Good enough

two

As I woke up, I check the time and realise, of course. I'm gonna be late. It's the second week of school and I'm already late. Why does this always happen to me?

Oh and Youngji has texted me:
-Damn it's my first day of school today. 
-I heard that people one year younger than me had to start school a week earlier than me. Hah, must suck for them.

-Well this is my second week of school and I'm late...

-Oh uhh, what school do you go to? Youngji asked me suddenly.

-Apgujeong? Why do you ask?

-That's where I'm going right now... Youngji said to me.
-Do you want to meet outside the gates?

-Umm.. Sure, why not? I replied to him, now feeling kind of nervous.

-I'll be there in five minutes then, I said.

-Oh okay. I can wait. He answered.

As I biked through the small streets in Apgujeong-dong, I started to see the schoolgates and a figure with bright colored set of clothes, assuming it was the person I've been talking to. He had short brown hair with wavy curls, and he's kind of... Cute.

"Um, hi. Are you Youngji?" I asked the boy in the bright clothes.

"Ah yeah, but my actual name is Jungsu. So just call me that, or maybe you can make me a nickname"

He winked at the same time he said "a nickname". Lol, he's actually adorable... Wait what? Oh god, why am I suddenly thinking about all these kinds of things? Stop it brain, It's not like we're going to be nothing but friends.

"Why didn't you tell me your real name? I asked Jungsu in a confused tone. Maybe he didn't plan to ever meet in real life, so that's why he didn't want to tell me his real name? But still, I don't really care.

"Uhmm, I don't really like my real name... It was given by my mother and well, I'm not on good terms with her these days" Jungsu answered me in a saddened tone.

Why is he suddenly sharing things like that to me? Isn't that really personal? It should be, right?

"Oh alright, I can call you Jung if you don't want me to use your real name." I slightly smiled at him, trying to lighten up his mood.

"Well that would be cool" He smiled back at me.

What is this feeling in my stomach? Butterflies? I wanted to hug him because he's just so cute...

But why would I want to hug a boy? Isn't that gay? Am I gay? Or bi... but I've actually never liked a girl.

I just know my father would hate me if I liked boys. And I don't think my mother would love it either.

"Well, what class do you have first?" I asked him awkwardly, the tension got a little stronger and the thought of school just horrifies me.

"I think I have maths, but I'm running late... Because of who?" Jungsu said to me, hinting that it's my fault.

"It's not my fault that you asked to meet here when I said I'm late." I scoffed to him. Why is he complaining to me? It's not like we're best friends yet or something, so why did he want to meet me now? Does he like me? No no, why would I think that. Isn't it wrong to like the same gender?

That's what's been told to me my whole life. But still, I don't think it's so wrong... Shouldn't we be able to like whoever we want to? I keep zoning out thinking about these things. It's getting pretty annoying.

"Alright alright, let's quickly go inside now" Jungsu said while looking straight into my eyes. Oh how pretty his eyes are. I've never seen such eyes. I don't like eye contact but I could look at his eyes all the time... Okay daydreaming stops now.