DS #3: The Demon's Ecstasy

Panimula

ERRORS AHEAD

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When I was young, I have this one imaginary friend who tells me to do bad things. He lives in my mini closet or in the mirror, and every night just before I falls asleep, it talks to me.

So creepy, right? But for me, isn't. He gave me a love that my dad, stepmom and step sister can't give. He made me feel so special when he talks to me.

One morning my step mom's purse was missing and she found it in my room. Not gonna lie, I stole it.

"Why did you do that, Venussa? Mali iyon, ang pagkuha ng hindi saiyo ay masama." Pagpapaalala saakin ni Dad at ng step mom kong si Alicia.

I'm in the verge of crying and my body's starts shaking.

"I-I'm sorry, Daddy, Tita, Ate Alison, my imaginary friend, Trae, told me to take it." I confessed.

Soon after, I stuck a rusty screw in my step sister shoe, her foot got infected badly when she stepped on it.

And again, I claims that my friend told me to do it. But then, days passed, I took things farther than I ever thought I actually would. Ang bata kong isip ay parang isang alipin sa kung sino mang nasa likod ng cabinet na iyon.

"She need psychiatrist, Vladimir. I always see her talking to the mirror and murmuring something!"

Natagpuan kong nagtatalo ang Daddy ko at ang stepmom ko. Lingid saaking murang edad na ako pala ang kanilang pinagtatalunan, I'm just five years old who seeks love from my parents.

So in the next day, my stepmom and dad took me to the doctor and asked me a lot of things like who is my imaginary friend.

"His name is Trae, he tells me everything. He tells story when I'm about to sleep. He's my friend and probably, I want to marry him when I'm 18!"

"Mr. and Mrs. Abalos, sorry to tell you but your daughter, Venussa, is suffering from schizophrenia." I heard the doctor declared something.

I am sick?

"W-what? B-but how?" My daddy's stuttered.

"It is uncommon for schizophrenia to be diagnosed in a person younger than 12 pero ang anak niyo palang ang nahawakan ko na limang taong gulang palang ay may sakit na ganiyan."

"A-ano po ang dapat naming gawin,doc, para gumaling siya?" My stepmom interrupted.

"Isa lang ang masasabi ko, there is no sure way to prevent schizophrenia—but there are ways to prevent or reduce symptoms, such as taking medication, avoiding substance use and receiving therapy. Schizophrenia is a mental health condition that involves recurrent episodes of psychosis or a loss of contact with reality."

"But she's just five to take the therapy and medication!" Nabigla ako ng sumigaw si Daddy at kalampagin ang lamesa ng doctor.

Tahimik ko lang silang pinapanood habang blangko ang reaksyon saaking mukha.

"No wonder kung bakit sa murang edad ay nagkaganiyan ang anak mo, Mr. Abalos. You're too aggressive."

That was the last thing that I've heard because my stepmom dragged me outside and buy me a snacks.

Hinaplos niya ang ulo ko at malambing na nginitian. Salat man ako sa aruga ng isang ina, pinunan naman niya iyon kahit na may nagagawa ako sakaniyang mali.

But despite of her kindness, In my young heart and mind, I was jealous so killed her. She've got into a car wreck and was killed.

I cried a lot even if it's I am her killer. An innocent five years old kid was a murderer.

A detective brought my daddy inside our house for questioning while I was in the kitchen eavesdropping and mourning for my stepmom.

A detective told to my Dad that my stepmom's brake had been messed with. At first, they questioned my dad. My dad didn't do such things like that but I did. At last, the officer sees that my father is telling the truth.

"May alam ka ba or kilala ka ba na p'weding gumawa sakanila no'n?" My father shaked his head and said No.

It's so vivid in my memory that night, I am sitting in my room alone. My stepmom's dead and my stepsister is back living with his biological father.

I laid down on the floor in front of the cabinet and started talking to the dark voice inside of it.

“Hey Venussa, it’s me, your friend. Good job following my instructions on how to cut those break lines. You're a smart little girl. Now you and your father can live happily without your evil mommy and her ungrateful daughter around. Trust me, You’ll be much happier this way.” the dark voice said so I giggled.

The truth is, my stepmom didn't do anything bad to me even her daughter, they are nice to me, but because of the voice inside my closet their features to me is like a monster.

In the middle of my laughter, my dad slam the door and grab my wrist and sat on my bed while gritted his teeth and his eyes were angry.

"D-daddy.. It h-hurts—"

"Why did you do that!?"

"M-my friend told me—"

"Bullshit!" He pulled his hair like a madman.

I was crying out loud while staring at my father's tears. Alam kong mali ang ginawa ko pero, iyon ang gusto niya at ayaw kong magalit siya saakin, ayaw kong iwan ako ni Trae.

In the next day, I found myself in the hospital wearing an uncomfy clothes and the nurse keep staring at me.

"She's just a child, Mr. Abalos. Hindi solusyon ang pagkulong sakaniya dito sa mental hospital."

"Gladys, she needs medication. At mas makakabuti sakaniyang dito muna dahil kapag narito siya, hindi siya magagalaw ng nilalang na iyon."

And I spend 7 years in that kind of cold place, surrounded by the unknown people.