Escapade | Ninjago AU

Chapter 41

Shade's POV

I lie on my cot, staring at the top of my tent. Even though I'm sweating, I can't muster up the energy to move from underneath my blanket. Other than when using the bathroom or eating, I have stayed here ever since I finished my training yesterday. The exertion wasn't enough to fog my brain even though I was about to collapse.

My head has been pounding relentlessly, and it feels like everything that I eat is going to come right back up and onto the floor. Beneath my nose is dry and flaky from the snot that I've had to wipe off, and the same goes for my cheeks from my tears.

To say I was blindsided by Nya is an understatement. I understand that she had no clue that Jay was still alive, but she knew the whole time that I would still be waiting for her. In my mind, a break is just time apart, not a pause in the commitment. She clearly didn't feel the same way.

Nya and I are by no means the perfect couple. We argue over little things and get sucked into our individual worlds. We're defensive and use attacks to shield ourselves. Even with that, she's never landed a harder blow on me than yesterday.
Twelve times, they had sex twelve times. One can be an accident, even maybe two if they're on the same night or if you're drinking, but twelve? That's very deliberate, especially since it's been over a year since Nya and I did it.

It's not as though I'm not attracted to Nya. She is objectively one of the most gorgeous women I have ever seen. Even though I'm not big on touching others, it's not as though I don't want to do that type of stuff with her. Things are just always so hectic in the army, and when I'm not working, I usually don't have the energy to initiate things.

Did he seduce her into doing it with him? That has to be it because if she ever wanted to do it, she could have just done it with me. Plus, if she wanted to do it with him, she surely wanted to do it with me. He was just an easy break from reality. He had to have been.

It doesn't even matter anymore. At this point, I should consider myself broken up with. It is sickening what happened (my nausea can attest to that), but I shouldn't have lost my temper like that. Not only did I throw the ring into the water, but I cussed Nya out, and I love Nya. She was 100% in the wrong, but I should have kept myself in check, and now, she's probably made it thirteen times.

I lost my companion of over three hundred years, and now my bones feel hollow. A tear rolls down my cheek as I continue to look at the same beige cover for who knows how long.

"I know you probably don't want to see me, but can we talk?" her voice halts all of my thoughts.

I shoot up, hinging at my hips so that I'm now sitting. My blanket falls off of my torso, but when her deep brown eyes scan over me, I pull it back up to cover myself. She has seen me naked over 100 times, and I never felt the urge to hide myself. But now? Jay isn't Cole by any means, but my pasty, lean frame has nothing on him. Considering my girlfriend has been in his arms as of late, I don't want any comparisons to be made.

"Yes, of course," I let out a cough, quickly reaching up to dry my cheeks. "Let me find some clothes..."

I roll out of bed in my black boxers. I pick the first two items off of my clothes stack and slip them on even though they're technically dirty. "Can we just sit on my cot?"

"Sure," the two of us reach the stretched piece of fabric and take a seat on opposite sides.

She digs around her pocket before reaching over and dropping something in my lap. "There's the ring. I used my powers to get it out once you left."

I can't even move to grab it. I just stare at the little trinket that I was so excited to give to her. "If you're going to break up with me, just do it," I state, keeping my face neutral.