A EUPHORIC VACATION

ending it

" You finally did it?"

"Yeah I did"

"Why, won't they miss you?"

Turning her head towards him she gave him a sad smile "Which part of me would they miss? The one that pretended to be happy for months on end? or the one that finally gave in? I was not enough for this world, I was never enough it drained me of every single aspect of it, I fought I did hard and long, but in the end, it became too much, call me a coward for taking the so-called easy way out but sometimes there's only so much the heart can handle I know that they never hated me and I know that they cared but there is only so much power we have over our thoughts and at the end they win"

" Was the world always this cruel?"

"I won't say cruel harsh maybe? But cruel no I was just shown the cruelness and harshness of it at a too early age but I blame myself for it I mean I could have listened but I didn't"

"Are you ready?"

"Can I just see myself one more time I was told that your soul tends to forget your face in a previous life.

" You plan on coming back?"

She shook her head at him "hell no, I was not cut out for this life anyway but I just wanna remember the girl that went through everything with me, I put her through so much all her scars are because of me, I hurt more than she deserved, I know everyone else is to but they will get over it soon I guess, I never played a fundamental part in their lives anyway, It was their need for me that made them stay once that was gone they left to"

"How sure are you that they never cared ?"

"I am not sure but you could see my pain through my eyes but none of them attempted to look closer and deeper except for four of them It was always the same thing always misunderstood always questioned I grew tired of it, I grew tired of the familiar pain that never ended it was like a poison injected into me from the start slowly killing me, so why suffer a slow painful death when I can end it all?"

"Don't be hard on yourself"

"I never knew how to not be hard on myself. so will you grant me this final wish?"

"Sure take your time"

"Thank you death you're not as scary as these mortals make you seem" With a soft smile she made her way towards looking at their grief-stricken faces, scoffing half of them never cared about her anyway, she looked at her face finally she was at peace the peace she craved all her life.