chapter three

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I had fun, I enjoyed myself after a long time of pretending to be happy, I had a smile on my face after a long time of forcing my lips to form a smile, I felt free after a long time of feeling trapped in my own body, though I was exhausted I had a lot of energy.

even though I had terrible pain in my back I still had fun, even though I had a horrible ache everywhere in my body I still had fun, though I was scared she would creep up on me anytime, I also had hope that she would leave me be for at least one day or a few hours.

joy wasn't the word but rather...freedom, for a while.

I miraculously got my appetite for a short yet enjoyable moment, for the first time in a long time, I felt heavy, I felt full and I didn't want to vomit, for the first time in a long time I danced, willingly, for the first time in a long while, when I looked at myself in the mirror I saw a teenage girl at an amusement park.

for the first time in a long while, I had a good day.

I sat down by Alison, the girl Micheal liked so much but didn't want to admit, after spending five hours in the amusement park, Micheal took us to a bowling place, Allison's request, for a second fun but more relaxing time, I need because my back, and Alison because she's a busy gal.

Micheal finally brought our hotdogs and sat down across from us, I took a huge bite of my hotdog once it was in my hands, I finally had my appetite back and I wasn't going to not use it to my best advantage, I had to eat all I could just in case the next day held something worse.

because having a good day...doesn't exist, not how my life is, but I pushed the negative thoughts far away from my mind, I didn't want my mood destroyed after such a good time.

"Micheal" Alison placed her arm on the table and her chin on her palm, "yes" Micheal switched his attention from the guys who were fighting over who would go next, to Alison, I couldn't help but notice a clear tint of colour on his cheeks.

I don't know why but seeing my brother like that made me cringe so hard, no explanation behind it just didn't look or sound right, "the boss told me to tell you that we will be working together on the tower model" he nodded before switching his focus back to the guys who had finally decided on who would go next, he ended up joining them.

"also Leah, how do you feel?" I swallowed my food, almost choking myself because I hadn't chewed it all the way through, "ahh... I coughed before I could answer her, she gave me a glass of water and a warm smile alongside her nice gesture.

I drank it.

"thank you," I said before placing the glass of water on the table, she smiled, "an umm...about your question, I'm feeling much better than yesterday so..." she nodded, I thought it would be awkward having her around, but it was the opposite, I wasn't exactly comfortable around but rather okay, like a person I want to know in the future.

though I don't think she would want to be my friend.

not that I'm not a friend worthy but I'm just hard to please, she was chill but she could never reach whatever standards I have set for people I want around me, maybe I was asking for too much, she is kind and she makes my brother happy, plus she treats me nicely, what more does she need to do.

but time will bring us together, time always has its way of creeping up on me just like, Her.

maybe it's because she doesn't like my brother and is leading him on...unintentionally, I just wish Micheal would see what I was seeing so he wouldn't have to be heartbroken at the end of the story, if I tell him he would probably think I was just being harsh.

a typical thing I do according to him.

but for surety, I...asked, "do you like my brother?" I caught her off guard, nevertheless, she answered  honestly, "No, does he like me?" I shook my head, I wanted to let the two of them handle the rest by themselves, I already had enough to deal with, I'm not a relationship advisor anyway.

or whatever they call themselves.

I chuckled for multiple reasons, one being that I was probably striking up drama, the second being that she was very clueless, third being that I was kind of interested in how everything was to unfold.

Micheal was pretty responsible, thus I had hope that he would handle everything rather well, I trusted that he would be responsible.

or maybe I just wanted to witness some drama.

I'm a terrible sister.

"that's good because I have a fiance" my eyes widened, and I looked at her with my mouth slightly agape, "b-but you are not wearing a ring" she chuckled, "it's not very necessary where he comes from" understandable, but still.

SHE'S ENGAGED.

that was a huge finding, how was I to tell Micheal without destroying him, without breaking his heart into little tiny pieces.

and come on, out of all the women on this planet he decided to crush on an engaged one. my shock turned into panic and panic turned to questions, "w-why didn't you tell him does anyone in the office know?" sooner I realised my questions gave away my lie, "ahh...yes, I announced my engagement yesterday at the office, it would be weird for Micheal to have feelings for me even after knowing I'm to get married soon"

she continued "wait is that why he invited me here tonight? oh my goodness," I froze once I realised what I had just done, and instead of clearing things out, I made it worse by not saying anything, with my silence she concluded everything.

when Micheal finished bowling with the others which I wished he hadn't, he came towards us with a wide smile, "Micheal I would like to keep our relationship strictly professional, please" with that she left leaving Micheal flustered, and me with a whole lot of questions to answer.























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