you to understand my feelings without me saying anything about it." It took me by surprise. She was apologising to me? after what I did? she wasn't mad?

"No baby, I'm not mad. You do deserve an apology, I didn't mean I didn't want you to call me Mom at all. One day if you want to, I would be honoured to be your mom. Just not now because I know you are not ready for that. I don't want you to feel forced to call me that, I do nice things for you because I care about you, not to get anything from you. All I want is you to be safe and happy. We both do. But whether I stay Wanda forever or you decide to call me mom it will not change the amount I love you, I promise."

"we both love you no matter what kiddo."