Green tulips, the flower that represents hope.
When face to face classes returned, I was suddenly filled with hope; thinking that maybe my life won't be that bad after all. Almost daily interactions with you is worth it in exchange for academic stress.
Of course my hopes still was not that high early on because I hated myself for not having any talents. And I don't want you to be with someone talentless.
So I did the only rational thing at that position, improve.
You see, I made up my mind that I'm not as good as you, but I can't see anyone else worthy of being with you-except a better version of me.
So I improved, academically, physically, mentally, etc. I improved everywhere because of you.
And at that point I realized-"Plan B it is."
I continued following that plan, hoping that my future is a future with you.
It's not a future focused about you too, and that's what I love about it. If I continue striving for Plan B, then I'll achieve a future that uses my strengths. And the fact that it intertwines my fate and yours makes this plan perfect and without flaws.
It's like it's meant to be.
I know that I have a chance with you in the future, but I was so surprise to find out that you like me back. It was too early to my plan.
The idea of you liking me in my state where I can be better is too good to be true that I needed months to process it.
Pls, there are still times where I think to myself "SHE REALLY LIKES ME?!?!?!?!?!?"
As I said, "You're the dream girl every poets wants," a small glimpse of you alone gives me a clear picture of love personified. I get inspired to write thousands of metaphors and stories because of you.
I want to let you know that you're the person that gave me hope to improve and be who I am today.
Nisa, you're my green tulip.
