149 Days Since

For The First. Time. Ever.

There are some memories that people want to keep, and there are some that they don't. This is definitely one I want to keep, because I know that for as long as I live, my heart will always plead to go back to that moment I saw her for the first time ever. 

I vividly remember, it was a rainy November morning. It was the first day our school had called us for offline classes after the pandemic. As a senior in high school, being stressed out was normal so I didn't think much about it. 

My parents said I could carpool to school with our neighbours. They had moved in to their new house in June, just when senior year had started. I knew they had a daughter the same age as me, but I've always had a shy nature and never went outside to see her. But that day, I had to see her, and I didn't know what to do and say. It was all so new to me. 

I sat inside the car, and the first time I laid my eyes on her, my god. Oh my god. All my speech just vanished. It felt like I was toddler who wanted to express something but didn't know what to say. I was sitting at the back and she was in the passenger seat in the front. She turned around to wave at me, and my breath hitched. She looked ethereal. She smiled and said hi, but I didn't know what to say. I was speechless. She kept waiting for a response, and I felt bad not being able to say anything back to her. I forced myself to give a smile because it was just another normal day for her, but it wasn't one for me. It was the day I knew my life was ruined. 

Gosh, there she was, wearing a black sweater with blue ragged jeans and a pair of white sneakers. And her high pony fit her features perfectly. She had a mask in her hand, which fortunately or unfortunately, let me see her wide smile. Fortunate because she was beautiful, unfortunate because I knew I fell for her and there was no turning back. I couldn't help but just stare at her smiling, she looked so angelic. I kept staring at her until she put on her mask and I couldn't see her oh-so-perfect smile anymore. I wanted to talk to her in the car, I really did, but I knew that the moment I would speak, a compliment would fly out of my mouth and it would be extremely awkward since her dad was there. She wasn't my first love, but she definitely felt like my last.  

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Based on a true story.