୨⎯ "sing for me please" ⎯୧ bill kaulitz X reader˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

≡;- ꒰ °chapter 4. 'youre voice calms me down'꒱

TRIGGER WARNING! A small mention of cuts and mentioning of bullying!

When i woke up, i was alone. I started rubbing my tired eyes while sitting up. Confused i looked around my room, did Bill just leave? That idea made me feel horrible. I got out of bed and walked into the hallway. I checked the bathroom, not a sign of Bill. I even checked my sister Ella's room and my parents room. But even there the rooms where empty. I started tearing up a little. Why did he just leave? all of a sudden i heard footsteps coming up the stairs. It was way too early for my family to come back home and since Bill already left, who was that? I started to slightly panic, did somebody break into my house? I quickly ran into the bathroom and locked the door. Then i realised i did not have my phone so all i could do was wait. Then i heard the person talking: 'y/n? Where are you?' It was Bill! he did not leave after all! Omg i can slap myself right now. I watched way to much true-crime for this. I came out of the bathroom and walked back to my room. 'Hey Biil, i was just going to the bathroom.' i said. 'Oh good, i almost thought you left me.' I quickly reassured him i would never. I did not tell him about me hiding in the bathroom, it was so stupid.

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Downstairs after we both got dressed and stuff i made some breakfast for the both of us. While cooking the eggs BIll walked up to me. He hugged me from behind and gave me a kiss in the crook of my neck. 'I slept amazing tonight.' he wisphered into my ear. I felt his breath against my skin and i got goosebumps all over my body. I blushed and answered: 'Me too, we should do it again.' 'Definitely.' While eating Bill asked if we could hang-out today, since he had some free-time today. I sadly had to say no since i had promised i would help out some days in the summer vacaction at my job. I worked in a drug store as a stock clerk. When i looked into his eyes i saw a slight hint of dissapointment. Right now i regretted that promise i would help out so much.

I was about to leave when Bill ran up to me, he insisted on bringing me to work and later picking me up. I smiled and said that i insisted that he would sleepover again. He happily agreed to that.

At work it was super busy, on saturdays it was always extra busy. There were screaming children everywhere, the isles were flooded with rackets full of boxes waited to be stocked and every 2 minutes a new person had a question for me. Also it was so hot. I almost burned up. I was finishing up my last box when a lady came up to me. 'Im so sorry to bother you young lady but do you know where i can find medicine for the flu?' she asked me. I told her to follow me and showed her. Finally i could have my break. I walked to the back of the store and entered the cafeteria. I grabbed my lunch and was just about to start eating when my boss came up to me. 'What are you doing?' he asked me with a frown on his face. 'Uhh, im having my break.' i just said and shrugged. 'You promised you would help out the whole day, that means you dont have time for a break. Come on now, back to work.' Then he turned around and left. I was just sitting there, mad. I put my food away and walked back into the store, starting were i had left. I was just to tired from the heat to even deal with my boss right now. After a good while it was finally time for me to go home. Pissed i grabbed my stuff and left. When i passed the cash registers on my way out ofcourse my boss came up to me again. He started talking about how i did a bunch of my work wrong and that he was not used to this when it came to me. Then he said something that kind of hit deep, 'im dissapointed in you y/n, i expected better work from you. You may leave now.' Then he turned around and got back to talking to some other worker. Upset i almost ran out of the store. I was so mad, at him and at myself. Maybe i did do it completely wrong, even tho it was so simple. I cant believe i even screwed something so easy up. Im such an idiot.

When i arrived at the parking lot, Bill was already standing outside of the car waiting for me. When he saw me i saw a bright smile appearing on his face. 'Hello there darling, i've missed you, how was work?' he said and kissed me on the side of head while hugging me. 'it was fine, i missed you too.' I was so glad to see him, for a moment i forgot about what my boss had said about me. In the car Bill rubbed my hand with this thumb while humming to the music. Out of tiredness i laid my head on his shoulder.

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Back home Bill and i had dinner wich Bill cooked al by himself. I wanted to help him but he kept saying no. At some point he just pushed me on the couch, put a blanket around me and turned on a movie of my pick. He insisted on that i rested while he made us dinner. His way of taking care of my made me feel al warm on the inside. For not one moment i actually watched the movie, i was totally mesmorized by the way Bill made dinner super concentrated. When i took my first bite, i sighed in delight. 'Do you like it?' Bill asked me. I told him from now on he would be my personal cheff. That made him laugh, wich made me blush.

After dinner me and Bill got ready for bed, we were both really tired. When i dried my face after washing it i looked at myself in the mirror. On the other side i could hear Bill walking around looking for his stuff. As a wave it came back to me what my boss had said to me earlier this day. I just looked at myself while i let his words repeat itslef in my mind. I started tearing up, stuff like that always had me get upset. Especially because of my past. A few tears started olling my cheeks, i felt again like an total idiot. Suddenly the door opened and Bill came in. His face turned worried when i quickly iped away my tears. He noticed my red eyes and held my face with his hands. He looked into my eyes and said: 'Whats wrong my love? Did something bad happen today at work?' I nodded and told him about what my boss had told me. His face turned mad and he said: 'Youre boss is completely wrong, im a 100% sure you did an amazing job. If i would ever see him i would surely give him a piece of my mind. Dont let an a$shole like him get into youre mind.' I started tearing up again by his sweet words and laughed. He then got me into bed and hold me tight while facing me. He kissed my forehead. 'Bill?''is said. 'Yea?' 'I bet you think im a crybaby now,there is a reason why it made me so upset okay.' 'I dont think that at all, i would never. Do you maybe wanna tell me the reason?'

Guess its time to open up now. 'When i was younger i had a good childhood, until my parents decided to move. My mom got pregnant with my little sister and my parents wanted to raise her outside of the city al of a sudden. I had to leave all my friends and my school behind, that was very hard for me. Outside of the city in the nearest village i went to school. It was the complete opposite of my older school, everyone here thought i was weird just because i was new. I quickly started to get bullied more and more. It started with just slight pushes in the hallways and mean notes. But it eventually got to stealing my stuff and locking me up in dressing rooms. When i told my teachers as a cry for help they just told me i was being weak. For a long time i tried to not let it get to me and tried to fight back as hard as possible. Until one day a few bullies came to my house. My parents were having dinner at my grandparents back in the city and i was home alone with my then baby sister. I was just minding my busniness when one of them threw a roc thro the window. Glass shattered everywhere and lots of made small cuts into my arms. A piece of glass hit my baby sister in her face. It had made a pretty big cut in her face and i started to panick. I almost thought she was gonna die. I called the hsopital and my parents and she turned out completely fine and she did not even have a scar. My parents decided they wanted to talk to my teachers about the bullies, this time they really took it way to far. The only thing they had to say to me was that they were dissapointed in me, i acted weak. I blamed myself for everything for years. Then we moved away and i slowly started to accept and understand i did not deserve any of it and my bullies and old teachers were in the wrong, not me.' I burried my head into Bills chest trying to hide my tears that had appeared while telling my story. He stroked my hair and just kissed me on the top of my head. 'Oh my love, i have no words. I wish i could make sure nothing of it had happened. You did not deserve any of it im so so sorry for you my darling. Im also really proud of you. You tell me if there is anything i can do for you, i will do anything.'I looked back up and said: 'please sing for me, youre voice calms be down.' 'Ofcourse hun.'

Listening to Bill singing by youre side for me i peacefully fell alseep. I dont every want him to leave.

╰┈➤ Another chapter so soon?! I hope you enjoyed it! I wont me updating everyday tho, but tonight i suddenly wanted to write again. Leave requests in the comments! <3