I Love you (vhope)

14

Maama told me that someone will love me for my pain,
But she didn't tell that it would be all that I would love for.

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It's not my fault that I am in love with your pain more than you .

Tick Tock Tick Tock

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Taehyung glanced at Hoseok who was bouncing on his bed. Jumping from one place to another.

"Ahjushiiii your bed is so fluffy and jumpyy Hoseokiieee loveddd it. " he said giggling.

Taehyung didn't said anything and kept observing later from far.

Taehyung P.O.V
Never in million years I have though I had to deal with this kind of stuff.
It's so annoying damn it.

What am I supposed to do With him?
And most importantly for how long do I have to bare with him.

Think Taehyung think.
There might be something that might lead him to being his normal depressed self.

Fuck I miss it. I miss how his eyes carry fear but deep within it begged for longingness. I fucking miss how much his body was Hollow full of despair and pain. His soul all corrupted and broken was best part of his.

I never thought I be missing him so much. His trembling figure , his sweet tears.

Damn it Hoseok , why is your pain so addictive , So maddening and loving.

I have never enjoyed anything more than that.
I swear your Happiness is fucking gut wrenching that I wanna puke . Your sunshine smile and laughter is so shrill that it hurts my ears. It's like any moment now they will bleed like hell.
Your bubbly Aura and your non stop babbling makes me wanna murder you right at this mome-"

Taehyung snapped out of his thoughts when he hear loud scream of " Ahjhussshiii catch me.. Here comes hwlicoptahh Hoseokiieee" followed by Hoseok jumping from his bed .

He immediately catches the boy in his arms who was giggling.

Taehyung nearly had heart attack.

"Youuuu" Taehyung yelled in anger

Only to hear sound of his laughter.

"Ajhushii you are such a cutie when you Angrwy...you look like Arch..... (archaeopteryx)Haha and this cheeks of your ( pulling Taehyung's cheek ) puffs up and look so delicious ( Hoseok said licking his licks)....that Hoseokkiee wanna take a bite... Hehe but Hoseokie won't cause joonie told hoseokiee to not bite cheeks but I can do this. ...( pecks Taehyung's cheek.)

Taehyung (๏_๏)

Taehyung opened his mouth to yell but Hoseok grabbed his lips and said "Ahjhushhi If you yell at Hoseokiee again then Hoseokiee will kiss your lips too.

Taehyung Σ(O_O；)

Taehyung stood there frozen for God knows how long.

"Ahjhushii ahjushi.." Hoseok called poking his cheeks.

Taehyung looked at him dumbly.

"yahh Ajhushhi leave me I am hwungryy " he yelled finally snapping Taehyung out of shock.
Taehyung threw Hoseok on bed and ran out of his room.

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Taehyung needed to get away from this..he needed space

Sadly he couldn't get it as he was followed by Hoseok who ran after him.

"Ajhushiii Ajhushiii where are you going?? Take Hoseokiee with you ""

Taehyung didn't answer and kept walking forward ignoring blabbering boy.

" Ajhushiii Ajhushiii hoseokiee will let you play with his toys ..please don't go.. "

Taehyung stopped in his tracks and turned to him, " Leave me the alone. Don't you fuckin get it. "

"Ahjhushhi please Hoseokiie will be good boy... Hoseokiie -"

Taehyung harshly pushed away Him making him fall on ground.

" if you follow me Hoseokiee I will fuckin kill you. "

Saying this he left from there leaving crying boy alone on floor.

Taehyung was about to leave door when he heard scream.

" Pleaseeee please don't leave me ajhushhiii please hoseokise will do anything... But don't leave hoseokiee alone... Hiccup... Ajhushiii....please..dont.. Push me away. ...hoseokiieee promise... He will never bother you... But please be with hoseokieee.... Don't leave hoseokiee alone like Omma... Hoseokiee is scared...Ajhushiii... Hoseokiieee is so scared...Ahjhushhi can be like Appa...Ajhushi can make Hoseokiee his slave... Hoseokiee knows how to clean floor... He knows how to cook but don't leave him. Please... If you feel angry you can beat Hoseokies too but don't don't leave Hoseokiee alone.... "

"Shhhh" Taehyung tried quieting down the boy . He didn't knew why he was on his knees pulling boy into hug.

He didn't know why he did it...

He just didn't.

He hates him

He still does.
.
.

.

.

But all of his pains felt like his own.

His cries all familiar sound.

.

.

He can't even ignore him.. if he want to..
He just can't.

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Even if I am monster ,
I am still better than humans.

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My desperation for love is boundless
And
It makes me sick
How much weak I am .
That despite being human
I am nothing more than
Just a puppet in hands of it.

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Taehyung pulled out of hug and softly glanced at the boy in his arms.

For once he seem to be appear as human. His cheeks had trail of tears he sheded and his cold facade for once was thrown away.

To everyone he might seem as the ruthless person but at this moment he was nothing more than a boy... A little boy who suffered in hands of destiny and his arms lay another soul just as wounded as him just as scared and hurt as him.

Yet there was difference.

I had long ago
Surpassed stage of desperation
Now the only thing
I crave is acceptance.

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"Hyung be ready. Tomorrow you have meeting with Mr Kim. "

"-hmm"

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Shadow be ready for your next mission.

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Thank you for reading.
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