The Boy With Depression

chapter 5

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***Bella pov***

We got off the bus and entered the house. I still didnt know what i was going to do tonight. I dont even know if he likes me. But i like him. When i first saw him i liked him. He is very attractive and i dont know why those other boys are so mean to him. Probably jealousy.

I pulled Jess down stairs. He seemed really tired so i layed him down in my bed. He quickly drifted off into unconsciousness. He looked so innocent. He is innocent. I smiled and went to find Ty.

"Aye Ty." I sat on the couch beside him. He looked at me and smirked.

"This is about that virginity thing." He stated. "Isnt it?" I shrugged.

"Kinda." I blushed.

"Well what is it?" He asked. "Are you backing out?"

"No...no....no." I said. "Its not that. Just that..."

"That what. You can tell me anything Bells." He told me. I nodded.

"What if he doesnt like me? Like the way i like him? What if he says no? I would be so embarrassed." I explained. Ty took a deep breath.

"Bella." He sighed. "You are beautiful. And amazing and gorgeous. Why would he say no. Who would say no." He laughed lightly.

"When did you do...it?" I asked. Akward.

"I was 14." He shrugged.

"Okay then." Was all i could say.

"When was your first time?" He smirked at me.

"When i had just turned 15. With that guy that moved to Hawii." I said with no emotion in my voice.

"Oh." Was all he said. "Well i gotta pee. But when you do it tonight use this." He took out his wallet and pulled out a silver packet. I knew what it was right away. "And just to warn you...he is going to be really nervous. I remember how nervous and scared i was. He isnt going to know how to do it. Also dont be rough on him. Its the poor kids first time. So be gentle and dont force him to do anything. And make sure he is gentle with you too. You might have to show him step by step how to do things." He smiled and i blushed again. He slapped my back. "Good luck kiddo!" He laughed and walked to the bathroom. Ugh. Why am i so nervous. I have never been this nervous before.

I slowly got up off the couch. It was already 9pm. I walked down stairs to my room. Its now or never. The sky is the limit. No backin outta this one Bells. I walked in to see Jess still sleeping. So i got into the shower. I cleaned myself under the hot water. It seemed to take all this stuff off of my mind. When i got out i dried off and put on a grey tank-top. I threw on some zeebra underwear. I walked out to see Jess awake. His head turned and his brown eyes met mine. I smiled and walked towards him. He lifted up the blanked signaling for me to get in my warm bed with him. I crawled in and sat up. He layed his head in my lap and i played with his hair. He hummed with my touch which made me smile. "Hey Jess." I spoke quietly.

"Yeah babe?" He asked. I smiled when he called me that.

"Do you like me." I asked.

"No." Thats what i was afraid of. "No. Bella i think i love you. I think im falling in love with you. And im falling hard Bells." I big smile grew on my face when he said that.

"I love you." I just decided to throw that out there. I mean what the hell. YOLO.

"You do?" He asked astounded.

"Yeah." I giggled and blushed. "Hey Jess can i ask you something else?"

"Anything."

"Are you a-a...ummm....virgin?" I asked. He froze.

"Yeah." He sighed. "Embarrassing i know."

"No. It fine. I was just curious." I said. "Are you willing to change that?" I asked.

"Are you?" He asked back. I laughed a little.

"Yes. But i dont want to have sex with you." I spoke.

"Thats what i was afraid of." He sighed.

"I want to make love to you." I corrected myself. "To show you how much i care." I added.

"Wha-What?" He stuttered.

"You heard me." I laughed. I tickled his sides. He laughed but then tickled me. I laughed even harder. He hovered above me and tickled down my stomach. I batted his hands away. He started at me for a while with his big brown eyes. "Take a picture it will last longer." I smirked and he blushed. "Awww...your too cute when you blush." I told him. He blushed even more and my smile grew wide.

I threw my arms around his neck and pulled him down to me. His lips met mine and they moved in sync. He smiled into the kiss and so did i. I knew what was about to happen.

The kiss deepened when his tongue slipped into my mouth.

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