It's been hurting me hurting me hurting me deep inside
I've been aching and thinking, don't even know my mind
I've been crying and trying to stop all the thoughts
And when I'm getting to it I feel that it's wrong
Cause I feel like that pain is the realest thing I've got
It defines me in a way words cannot
It's the freedom I get from sorrow
It's the passion I couldn't express
It's the only way I can be
Who I wanna be
Cause my pain defines me
And what other's cannot see
It's my way to scream
It's my realest dream
My wildest me
And in that strange way
I've come to like pain
Because that's the way I express who I am
